CCAs

Let me just rant in this post about my cca k . After this , no more . & if you read my blog or what , thats up to you . I highly doubt so anyway .

OKAY .

Kept thinking about what Mr Tan said during PTM . He told me to make a decision now , whether to quit or stay on . I really wanted to say out the REAL REASON why I'm not going to many art club sessions , but I doubt he can help anyway .

No one can help me in this .

Do you ever know how it feels like to sit alone at a big table , with people in groups all around you , & not open your mouth for 3 hours ? Literally not opening your mouth . Do you know , how it feels like to actually know that you'll be alone for three hours ? Do you know , how it feels like to know that you actually used to have friends there & now you dont ? Do you know how it feels like when those teachers look at you with those eyes that are somehow showing pity ? Do you know , how it feels like when the teacher there keeps telling you , "You can do better !" when you've already gave in your 80% ? (80% is alot as you're moodless) Do you know , how it feels like , to have a friend there , only to let the person whom once used to be your friend take her away ? If you dont know , then dont comment .

Of course I dont mind walking home alone/going to school alone . All these are just normal to me . & They dont take long too . Three hours is a long time . Other people have friends in their CCAs , except me . So now you know why I dont communicate in my CCA ?

Everyone already has their own groups , how do you want me to cut in & communicate ? Sorry , thats something that I cant do . & Soon , as time drags on , the feeling builds up , & soon , you'll just stop going to the CCA , just to avoid that feeling .

I doubt you'll even know how I feel . No one does , no one experiences it before .

You wont know how it feels like to be seated at your seat for three hours , trying your best to draw a decent picture , when a teacher comes by & tells you to redo , saying "You can do better ." when you're already trying .

You wont know how it feels like actually KNOW that , "I'm going to be alone for three hours today . I'm going to sit alone there for three hours ."

You wont know how it feels like to keep on wishing that time would pass by faster so that you can faster leave the place .

You wont know the feeling of wanting to leave a place so badly that you can just CRY thinking that its 3 hours later .

You wont know the feeling of DREADING to see everyone there , as everyone is in groups & you are the only one alone .

You wont know , & you'll never know . Cause your life is a bed of half roses & half thorns , whereas my life in that CCA is all thorns .

BUT , I still manage to appear for some of the sessions . Why ? Cause I didnt want to let you down . But its really really hard for me to go . Do you get it ?

I'll continue to go , to appease you .

Its a mystery how I still can be so cheerful even after all this . Not many can accomplish that .

Swine Flu Song .

Hear !

:D

In school now ~

HELLO !

I'm blogging at the school's computer .

Hahahaas , so fun . But the keyboard sucks .

:D

H1N1

When the H1N1 first started at Mexico , I told my mother ,

"All countries shouldnt let their citizens come back already . Who is there stays there first , until the whole thing stabilize then allow them to travel freely again ."

BUT ,

No one thought of it . So everyone continued travelling , until the virus spread until Singapore .

If only people asked for suggestions , or thought of what I thought , then everyone would be happy now . See ?

My twitter has more updates ! >>>>>

:D

What I have been busy with in school ,

Drew my most hated food on JIAJIA's table on monday . Yes I dislike eggs but I'm still human .





Drew this out of boredom on Wanying's paper . She told me something which reminded me of bomb , thats why .



My new tigger bag . Thanks mum ! :D Still deciding how to use it .

Anyway , here's a summary of what happened today in point form k ! I'm lazy .

- Went to school .
- Less than half the class there .
- Miss Foo went through a maths paper .
- Played monopoly during PE .
- Mr Lau just blabbered on during physics .
- Mr Lau suddenly went around talking to people asking them about going to poly/JC .
- Recess ~ Duck noodles :D
- Miss Foo went through a maths paper again .
- Mdm Norpipah let us do whatever we want during English .
- Most of us played Murderer & Detective .
- Very fun !
- Would want to play again if given the chance .
- Wanted to play during assembly but didnt .
- Clapped for Hercules .
- Vincent hit me many times cause I said , "He where will have girlfriend ." & everyone got the hint .
- Stayed back in school due to rain .
- Saw Angela & Jiaying .
- Cancelled plans with Kaixin .
- Rain stopped .
- AMK hub to eat sushi with Wanying .
- Bought a new toy !
- Hard to open it .
- Figured it out on the way to MRT .
- Went home .
- Mafia wars .
- Watch tv & spongebob.com .
- Ate dinner . (Fish , wanton , rice & cereal prawn's cereal)
- Now blogging .
- Very tired .

PS. Should I say you deserved it , or you deserved it ? HAHAHAAS .
YOU DESERVED IT . Good for you ! :D

BYEBYES .
:D

Wordy post again .

Just trying to waste time here .

Waiting for the mafia war energy to faster come back , cause I went to rob DON COLLIN'S properties until all bankrupt , now I have nothing to rob ! ):

& I'm very drowsy now . I walk like a drunkard , I'm talking crap . You all know right ! Everytime you see me with my one line of eyes & deeper voice = Felicia is very tiring = Will be talking alot of crap . Like today during MTL , I was very very tired , then Vincent anyhow spelt my name , so I kept insulting him .

Thats his problem . (:

Now I'm very tired & there's no one to crap too . I'm going to sleep soon .

The bad effects of sleeping at 1am & waking up at 5.45am :
- You will feel feverish (Thats how I always feel)
- Your eyes will be very heavy .
- Eyes start to close .
- Head is on table .
- Suddenly , Mr Lau will say , "Eh (your friend's name) , your friend very tired ah ?"
- Then you will know its you & suddenly wake up .
(Cause only half asleep you see)
- Then he will ask you for your name .
- & gives you a shock by saying that he will remember your name .

Thats what happened to me . What the hell right ? Thank you .

I'm very tired now .
Byebyes .

Oh , by the way , I feel very good today ! I forgot all my anger towards some people & I forgave everyone ~ Thats the way to do it ~ xD

:D

I really starting to get used to the feeling

of sitting around & doing nothing except playing mafia wars & restaurant city .

Let me haolian abit k !

YOU KNOW MY RESTAURANT CITY , has reached the maximum level & now I'm the first in my list & I'm very rich ! It makes me very happy however I wish the money is real life money ~ Hahahaas !

Alright , back to point . I'm really starting to get used to this kind of life . Its not bad actually . It makes me happy just knowing that I dont have to study for a certain subject at the moment & I can do whatever I want , whenever I want .

However its gets abit boring at times & I dont want to go to school tomorrow .

K byebyes .

:D

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A huge sad face for everyone , cause I'm UNHAPPY .

Dont come near me , I'll bite .

My hobby .

You know ,
Since December last year , I have been interested in those woodcraft ! However , since I'm KIND OF lazy to carve the wood out myself , I bought those premade ones & just fit the pieces together .

See my latest work ! :D





Then I added the furniture that I did with my sister a about 2 months ago ,











The other works I've done include those like ,







For my uncle .



For my Dad .



For my copper sulphate (II) crystals . xD

There is still a windmill & a smaller house that I didnt take photos of as they are on display in my house's living room ! :D Hahahaas . Maybe I shall take photos of them another day . I have done like so many for now . I would like a break !

Cause each time the wood brush/scratch past each other , it makes my hair stand on an end . It keeps on doing that ! Its the same when I or some person scratches paper . Hahahaas , my mum cannot hear people writing on the whiteboard with those kind of like you press very hard that kind of sound . She also will hair stand .

I'm bored . Playing mafia wars & restaurant city ! :D

:D

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You all are liars !

LIARS I TELL YOU . LIARS !!!!!!!!

You know , I tell you all I'm fat , you all say I'm okay lor . 你们全部都在睁着眼睛说瞎话 !!!!! (Translate : Tell lies without batting an eyelid) . Cheater . Everyone is cheating my feelings ! I saw my photo on the class blog .

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME !

AHHHHHHHHHHS . Okay , I'm going to slim down k ! But of course , I'm not going to torture my gastric by not eating my three & a half meals a day (the half is recess) , cause if I dont eat , my gastric will call out to me & torture me with tremendous pain which will in the end cause me to turn white in the face like a tissue paper & then wither on the floor & die .

I'm going to slim down by the normal method . EXERCISE ! :D I'm going to be slim & fit soon & I wont be in that stupid FAT club anymore . I never wanted to be in there lor . Whatever lah . I'm going to perspire alot & slim down !!!!!!!

& You can do nothing to stop me .

During the June holidays , I'm still going to eat ! But I'm going to lead a healthy life & stop making my heart pump so hard . Shall eat less cholesterol (You know where some cholesterol comes from ? EGGS !!!!) , etc etc .

Cannot say here , Angela knows why ! :D

:D

I just came to a relevation today .

No matter how many times I've said it , no matter how many times I've uttered it in anger , nothing changes , & nothing will ever change .

Year after year , history keeps repeating itself . You keep on doing the same things over & over again . We tried to calm ourselves & repeated the same thing to you over & over again . Sometimes you know it thru others , while sometimes we just told it to you straight in your face .

You never get it , do you ?

& You're just bent on humiliating me . You just want to show the world how ugly I am . Thank you very much but I dont need that kind of help .

You know what you did . We tell you the same thing every year . & yet year after year you just find excuses to cover up for your ugly doings .

Look , I've given up . I'm not going to say anything about this to you anymore . I've given up all glimmer of hope that maybe one day you will perhaps change & stop doing such stuffs . Seems that our words are too weak to go through all the fats in your brain .

& I'm not discriminating you nor am I insulting you . There are fats everywhere in our body & our internal organs are protected by fats . So there you go . I did learn biology after all .

& Yeah , dont bother asking me who is it . You know who you are . & perhaps the people I'm closest with will know who I'm saying . Perhaps its you , perhaps its not . Its up to your brain & the way you are brought up .

This is the end of the very upset post which I have to type out cause I wanted to voice out my feelings . I hope this will be the very last post . I have given up on you = I wont care about your doings anymore = No more angry entries .

:D

If you know me well ,

You'll know that I love animals ! & Hate insects . But thats a story for another day . :D

However , if you know me quite well , you'll know that I love tigers ! Especially the white tigers , though I love the orange tigers too . See , both my favourite colours ! :D









Taiwan's lovable white & orange tigers ! :D

But for those who know me very well , you'll know that I love pandas too ! Black & white are my favourite colour combinations . Hahahaas , if you everytime go out with me , you'd either see me wearing black or white . :D & also , their eyes match mine ! The colour around my eyes is black too ! Cause of eyerings & eyebags . xD







& today ,
when I was watching 'Animal Planet Reveals Asia' , one of my favourite shows in Animal Planet , (I'm not nerd !) I saw this very cute animal !

Its called , RED PANDA .



See ? Isnt it cuteeeeee ?

Oh , did you know , mozilla firefox can let you set themes , so I set a very cute cartoon firefox . & today , I learnt that FIREFOX IS ANOTHER NAME FOR RED PANDA ! So I've been in love with red pandas for a long time & yet I didnt know ! Oh & by the way , only my family knows that I love foxes too ! Although they can be quite smelly .

Anyway , red pandas ! Here are some of their information .

- They only eat bamboo shoots ! Herbivores . :D
- Their population in this world is decreasing due to habitat fragmentation (Geog students can learn this)

& Today when I watched the Animal planet , I saw the red panda preparing her nest for birth ! & I saw the birth too . The babies are so cuteeee . :D Also , there's one red panda they were tracking that died . So sad . Can actually see the tail all this there . Should be the CLOUDY LEOPARD THAT ATE THEM , its their main predator . Not really a fan of leopard but I love leopard designs ! :D

Here are more pictures of red pandas ! :D

















Arent they just adorable ! I love them like hell ! I want to have a chance to see them in real life one day . Soon , that day will come soon . :D Also , I havent gotten a chance to see the Giant Panda in real life before too . ): Too bad , they're in a country which I'm not interested in .

Anyway , I'm going to transfer some of these photos into my phone & set as wallpaper ! They are too cute to resist ~

Alright , I'm going to watch TV now . Using the computer for too long killed my brain cells & made me dumb . & very tired . Mafia wars is too slow for me . xD So while waiting , shall go watch tv ! :D

Byebyes !

EDITED AT 12.55AM :

OHMYGOD I JUST SAW THE NICEST PHOTO OF A WHITE TIGER I'VE EVER SEEN . Okay , its photoshopped , but its VERY NICE !



Oh my . I'm completely mesmerized by the tiger .

:D

Have you heard ?

EXAMS ARE OVER .

Yes no one is kidding you .

After one WHOLE month of studying away , okay , at least 3 weeks of studying , I can finally take a break . No more worrying about fail/pass , the next day's subjects etc . NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE .

But just like my english composition , "As people get back their results , some laugh while some cry . This is a common sight to see , as six months down the road , history repeats itself ." Something like that ! Yup ! Almost every six months we are subjected to the torture of being stressed & wanting to pull your own hair out .

Anyway , in the time which I'm not updating , here are some of the many things that happened . Erm , not arranged in order .



See the difference in soup colour ? The auntie gave alot of chilli & I ate it . Almost died .



This photo very nice right ! :D



Hahahaas , celebrated my dad's birthday with my whole family .



Went "studying" at the library with Abigail & JIAJIA . The WTH is what JIAJIA wrote . & the bottom one is what I wrote . So , if you read it out loud , it goes , "WHAT THE HELL THIS IS A LIBRARY PLEASE KEEP QUIET !"



See my fantastic bed which is filled with toys .



& take a look at my "neat" table which my mum keeps complaining about . However , its very neat now ! See my whiteboard , its stuck at "6 more days to midyears ! Panic !"







The new addition to our family . Hamsters ! I have 2 . This is one of them , the breed is yellow pudding . The other is the white one , I forgot the breed name . Anyway , I call them both hams . xD





This is the other one . The white one . Not much difference , but the white one is fatter ! More chubby & runs faster too . The yellow pudding one , I always hold it . Its character is just like me ! Always want to sleep , & quite lazy .

Hahahaas , I always say , "Hey hams !" & my mum loves to go there & say , "WAKE UP ALREADY ~" =.= Dont worry , I havent forgotten my rabbit . Hahahaas , he understands human language ! :D


Alright . I'm going to rest now . Please stop stalking me . Thank you .

:D

Pocoyo

I asked before about a cartoon which I showed in my pictures .

I know the name already ! Its called Pocoyo .

See the intro .



So cuteeeeeeeeeeeee !

:D

I'm so so sorry !

For the past few unhappy posts .

Well , the rainbow always comes after the rain right ? So yup ! My rainbow has arrived & its going to STAY FOR GOOD !

Anyway , I'm now looking at a world full of pisai , BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED ONE ON FRIDAY ! Do you know how TRAUMATISED i am now ?

Now I dont dare to sit there already . Seriously I dont dare too ! & Somemore , I dont know if its because its in the dark or what , BUT THE PISAI IS BROWNISH BLACK ! Please I pray hard that its because of its in the dark . I'd rather be its normal colour rather then rotten !!!!!!!!!!! Besides , WHY PEOPLE SO FREE DURING EXAM TO GO DIG THEIR NOSE ?!

So disgusting .

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs . I WILL BE SCARRED FOR LIFE ! I mean like , I accidentally touched before , as in , those inconsiderate people of this world left it behind for my innocent hands to touch , but its the first time I touched a pisai of someone I know & somemore its soft & rolled into a ball & so damned disgusting .

YOU DURING EXAMS SO FREE THAT YOU GO ROLL YOUR PISAI INTO A BALL AFTER YOU USE MULTIPLE FINGERS TO TAKE IT OUT FROM YOUR NOSE ?! DISGUSTING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

You keep making me traumatised & feel that my life is at stake . !!!!!!!!!!



Anyway , on a random note , some stupid guy was smoking in front of me at the traffic light today , & when he was walking the other direction , I said the word "sucker" very loud . Anyway its true . They suck the smoke out of the cigarette , so I'm not using the wrong word neither am I accusing him or anything . :D


Anyway , my level in restaurant city is very high ! JIAJIA & Angela is asking me to play mafia wars ! Soon ~

I'm very bored you know ! Tried to study maths but was stuck & very lazy to continue . Seriously very tired lor ! My eyebags are becoming SWOLLEN & I DONT KNOW WHY ! T.T Oh my .

OKAY . I MISS THE GOGO CHICKEN BALLS SPAGETTHI ! LETS FASTER GO EAT K ! :D & pepper lunch too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss KFC TOO !!!!!!!!!! CHEESEEEEEEEEEEE ~ PIZZA HUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think , its just a matter of time before I become too fat to go out of the door .

:D