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We are like two ships on a narrow river which can only fit one ship ..
If one of us dont sink , we will collide & sink even deeper .
Therefore , I decided to sink , so that you can have a safe journey .

So touching right ? T.T
But the ending of this book is =.= .
& I've been thinking about this line for one whole day liaos lors .

Maybe , just maybe , I should do the same too . What for continue when both of us are miserable . I dont feel happy , you dont too . If one of us gives up , will you be happier ?

I've been busy nowadays .

Byebyes !
:D

Meditation .

Quite long since I last posted . Just a short post for now .

Thought about alot of things in the past week .

I learnt a few things ,

- To let go
- To give up
- To relax
- To think of absolutely nothing
- Meditation

Yups , these few .

I learnt that if you love someone too much , that person is not going to be comfortable & you in the end will be miserable . Therefore you have to let go , to lessen everyone's pain .

To give up , means to not care about anything anymore . If you dont care about anything , you wont feel hurt , angry , depressed anymore . Isnt that good ?

To relax . Because when I'm tense I will want to shit . So I have to relax .

To think of absolutely nothing . To just stare into blank space for a few minutes & let my mind & body relax . Just relaxing . & not thinking of anything . Escape reality for awhile .

Meditation . Sit on the floor . Clear your mind . Close your eyes . Slowly , let the problems creep in . Think with a calm mind how to solve them one by one . Acting rashly does not help anything .


& Yes , some people have said that I should be a counselor . But , if I cant even solve my own problems , how am I able to help others with theirs ?

I also dont know how I do it . I'm able to give advice , but I'm not able to solve my own problems . Of course , I wont talk about my problems . I will never talk about them unless asked to do so .

I'm not a big fan of talking . I do talk much , but there are many times when I prefer to be quiet & all alone .

I like the serenity ^^

Hahahahahas , I dont know . Weather is hot .

Humans have ugly sides . That includes physically .

I'm not talking sense .

Byebyes .

:D

I dont know .

I dont know , I really dont know what to post . Yes , I want to blog , but I dont know what to blog . I want to rant about something , but later people will ask me what happen & I really dont like that .

Fine I shall not care . I will rant .

Okay I really dislike people who act as if nothing has happened after we had a quarrel . Seriously , it just makes me angry all over again . I mean like , we just quarreled 5 minutes ago , & now you're talking to me as if nothing happened ?

I expect an apology , at least . & Yes , I blew up at my sister yesterday , cause she kept acting normal after quarreling , just to avoid apologising . I'm not going to let her off that easily .

She apologised to me through MSN , to my mum on a paper , & to my dad in viwawa . Cant she just say "Sorry" to me in my face ?

I rather hear one sorry from her , sincerly , without Singlish , than seeing 1000 sorrys from her in MSN or what .

I scolded her yesterday . Yeahs , I dont like her . She's always irritating me . But what can I do ? She's my sister .

Fine . Okay . Another one .

I dislike people who pity themselves so much !

I mean like , selfpity sometimes is good , but if you do it always , its going to be irritating .

I pity myself too , at times . But only for awhile . After that , I will tell myself , "Yups , there are people in this world worse then me . I was pitying myself then , now its time to move on & find things to make myself happy ."

I learnt it from "Tuesdays with Morrie" .

I really cannot stand people who KEEPS ON pitying themselves . They are just making a mountain out of a molehill , storm in a teacup , whatever .

Yeahs , I'm those kind of person , when I dont like anything about you , I'll keep it to myself . When I cannot tahan anymore , I will just scream & shout & spill everything out .

If I ever do this to anyone , that person wont be my friend anymore . Is like , when I do that , means I really cannot tahan anymore .

& if that person comes & act normal , I will get angry again & the whole cycle repeats itself . Just like my sister .

Okay . I've finished ranting .
Each time I'm angry , the words just flow .


Since young , I've always been a perfectionist . I always wanted my things to be perfect . If something was imperfect , into the dustbin it goes .

Especially for drawing . You can ask anyone in my family . I can take one hour to draw something & keeps on asking if its nice or not . After 5 minutes , if I dont think its nice , I'll just chuck it into the dustbin .

I can keep on drawing & drawing until I finds that its okay .

For bags also . It takes me months & months to find a suitable bag , & if I anyhow buy a bag , just for the sake of buying , I will only use it once or twice before I will just put it aside . But once I've got the perfect bag , I can use that bag for months , or years .

For highlighting also . If I highlight until very ugly , I will highlight over to make it better . Although its usually turns out more ugly , cause its darker , but I will always subconciously do it .

Hahahahahaas .

If I want to put videos inside my phone , I also want the videos to be perfect . The 1st time i put them in , there was this word , which I forgot , which is in the middle of the video .

So I deleted it .

The second time , the sound effect was terrible .

So I deleted it .

The third time , its good ! In my phone its clear , but small . But its supposed to be small , so yeahs . But it other people's phone , its blur .

I'm not going to do anything anymore . In my phone , its perfect .

Hahahahaas .

Fine . I like things to be perfect . Who cares .
I wont be updating until .. I dont know .
Until I feel like updating .

So yeahs , here's a video to listen to while I'm not around .



(:
Byebyes & gudnyts .

:D

hahahahahaas !

I'm quite excited yups ! I know lahs , tomorrow school reopen . & THATS WHY I'm excited . Fine , I'm crazy . Who cares !

I get to see all the people I didnt see during the holidays ! Hahahhahahaas .

& I blingbling-ed my handphone , calculator & psp ! The psp one is the most beautiful one . & it shimmers so brightly , in the sun & at night !

I shall take photos of it when I go out in the sun tomorrow ! Shiny things make Felicia happy !!!! :D

But then .. I'm abit sian to go to school tomorrow . How I wish school starts at 1pm ! T.T

Neverminds , I got my handphone to accompany me ! My bling bling handphone ! Bling bling bling , shiny shine shine !

I'm crapping . Shit . I'm tired . Gudnyts .

:D

Fine .

Okay , fine , post saved as draft .
Sort of like , I deleted it .

Thats all .

:D

I hate it lors !

Its 2am now .

Wo yao shui jiaoooooo ):

But hors , thats what I hate lahs , as stated in my title . I show you !

Mind :
Wahlaos , tired liaos . Orh orh liaos .
Heart :
Dont want lahs ! Sleep so early for what .
Mind :
Then I can rest whats !
Heart :
Everything also you you you ! Think of me for once lahs !
Mind :
Bloody hell , what you want me to think about you ?! I'm tired lahs !
Heart :
Oh , somebody's cranky .
Mind :
I'm not ! Its bloody 2am you know ?! Any normal person is sleeping now !
Heart :
Is it ? Then go sleep lors . Childish .
Mind :
WHAT YOU SAY ?
Heart :
Oh , nothing . (A)

See ?! Okay then I go & sleep liaos . My mind is starting to hurt liaos .
Gudnyts .

):

My blog is so dead .

But it also means good things uhs , means that I can gossip & talk about anyone/anything here , without having to think of what to blog before blogging .

For those who cant understand , it means , blogging more naturally . :D

But I also want people to tag lehs ! If not I feel so sian sial .

& I KEEP ON BUYING THINGS THESE FEW DAYS ! Tsk , I'll be the death of myself !

Buy buy buy , like as if I got alot of money like that T.T I'm trying to scrimp & save every dollarrrrrrr , by eating pizza each day I'm home !

Its not pizzahut's pizza . Is those readymade & you can just heat it up to eat it those kind . Yups .

JIAYOUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D