OKAYS ,
I'M SO DAMNED FRUSTRATED NOW .
the idiots come in a package .
those type of buy one get one free .
one had just infuriated me ,
& now the second one .
what , the idiotic-ness runs in the genes is it ?
like father like daughter .
the father ask others to help yet he just sit there like duapekgong ,
he no hands no legs cannot help is it ?
then ask why he cannot help he diao people .
HE NO HANDS NO LEGS IS IT ?
why must wait for me to come out for dinner then ask me ?
just cause i'm at home the whole day ?
you bloody fella ,
one day i shall chop of your dick then you know .
then ,
after that , came the sister ,
i know lahs ,
its my fault i didnt put the things in the cupboard properly ,
so all the things fell & hit her hand .
BUT THEN SHE DIDNT HAVE TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD .
=.=
fine ,
i'm angry .
i'm being unreasonable & angry .
SO ?!
i'm female , what can you expect ?
FCUK YOU ALL UPSIDE DOWN .
i hate this family .
this is not the 1st time i'm saying this ,
& i reckon it wont be the last time .
i hate them hate them hate them .
yeahs , & i want to go out of the house ,
but cant go out without valid reason .
AH , WHAT CRAP .
you know something ,
i hate you all .
i hate each & every one of your guts .
i'm not going to talk to any one of you all .
i hate this yap family ,
& i hate my surname .
i only love my mother .
THE OTHER TWO IDIOTS ,
THE BUY ONE GET ONE FREE ONE ,
I BOTH ALSO HATE .
you both are like turtles ,
stupid asses .
MORONIC ASSHOLES .
i'm really angry at you both .
*adacadabra*
YOU SHALL ACCIDENTALLY EAT MAGGOTS .
seriously ,
i hate you both .
sis , ever since you're born , my life hasnt been good .
why cant you be like other people's sister ?
why cant you be like darhdarh's sister ?
you see they both so close .
why cant you be like JIAJIA's sister ?
they both so good to each other .
why ?
& dad ,
I WONDER WHAT MUM SEES IN YOU .
i hate you so much you know .
from the time you hit me on the leg ,
& almost got sued for child abuse ,
till now ,
being biased .
you biased ass .

you know what i feel like doing now ?
THE TORTURE METHOD .
sis , i'd stick your nehnehs to the wall when you've grown them .
dad , i'll stick your dick to the wall .
no , i'm just kidding .
i havent reached that level of anger yet .
BUT I'M STILL ANGRY .
& yeahs , i know my hair still drop alot ,
but oh , its so unusual for you to care .
you hardly cared about me yeahs ?
i dont care about how much you give me when i go out all that .
MONEY DOESNT MEAN YOU CARE .
i want the parents love , not the money .
i rather have love then money alrights .
but of course ,
i wont snatch you away from the two females you dearly love .
i've always been alone in the family ,
& thats the fact .
facts dont change ,
just like the sun will never rise from the west ,
& the moon will never be made of cheese .

WHATEVER .

hahas , i just chatted with mr soon .
he's so damned lame uhs .
here's our conversation .

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
MR SOON ,
i need to ask you a logical question .

*
You have just sent a nudge.
*

Illogical.. says:
yes
ask

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
the sun rises from east or west ?

Illogical.. says:
east

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
thanks .

Illogical.. says:
err, how is that a logical question?
that's... just a question

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
cause its something everyone knows & i dont know .
xD
aiyas , i also dont know what i saying .

Illogical.. says:
u tell them
it rises from the front

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
i see your dn illogical , then i just ask a logical question uhs .
how come ?

Illogical.. says:
tell them
turn to look at the sunrise
and they will find it always rises from the front

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
=.=
you're lamer then i thought .
xD
LAME MR SOON .
xD
lame = cripple . +X
you there ?

Illogical.. says:
yes yes
zzz i'm not lame

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
YOU'RE A CRIPPLE !
+X

Illogical.. says:
you're the lame cripple

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
dont insult me .
(:
you can go & ask jacinta , I'M BILL GATES .
WITHOUT ME , YOU WONT HAVE MICROSOFT .

Illogical.. says:
since when are u bill gates
u bill gates then i am bill clinton
lol

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
=PP
you're just the retired president .
I'M BILL GATES , THE RICHEST MAN IN THE WORLD .
MUAHAHAS .
i'm always bill gates , its just that you didnt realise .

Illogical.. says:
really?

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
YES !
:D

Illogical.. says:
oooh

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
dont be jealous that i'm that rich .
xD

Illogical.. says:
can u pls give me free microsoft windows?

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
oh , i'm sorry , i cant .
i've sold them all !
:D
OI , HOW CAN YOU SAY I'M CRAZY !
i'm so hurt sial .
xD

Illogical.. says:
uh oh

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
YOU SHALL DIE !

Illogical.. says:
yes i hope i shall
but many yrs from now
cos i dun wanna live forever
hehe

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
nono , YOU SHALL DIE NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW .
MUAHAHAHAS .

Illogical.. says:
oh ok
i shall die

❤ feliciaaaaaa- says:
:D
YAYS .
jump off the building now .
:D

then i talked to jacinta ,
& she told me what she told mr soon .

JACINTA says :
mr soon~
did a loony talk to you on msn?

Illogical.. says :
yes
yes she did

JACINTA says :
HAHAS
sorry ar.
wait

Illogical.. says :
tell her she's crazy

JACINTA says :
lemme finish what i wanna say
im a representative of Woodbridge Hospital.
im gonna pull her back into there.

=.=
MEAN ASSES .
xD
after that ,
jacinta added mr soon into our conversation .
& talked alot of crap .
ask me for the conversation if you want .
anyways ,
today while i was typing HELLOS ,
& HAPPY HALLOWEEN to everyone ,
msn gave me this .



=.=
crap .
xD

barney & his friends .

HELLOS !
HAPPY HALLOWEEN !
(:
I'M SO HYPER TODAY ,
cause i went to tell everyone in msn ,
hellos & happy halloween .
BOO TO THOSE WHO MISSED .
I'M SO HYPER !
xD
i smiled until my jaws hurt ,
i laughed until i got a headache .
LOLS !

TAGS ARE GETTING LESS !
):

anyways ,
last night , at about 2am ,
i sms-ed darhdarh ,
& SURPRISINGLY ,
she replied !
i shocked sial .
cause usually she would have slept .
ohyeahs ,
did i mention ,
i met her yesterday at mosburger for the interview also ?
she also filled in the application form .
xD
they didnt call me .
anyways ,
even if they called , i also dont want the job also .
last night i was thinking ,
they still want us to go back when school reopens ,
next year is our streaming year ,
its so damned important ,
i rather have no money yet good results ,
then bad results & that miserable bit of money .
$3.2o an hour ?
=.=
my grandmother said she went for interview there before ,
(dont laugh)
she applied for full time ,
& it was $3.5o per hour .
we applied for part time ,
$3.2o an hour .
LOLS !
i think mosburger finally looked at our year ,
& they saw 1994 .
xD
i'm so bored now ,
3.21pm in the afternoon & i'm bored .
& yes !
i did something shocking today .
i ate 4 pieces of bread !
LOLS !
i'm growing fat .
I WANT TO SLIM DOWN .

shit , i'm not feeling happy already .
i want to go back hypering .
(:
i want to address two things .

queena .
why everything also have to add her in ?
we dont come in a buy 1 get one free alrights .
want to know something ?
i dont even want to go out with you anymore .
& somemore ,
the things you did ,
hurt not only me , but alot of us .
ask around , no one will tell you anymore .

mabel & christine ,
it isnt the 1st time already .
isnt it weird , why the way you both type are so similiar ?
& yes , you've lied to me again .
):
you badmouthed each other ,
& yet are the best of friends .
ironic .

I HATE SUCH PEOPLE .
FCUK THEM ALL UPSIDE DOWN .
rawrs .
whatever lahs .
i hate sharing people .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE .
(:

i shall continue hypering ,
cause i believe i shouldnt care about such people anymore .
& besides , i only know them in MSN ,
wanted to go out but never go before .
so , HECK CARE .
hurhurs .
xD

hahas , to queena , mabel & christine ,
remember all the bad things you used to say about me ?
remember how horribly & shabbily you used to treat me ?
& remember how good i used to treat you last time & now ?
remember all the badmouthings ?
now , you tell me ,
who's the one treating who good ?
(:
if you feel a tinge of guilt ,
apologise then .
it was your fault ,
hurhurs .
& i havent even settled with you the badmouthing thing .
if you want , i can also badmouth you ,
but i wont stoop down to your level yeahs ?
(:
happiness last .

HELLOS ,

had drama today .
acted for the sec one orientation .
i was one of the "audience" & "students walking by" .
LOLS .
but this is test only uhs .
super not feeling well today .
stomach is rejecting again .
but , surprisingly , after i ate ,
i felt much better .
(:
*endureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
after that , went home , changed & went out again .
mos burger interview .
hurhurs .
sign application form only .
cheys .
i thought is ask questions ,
then at the end , they will say ,
"when can you start work ?"
then we will say ,
"anytime !"
then they will stand up , shake hands & say ,
"welcome to our team ."
but then is fill in the application form only .
then they say they will call us tomorrow .
i'm scared uhs .
later they dont call me how ?
(:
pray hard they call us both tomorrow ,
& hope can work on the same day .
xD
by the way ,
ahmei's rotiprata tastes like bread .
YUCK .
& i'm wondering whether to buy that snowman .
hmms .
http://thelittleland.blogspot.com
anyone buying , i order with you .
(:
i want to buy snowman miss wittie .
hurhurs .
xD

you know something ?
its hurtful .
very hurtful .
& i'm not the only one who got hurt this time round .


lets play pretend .

had drama ,
end drama .
cleared locker ,
went home .
thats all for today .
(:
boring day .
came home & did nothing also .
stare into space ,
make babies .
crap .
=.=

you know ,
i have a friend called vernice ,
she is left out .
):
by her best friends somemore .
what kind of friends are they .
if i were her , i'd smack their head off their necks .
OHYEAHS ,
i remember ,
i got a paragraph on this in My Documents ,
last year wanted to show to that person ,
but in the end didnt show .
i still save it for memory .
its the exact same thing .
i shall paste it here .
BUT , i shall change the english to my present english .
cause my past english sounds HORRIBLE !
(:

you know , its so tough .
saying it is easy ,
its the doing thats tough .
& somemore , everyone knows i hate odd numbers .
i really dislike those trips .
i really dont want them anymore .
next time you all want ,
count me out alrights .
seriously , you both kept talking to each other ,
have you ever thought of how i felt ?
an occasional turn , keeping me in the middle ,
all this isnt enough .
i rather have 2 people then 3 .
& now , i dont feel like going tomorrow .
i waited so long , but now i dont feel like going .
i used to think the more the merrier ,
but now , i rather have 2 people .
i really dislike odd number groups .
you both treat me like how my family treats me ,
walk in front , talk talk talk ,
then i have to walk behind .
if i try to talk to you both ,
ignorance .
or not you both just reply something short .
hais .
next time , count me out .
i'm not interested .
i dont wish to be sparetyres or extra-ed .
really .
you know who you are .
its really sad to hear "iloveyou" come from your friend , but not to you .
& its really sad to see your friends have so much to talk about ,
but you have none .
its tiring to keep thinking of what to say ,
& how to say .
life is tiring , so is being with you both .
dont worry , you wont recieve sms-es from me already .
sms her instead .
i'm tired .
leave me alone .
i wont irritate you anymore ,
making your life easier ?
be happier okay ?
iloveyou .

wow .
one year ago , i wrote that .
one later later , i pasted it here .
really you know .
but , i forgot who i wanted to give it to .
so many rubbish in My Documents .
xD
CHEERUPS VERNICE !
everything will be fine .
(:
life sucks at times ,
but everything will turn out fine .
thanks amanda for cheering me up .
cause i was sad over the vernice thing .
hahas .
& thanks bernard ,
he made me make a confusing sentence .
"i'm considered smart to the stupid people but i'm considered stupid to the smart people ."
LOLS .
anyways ,
i made a new baby in facebook , called SOOJIAJIA .



& the real SOOJIAJIA went to abuse the baby SOOJIAJIA .



=.=
LOLS .
alrights then .
tomorrow then post more .
(:

oh , hellos .

you know what ?
FORGET IT ALRIGHTS .
for-get it .
i dont want to play anymore .
i quit the game .
i know perfectly well that you wont do it ,
why bother acting as though everything's normal ?
they were right .
i should give you time to cooldown .
& yes , i will .
i let you cooldown before talking to you again .
but , i know , i wont play the same game again .

i'm frustrated today .
thats all .
woke up too early .
& one thing , i dont feel like going drama tomorrow .
i'm tired .
but neverminds ,
i only going tomorrow & the day after .
can i not post about today ?
its just a normal day .

& yes , before i go ,
i want to post lyrics of a song .
which makes ALOT of sense to me ,
although it aint those slow songs .

Bet On It - High School Musical 2



Everybody's always talking at me
Everybody's trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead
Did you ever?
Loose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever?
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever?
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go?
Did you ever not know?
I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
How will I know if there's a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
With all I`ve lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake
Did you ever?
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Did you ever?
Blame the world and never blame you
I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way
I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
(Who I am)
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
(That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
(You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on me
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
Oh,
Hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up
It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own, it's such a scary place
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe
I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop 'til I get my shot
That's who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on me

the ones in red are those which makes alot of sense to me .
& its how i feel also .
it makes alot of sense ,
especially the sentence ,
"did you ever , blame the world but never blame you ."
it matches with some people i know from the internet ,
who often complains .
oh , whatever .

I REALISED SOMETHING ,

finding a person to talk to , to confine to ,
is the same as finding a needle in a haystack .

life sucks , go away .
insecurity fills the heart & mind .
no one there to keep it down .
whatever .
i'm not happy , so dont talk to me .

go away , before i bite your nose off your face .
SELFCENTERED !
everyone is .
moronic assholes .
& MORONIC ASSHOLES IS MY WORD .
i'm angry & unhappy .
dont provoke me .

dont say you aint selfcentered when you are !
stop decieving yourselves !

SELFCENTERED ASSES .

HELLOS MORONS (:
i rised & shined today !
i mean ,
i woke up early today .
LOLS .
playing with facebook this whole day .
SO FUN !
xD
created a few babies myself ,
let me introduce them to you .
(:



sleepyhead (:



ahboy .



tiantiankaixin ! (:



ahyandow .

LOLS .
then i also "mated" with rina .
& our babies are ,



prettie .
&



felna .

rina gave them their names .
LOLS .
fun uhs .
xD
then i had to go to PANPACIFIC hotel for dinner .
met everyone at the 37th floor .
then my 1st grandaunt came in ,
then she shocked ,
cause she thought its a few people only .
when she came in ,
she was greeted by ,
me , my sister , my mother , my father ,
my uncle , my grandmother & her other 4 sisters & 2 brothers ,
5th grandaunt's boyfriend , junheng & family ,
& my 4th grandaunt's husband .
alot right ?
altogether got 17 people ,
excluding my 1st grandaunt's family .
if count in , its 21 people .
LOLS .
xD
ate at 8pm .
had the wasabi prawns 1st ,
followed by duck skin in chinese pancake ,
then its buddha jumps over the wall ,
scallop & veggies ,
seabass in ginger ,
porkribs ,
noodles with shredded chicken & mushroom ,
& mango with sago dessert .
(:
they gave us individual plates .
as in , they already seperated the food for us .
i prefer like that ,
but sometimes ,
i prefer the one everyone take from a plate .
LOLS .
contradicting .
anyways ,
photos time ~



all the random shots ,
& the view from the 37th floor .
in one photo , there's me ,
i was too tired waiting for the food therefore i closed my eyes .
xD
i like the boy with the nemo hat !
(:



random shots & happy birthday !



family photo .
i shall list out one by one ,
since i'm in the mood to .
(:
the 6 sisters are all in front .
on the left hand corner , is junheng's family ,
beside them is asher's family ,
with my mother carrying asher .
then there's me , with my father behind ,
granduncle beside my father ,
who is beside my uncle holding to my sister ,
beside my 4th grandaunt's husband ,
behind is another granduncle ,
& the one on the extreme right hand corner ,
is my 5th grandaunt's boyfriend .
he's standing behind 5th grandaunt !
LOLS .
for the 6 sisters ,
the one on the extreme left , the one standing & wearing red ,
is my 6th grandaunt , the youngest ,
followed by my 4th grandaunt , who knows ms vasu ,
she was a teacher , but have retired ,
then beside is my 2nd grandaunt , more commonly known as small grandaunt ,
beside is 1st grandaunt ,
followed by my grandmother ,
& lastly , 5th grandaunt .
(:
we went to panpacific is cause asher's father treated everyone ,
as its my grandmother's birthday tomorrow ,
& my 1st grandaunt's birthday on 1st november .
LOLS .
how confusing .
alrights .
finished eating at 1opm ,
by the time we reached home ,
it was 1o.55pm already .
slept on the car ,
& ignored whoever who talked to me .
LOLS .
xD
bathed , changed & begun typing this post .
how tired .
YAWNS .
before i go ,
i shall post pictures of the boy with nemo hat !
he's so cute ~
he may not look cute in photos ,
but he looks super cute & shuai in real life .
(:





JUNHENG !
(:
if i'm his age ,
i'd go & woo him .
xD

JUNHENG !

hais .
why must life be like this ,
they put us in the same class ,
expecting us to be friends ,
then cause of some misunderstandings & grudges ,
then we have to become enemies .
why cant people forgive & forget ?
is it really that hard ?
carrying a grudge for long is the same as carrying a rotten potato .
if everyone just forgive & forget ,
wont this world be a better place ?
why must we bear grudges ?
its tiring walking around with a sack of rotten potatoes isnt it ?
hais .
nothing to say bahs .
amanda told me that christians learn to forgive & forget ,
so why bother bearing grudges ?
somemore , everyone is in the same class ,
why not work towards a better 2o8'o8 ,
then getting angry here & there ?
hais .
whatever lahs ,
i've apologised already .
i just hope you will accept it or something bahs .
might as well love then hate .

alrights .
i know i didnt post yesterday ,
cause i went home late .
& was tired .
+/

25th october 2oo7 , thursday .

BOWLING !
xD
hahas .
school brought 1o8 & 1o4 to superbowl hougang .
there's a competition ,
5 winners for girls , 5 winners for boys .
i won 2nd prize , cause i got 9o .
shakinah won 1st , she got 96 !
xD
overall , 1o8 WIN !
LOLS .
mr tan's wish came true .
1o8 won 1o4 ~
after school , stayed back to help mr tan with the PTM thing .
cleaned the whiteboard using thinner .
after that , crapped around all the way until parents came .
they came & we went back home .
mr tan gave quite okay comments .
xD
lalalas .

26th october 2oo7 , friday .

went to hall in the morning for safety talk or something ,
& then went for maths trail .
seriously , its boring .
xD
then after that , recess & free preiods all the way !
until freddy goh called & told everyone to clean up the classroom .
they let us go at 12.15pm .
at 12.15pm , freddy goh thanked the school .
LOLS .
then went to AMKhub buy tidbits ,
then headed off to kbox .
a guy there was singing the song alone ,
in the big big room .
scary .
+/
went back at 4pm .
walked around AMKhub .
perverse things happened .
LOLS .
i dont want to mention it here .
want to know , ask me in msn .
went back at 5pm+ .
instant noodles was dinner .
cause mum was sick & she went to see the doctor .
xD
i miss 1o8 .
i feel like talking to someone now .
hais .

pictures ,
they're finally in my computer .
(:



23rd october 2oo7 .



25th october 2oo7 .



today .

the holidays are here .
how i wish i still had school .
thats the problem with humans ,
you give them something , they want another thing .
never sastified .
i'm feeling kind of sad ,
cause i lost a friend ,
& i miss 1o8'o7 .
hais .
really had good memories in this class ,
although alot of times was unhappy & wanted to transfer ,
the people there rocks .
xD
hais .
holidays faster over .
LOLS .

xD
LOLS .
alrights then .
GUDNYTS PEOPLES .
(:


forgive & forget .

alot of problems nowadays , isnt it ?
yes , but its still important to joke , crap & laugh .
oh , you all wouldnt understand .
somehow i feel that blogger should close itself down .
isnt it the starting of all our problems ,
we got angry with a certain person & wrote it in blog ,
the person read it & got angry & blogged back .
& it just goes on .
but no , i didnt get angry with anyone .
people just misunderstood .

friendship problems ,
sad to say , there's alot now ,
just right before the school ends .
one year passed already .
it was a bad year for everyone , i admit .
everyone i knew was having a bad year ,
even my friends' friends are having a bad year .
come , lets sue 2oo7 together .
hurhurs .
alot of things happened ,
people cried , self mutiliated , & such .
cried , bit , threw a fit , everything happens .
2oo7 , a year of cries , hates & everything ,
but also a year of fun , laughter & joy .
isnt it ironic ?
well , i've learnt the fact that everyone is changing every second .
we cant please everyone .
& we've got to forget the past , treasure the present & embrace the future .
although many unhappy things happened ,
no sucidal thoughts , which is a great improvement from last time .
now , i need to have agitation management course .
i need to control my agitation level .
oh well , everything takes time .
i get agitated easily & i'm super sensitive ,
i'll try to be more numb next year ,
so i wont be sensitive & agitated .
(:
& yes , i've seen that blocking is in the trend now .
my mum also started blocking people in her msn .
well , to say the truth ,
i dont support blocking .
if you really dislike that person ,
say it straight to his/her face .
if that person doesnt accept it , he/she is childish ,
but i suppose the person is mature enough to think properly .
like for my mum's case ,
he's a rich man's kid .
& he talks crap .
thats the reason .
i feel that if thats really the case ,
well , ignore then .
sometimes its fun to have a person irritating you ,
so when you're in a bad mood ,
you can scold the ass off that person .
i'm mean , yes i know .
& i'm not pinpointing to anyone ,
dont misunderstand .
alot of people block me .
xD
my holidays are alrights ,
its abit packed ,
but still managable .
i shall have some rests in between ,
& go for a nice holiday .
ahhh , yes , i cant wait .
nahs , i aint depressed nor angry .
i just want to think deeply bahs .
somehow i just love thinking deeply ,
& just think about life , in general .
tomorrow , well , i'd be staying back alone as darhdarh heads off to choir .
& i shall think about what i want to do in life ,
so on so forth .
its time i think about my future .
& yes , i shall .

if you had to choose between one ,
friends & family , which will you choose ?
i personally dont know which to choose ,
cause both are equally important .
friends & family make a person complete .
without friends , a person will be lonely ,
without family , a person will also be lonely .
so , you need to have both .
i also dont really know how to explain family & friends the thing .

watched bioskin's dream come true on channel 8 .
i really wonder why people want to put makeup .
you see , you put makeup to have confidence & attract guys .
but , think about it ,
when you finally marry a guy ,
he'd see you without makeup .
& you both may divorce .
might as well dont put makeup .
your mr right will be one who wont mind your looks .
by putting makeup ,
although it gives one confidence ,
you are not you .
its not natural anymore .
& besides ,
inner beauty will always surpass outer beauty .
thats my opinion .
(:

yes , a long boring post full of boring things .
its all my opinions , rather .
if you all wish to comment about this ,
go ahead .
everyone has different thinkings .
i dont mind !
xD

alrights then .
i shall stop here .
i dont feel like talking about today ,
cause alot of things happened .
& my friends told me to keep it a secret .
LOLS !
alrights then .
everyone have a nice day .
(:

oh , HELLOS !
i havent posted in some time right ?
i apologise for that .
):
a few unhappy things happened recently ,
& yes , as usual , i wont mention .
it got me really agitated ,
really sad ,
& all sorts .
it made me realise a mother's love towards her child .
i've grown just about o.1% more matured after all this .
is like , whenever we hurt ourselves psychically ,
it hurts the mother's heart .
the sentence is something like this ,
she hurts her flesh , but it hurts my heart .
她伤的是她的肉 ，但是是伤到我的心 。
a mother's love is great .
now i realise everything ,
mum told me ,
sometimes , is not that they dont care ,
is just that they dont know how to show it ,
& sometimes , is cause i cant feel it .
hais .
how touching .

today , each paragraph is a different story .

i can hear screamings again .
sis has got into trouble again .
badmouthing her friend's sister .
see lahs .
=.=
now get scolded & all that .
dont say about her friend's sis uhs .
see all the unneccessary trouble she caused ?
aiyos .
she's crying ,
& i wish to comfort her .
but somehow i think she needs time alone bahs .
unless she's like me ,
i rather hug someone & let the person comfort me .
(:
one thing is , i dont know how to comfort her .
i feel guilty typing this as she's crying .
hais .
i told her to cheerups .
then she walked away .
i hope she'd be fine soon .
mum also cooldown bahs .
me & dad are not interfering ,
cause they should settle this themselves .
if we interfere , it may make it worse .
but , i trust my sister to know the right thing ,
& yes , i love her , although i dont say it .
i feel like telling her ,
life is full of ups & downs .
you will surely make alot of mistakes .
well , whats done is done ,
you have to admit your mistake ,
& apologise .
):
hais .
i feel useless sial .
she's beside me crying ,
yet i cant do anything to make her feel better .
fights are so common nowadays .
hope for better days ahead .
mum ran out of the house to cooldown .
hais .

that friend & her sister & mother also one kind de .
all bear grudges .
whatthell ,
to her sister , what right to you have to diao my mother ?
also not my mother do you wrong .
your parents didnt teach you is it ?
dont diao people .
you diao one more time ,
i'll slap you .
& i mean it .
i dont care if my mother's face is thrown or what ,
you made her angry .
YOU SUCK .
get a life alright ,
we dont owe you a living .
what , primary 4 so what ,
big uhs .
I BIGGER ALRIGHTS .
to her mother , how the hell do you teach your children ?
they are so ill-bred .
use the cane if you have to ,
somemore , you're their mother ,
you should set an example for them .
instead , you encourage them to do this ?
you're a failure as a mother .
friend - so big mouth for ?
my sister tell you , you dont have to say out loud de whats .
your mouth damned big lahs ,
want me help you sew ?
i help you sew until you cant even open o.o1mm of it .
you should die , i tell you .
to all ,
CHRISTIANS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FORGIVING ALRIGHTS .
you all lehs ?
you all are christians ,
whats the belief of the christ & all that ,
when you dont put it to your daily life ?
no point isnt it ?
forgive & forget .
such simple things you all also dont know .
GO TO HELL .
& stay there .
get eaten up by maggots for all i care .

alrights .
about today ,
i kept calling darhdarh a sex maniac .
LOLS !
for fun .
xD
then i asked mr tan who he thought the sex maniac was ,
he told me abigail .
hurhurs .
alot of fun today .
but was also very tired .
after school , went to suki sushi .
their food there is okays lahs .
xD
altogether , the 5 of us ,
$53+ .
LOLS .
its already considering cheap as we ate quite alot .
(:
went to AMKhub to walk walk after that .
alrights .
i shall stop here for today .
post more tomorrow .
cause i'm super busy now .
sorry .
xD

(:
i slept early yesterday .
cause of the stomachpain & tiredness .
& i drank too much water last night .
which caused me to wake up at 9am+ .
& i cant go back to sleep .
+/
so now is 11.38pm ,
i'm tired like hell ,
but i have to settle some things before i go .
YAWNS .
anyways ,
today .
did nothing bahs .
went out for lunch at cavana .
finally i get to go cavana .
xD
i keep on wanting to go but its too expensive .
hurhurs .
then went home ,
dinner was meesua .
again ~
(:
its nice to eat it with the chilli in black sauce .
LOLS .
then helped my grandmother put songs into her MP3 .
you know , she got ZEN STONE PLUS .
& its pink !
xD
no lahs , what i mean is ,
zen is a not-so-cheap brand .
& she got it .
how nice .
i couldnt get it ,
i'm too poor .
LOLS !
anyways ,
heading off to nihonmura tomorrow ,
uncle's treat .
cause he striked 4d .
WHY DIDNT LET MY FAMILY STRIKE ?
+/
he so rich , still strike .
but neverminds , he treat us to dinner .
xD
alrights .
i'm kinda frustrated today ,
cause the mp3 uhs .
must switch the songs to MPEG format ,
then i forgot to change from AudioTrack 01 to its name ,
or not i forgot to put artist title ,
or i forgot to put album title .
then , the mp3 hates me ,
cause its supposed to charge ,
but it didnt !
so now i have to charge it all over again .
=.=
luckily my phone is a mp3 player cum phone .
hurhurs .
alrights .
i have to stop here .
short post again .
cause i'm currently busy with something .
(:
i shall post long posts soon .
xD
LOLS .
& yes , tags are getting pathetic .
1-3 per day ?!
thats little ,
compared to other times .
my tagboard is hungry .
feed it .
(: