the more i try to forget the past ,
the more i'll remember it ..
i dont want to remember the past ..
i just want to forget everything ..
now ..
why cant i ?
i really dont wish to remember things ..
i want to forget them all !
why must my memory be so stubborn ?
why cant it let me forget every single thing of my life at one shot ?
why must my life be full of tears which are never ending waterfalls ?
why must my life be filled with sorrow ?
why is there no hapiness ?
why is there no hope ?
why .. why .. why ..
sometimes i dont even feel like remembering myself ..
i feel i'm going mad everyday ..
i'm going crazy ..
i'm depressed ..
sometimes i just want to cry out loud and after that ,
all my problems would be gone ..
i want to stay happy .. i really do ..
but i cant ..
i only can fake a smile ..
thats all ..