Sick .

I'm sick ! ):

See those medications on top ? I have to take them . Tablets are the worst things on Earth , the worst inventions , worst of everything . Liquids FTW !

I hate being sick , except for runny nose ! I love runny nose cause will keep sneezing . Now I got flu , fever & sore throat . Hardly any sneezing .

Dont you all love sneezing ? Especially when you sneeze loud , you can feel like , all the air from your head is removed & it gives you a great feeling ! I love sneezing .

Okay . I'm feeling cold now , was perspiring the whole day . Sian .

Ohyeah , that day , I was playing Spongebob in my PSP , then they have this .



HAHAHAHAHAAS , obscene !

Okay , I dont want to blog liaos . Will blog again soon , hopefully .

:D

Hais .

Typing out a post ,
Posting the post ,
Reading the post ,
Saving the post as draft .

All this , just to avoid somethings .

& The whole point is ? I dont know as well .

I'm back to square one , helpless & pathetic . Good enough ?

:D

A bunch of random topics .

Okay .

Let me 1st start by saying I'm sorry . Cause I posted yesterday & the day before but I went to save those posts as drafts , cause its inappropriate to post them , so yeah .

So .. I'm just going to jump from topic to topic ~

I'm reading the Twilight saga again & the 1st book never fails to make me so excited & feel so warm . ^^ The surprising thing is , while reading the 2nd book , the part when Edward left Bella , I cried ! The 1st time I read this book I felt that it was horribly boring . Now I actually cried ! I'm on the 2nd book now , it has been about , 2+ days ?

Mckey won for ANTM . Yes , I wish Analeigh won , & cause of one mistake she did , she was eliminated .

-pause for 10 mins-

Okay , I went to the Tyra Banks website & I wanted to quote something from there but another thing cause my eyes ! I saw her saying something about the guys from Twilight appearing on her show , & of course , I went to watch it & Robert Pattinson bit Tyra's neck ! Erm , he's the guy who's acting as Edward ! I think . xD hohohohoohohohos .

Okay I will quote from her website .
"The girls all had their problems with their commercial, but the first line -- which had to spoken in Dutch -- threw Analeigh off her game big time. Then, the girls moved on to the beauty shots -- and even though "commercial" Sam failed to pull off the catalogue model look, it was Analeigh who got the boot first."

Why ! She just commited one mistakeee ): Okay neverminds . Its over !

My head hurts , actually not really hurts ? It just kind of spins around & around . I dont know . These few days I'm not feeling that well . I lost my appitite & no longer feel hungry , also kind of moodless . Hmms , maybe its cause of , the monthly donation ? Hahahaas .

Anyways , now everyone overseas huh ! Leaving me alone here in sunny sunny Singapore . Its okay , two weeks down the road & it'd be my turn !

Oh & did I mention , I drew my shoes ! You know , those school shoes which are like ballet shoes & I dont wear them to school cause my leg looks fat when wearing them in a school uniform which I already look fat in . Yeah I decorated that ! & its very nice although its just black & white . Fabric markers are expensive , & its the recession now (my mum never fails to remind me that each time I want to spend money) & yeah , I have to save tooooooo .

& I had to wait for quite some time before the black ones came . So yeah ! Cherish money . Okay .

I'm tired !

BYEBYES .

PS. My sis fell down today , she slipped & fell in a puddle of water & I cannot stop laughing at that time . I guess she's angry , but I cant help it , I start to laugh whenever someone falls . Dont believe me ? Ask Mr Lesbian then . She knows the best . xD


:D

...

I cant seem to get to sleep tonight although I'm very tired .

:D

Heyheyheyheyheyheyhey .

Know what ? I wont let such things affect me anymore ! Its always good to have some time alone & think the whole matter through . Yeah .

& I just saw my calendar for next week & I was shocked . Like OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD , I'm going out for one whole week !!! Where am I supposed to find all the money ?!~

I'm not going to say who I'm going out with , cause later , something will happen . Yeah . Ask me , if you want to know it very badly & if you dont know it you will rot .

& Yes , I respect everyone's decision , stick with who is right manzxzxz !

Anyways you all also dont know what I'm writing lahs . =.= Neverminds , you know I know can already . Maybe I know you dontknow . Aiyas whatever lahs .

ANTM :
Ohhhhhhh Analeigh was 3rd ): ): ): ): ): I so so so so so wanted her to win !!!! But Mckey won , guess she deserves it too , she's such a good model , but Samantha ? She's just more of a clown , isnt she ? ><

Okay . But its so sad ): I love Analeigh ! & Analeigh & Marjorie are so cute together ! Seriously , everyone says so ~!

Oh , I really really want to say something , its the urge to say it again , but NEVERMINDS , it shall be left for another day . ^^

Blah blah blah .

PS. Oops , can you decipher what I'm writing ? Is it too hard for you ? ~

:D

Time after time .

The month of November is ending , means that December is coming , which also means that , 2009 is coming & I'm a seniorrr !!!!

Anyway , time passes really fast , & somehow , too fast for me . I cant seem to catch up ! It just seems like yesterday when I just started at Deyi , now I'm halfway through .

I learnt many things the past two years , especially recently . I learnt how to let go , to give up . Its not easy giving up someone that used to mean everything to you , but somehow you'd just realise , after all the begging , that maybe you're better off without each other , cause its just one-sided all these while .

I learnt how to talk less , & listen more . I also learnt not to ask so many "why"s , I only ask when I want to irritate . (:

In the process of all these , I've become quieter & more reserved in a way . In front of friends , maybe I havent changed much , but I know I did . I dont talk as much as last time , although I do crap more , but its to make everyone happier .

I learnt how to walk away from the ones that I once loved . Even if it means I have to get hurt badly . But at least it makes me stronger .

Somehow I changed alot in the past 2 years . I learnt so many things , & it makes me think deeper into situations . Many tears were shed & wasted .

I also changed my taste in music . Usually I just follow people , like whatever they like I also like , but now , I have my own taste . I love all types of songs , especially oldies , something which I used to ignore .

I've also begun planning for my future . I wont say !

Rina also said that I changed , I became less hot-tempered . Last time I used to flare up at every single thing , but nowadays , I dont feel like being angry or what . Its a waste of time .

Even if someone copies me now , who cares . The one who loses out wont be me . ^^

Okay , lets say about my looks . I realised that I changed so so so so much . I show you all ! This post will be filled with pictures sial . =.=

I'm going to post the photos from January 2007 all the way until recently . Then you all see how much I changed k ? :D I also want to immerse in my memories . xD



Me & Rina ! She changed ALOT .



Emooooo ~



AMK with Jacinta .






With Rina !

Then my piercing cameeee ~





Me & Yunting .

Then there was a point where it was an "act-cute" period for me . LOLS !







With Rina !



In the changing room ! (At This Fashion ><)



With Xinyi !



HEYSUPERMAMA !



With Sis .



Back to Canberra !



Laptop !



Twist ~



Chorlorxzxz .



With Apryl ! She changed ALOT too .

Oh , & I made a story ! :D





















I also made one with Yunting ! :D













& I changed my hairstyle !



Chio anot ? HAHAHAHAHAAS .



With Apryl .



With Rina .



Emo-ing is not my forte ~



With Amanda .



I miss the toilet ! T.T I think its Jurong Point ! xD

& There came the class chalet ! :D


JIAJIA & Me !



I’m all pink !



Those who went .



Wanying , JIAJIA & Me .



HOHOHOS , I want to act cool !



I’m from Egypt ! & that time I’m in Genting . LOLS .



With sis .



New haircut !



I was so happy uhs ! xD

2008 arrives ! CNY ~



Thats what I wore for CNY ! Although its damned hot .



Apryl !



Kaixin !

Soon , it was time to say goodbye to my long fringe . It was something I wanted at p6 , but I realised that I look damned old with it & so I chopped it off .



BYEBYES .



Deyi Musical !



Out with Abigail & JIAJIA .



Oops , I’m shy !



With Rina !



This was taken during Xinyi’s birthday ! :D I threw cake at herrr :D



Hahahaas , I took this photo for fun , & asked Wanying to take the same ! xD



Vitagen is good for you !



Spongebob ~







Kelong !



The shirt cute right !



Hahahaas , I was trying out clothes for the next day !



I love this emo picture sial . It makes me look so emo . LOLS . But its like as though I’m scratching my head . & I took this 5 mins after I woke up .



Before going out !







All is before going out ! Same day . xD



I was stretching . xD



Nerd spects craze . xD



Shutter shades !



White nerd spects ! I loveeeee them . :D



Close up !



Happy birthday Singapore ! I wore that to the zoo !



Jurong bird park , JIAJIA’s favouriteeee .

& then , I stopped camwhoring for awhile . I also dont know why , I just didnt feel like doing it . & I came back , loving the sunshine , & trying to take pictures with sunshineeee !~



Fierce mehs ?!



Hohohos , I dont care you !



Smell smell ! Ahhhhs , so fragrant ~



Rina ! She changed alot righttttt .









Webcam !





Hearts ! I love Mr Lesbian . :D



Panties !



See ! I told you I love Mr Lesbian ! xD







Webcam with Rina ! It was the day we went to eat macs at 12am ! :D




That day I went out with my family ! xD 1st time wearing green contacts !





Day out with Kaixin ! :D Most recent pictures ~

So did I change alot ? Yes right ?! Hahahaas , I dont really care if you say that I’m ugly or what , cause I know myself . More people complimented me compared to the one & only person who said I was ugly . So yeahs , I want to trust the majority . :D Rina said that I’m cute ! Hahahaas .

Two years have passed .. Sometimes , I may feel



Frustrated ,



Like slapping myself ,



Emo ,



Angry ,



Insecure ,



Alone ,



Headache ,



Or hyper ,

But thru it all , I know that there are those who care for me . These past few weeks were the worst weeks of my life . I had to struggle so badly .

Thanks to those who listened to me , although you didnt support what I was doing . Thanks to those who let me rant to them , & Thanks for giving me advice . I took it in the end didnt I . (:

Last but not least , Thanks 208 !





Hahahaas , see how happy I look ! xD

Thanks to those who were there for me ! I never regretted knowing you all . :D

Okay , I need to stop saying mushy things . xD Anyway , everyone changed , & so did I . I'm happy with my change , & I aint going to change back . I'm meaning physical & mental changes .

I've become more mature in a sense that , I understand more things . I learnt that , asking why has no uses . Some things just happen , there's no whys or hows .

So yeahs , I also had a point of time in life when I went so depressed , there was no way I could be depressed further . I cant go down anymore , the only way was up !

I learnt to pick myself up after every fall , telling myself that everything is alright , I learnt that determination may not work everytime , I learnt how to embrace failure & changes , I learnt how to ignore , how to walk away .

I learnt many things & its thanks to the people on Earth .

Nevertheless , I still want to be a vampire & rip people's heads off . I have a few people in mind . Hahahaas !

Okay , now lets move on to other topics .

Like now Rina Chua & SOOJIAJIA is in Malaysia ! Only at different parts . JIAJIA comes back on 23rd & Rina comes back on 25th . ):

Sooooooooooooo long .

Oh , I'm going out with Kaixin tomorrow ! xD We're going to have so much fun like Monday ! Hahahaas , actually its not tomorrow . Cause now is 12.22am , so it should be , I'm going out with Kaixin later ! xD

Hohohos , christmas is coming ! Too bad I dont have a chimney for Santa Clause to come in . T.T Ohyeahs , the extremely lame post in JIAJIA's blog is I ask her to write de , cause I told her to post before she go , then she post such a lame post . =.=

LOLS . Okay , I think by here , you all are tired of reading le bahs ! xD I also tired of typing . I take about 1hr+ to post all this sial . Tsk tsk .

Okay , BYEBYES !

PS. I shall post tomorrow , if we take photos !

:D