I'M BACK FROM THE CAMP !
camp's over ):
abit sad , cause the trainers & activities were great .
:D
okay ,
i will type down what happened for the past three days .

day 1 .
my handphone was taken away from me !
T.T
no lahs , is not confiscated ,
everyone must surrender their phones ,
because when we go out for activities , the dorm wont be locked ,
so anyone can just come in to steal our things .
the lunch was horrid .
my stomach couldnt digest it ,
& in the end , caused me stomachpain .
after that went for a nature walk ,
i tell you , its super tiring .
we walked like hell lors .
but , there's one clearing there ,
& its beautiful .
you can scream whatever you want ,
& will have echo !
xD
this activity is for us to show compassion to nature ,
or something like that .
after that , had dinner .
same same .
cannot digest .
after that , went to nightwalk ~
we have to walk through the forest , without any light ,
& occasionally we will see the trainers who will tell us where to go .
so we all hold each other shoulders ,
& passed messages through whispering .
in the end , we reached the clearing again .
LOLS .
it was fantastic uhs .
the amount of stars you can see there ,
is like , WOW .
you can never ever see this amount in singapore , as in ,
where we are staying now .
this activity was supposed to let us overcome our fear of darkness ,
but it hasnt seemed to overcome mine .
i'm still scared of darkness .
xD
after that went back to the dairy farm ,
debreif , supper & bath .
& was allowed to use handphone for 5 mins .
:D
12am lights off ,
& we all slept quite fast .
felt very cold in the middle of the night ,
cause the dorm was air-conditioned .
hahas .
ohyeahs ,
the dairy farm have no cows ,
because it USED to be a dairy farm ,
now is DAIRY FARM ADVENTURE CAMP .
xD
alright .

day 2 .
woke up at 6am+ .
how i woke up ? darhdarh was hitting my butt .
xD
brushed teeth , & went to assemble .
didnt change because the night before ,
we already wore what we were supposed to wear for the next day .
smart right ?
hahas .
xD
after that ,
we went to play those games ,
like , walk on rope all this .
i was the 1st to go in my group .
T.T
climbing up halfway ,
then i stopped , hugging the log .
i didnt dare to go up there & walk the rope .
it only has two ropes , both for your legs .
nothing for you to hold on .
& its about 4 storeys .
in the end , i didnt do it .
hmms , skipskip .
then went to ROCK CLIMBING !
:D
i wanted to reach the top , but my arm got totally stiff ,
so i stopped .
but at least i tried !
^^
after that went to absailing .
i think its spelled that way .
& i just remembered the name .
:D
its about 4 storeys high also .
& we are supposed to climb the scary staircase up .
the staircase is those type alot of holes ,
& can see through de .
when i reached the top , then went for the thing .
darhdarh & me go down together .
xD
the only scary part about this is ,
when you need to make a L shape ,
right on the edge of the top .
if the trainer just push you ,
then you can wave goodbye to your life .
after that , all you need to do is control the rope ,
then can slowly go down .
i didnt really feel anything when going down .
quite fun actually .
:D
darhdarh was very scared uhs .
hahas .
i think is because , if she let go of the rope ,
then byebyes ~
alot of people is scared because of this .
or , is because of heights .
alright .
went for lunch .
& got a check by mdm normila ,
because seng jung threw a stone at shermin ,
& shermin told mdm normila ,
& seng jung avoided it by saying his lock lost .
so we have to be checked .
those with bags must pour out everything .
heng that time we all never bring bags .
in the end right ,
found the stupid lock in the dorm .
he is faking it de lors .
i think he knows that its in the dorm ,
he just dont want mdm normila to scold him .
=.=
after that went to play teambuilding games !
flying fox was under repair lahs .
=.=
but when we played team building games ,
the flying fox okay already ,
but they dont want to let us play .
=.=
the team building games ,
1st one ,
we were supposed to take the rope ,
but without crossing over the log .
so aaron tied his shoe , & alot of shoelaces together ,
& brought the rope to us .
then we were supposed to stand on the log ,
another person standing behind us ,
& another person on the "island" .
we were supposed to be like tarzan & swing there .
& i'm the only person that screamed .
i really really dont like to swing lahs .
LOLS .
like very scary like that .
i'm not tarzan , i dont swing .
:D
after that ,
got another game is the LOW WALL .
two guys , lifted alot of people over the wall .
hahas .
wonder how their hands can take it lors .
16 people right ?
if i were them , i'd drop dead .
because not only do once lehs .
is do about three times .
3 x 16 = 48 .
is equivalent to about 48 people .
they are pro .
:D
after that went for camp preparation .
said cheers & rehearsed them .
after that , went for dinner ,
then we went for the campfire !
also changed into our camp tees .
:D
here are some of our cheers which i remembered .

"today we'll teach you how to kill a chicken ,
1st , you must hold the chicken by its neck , & crak crak .


* we sing *
ipoh eh taitai eh ya , oh ipoh eh taitai eh ya ,
oh ipoh eh taitai ipoh eh toki toki ,
ipoh eh toki toki eh ya .
crak crak . (breaking bones sound)

so have it died ?

no .

so how ?

now , we must wu ga sha ga wu ga sha ga the chicken .
(means turn the chicken around & around)

* we sing *
ipoh eh taitai eh ya , oh ipoh eh taitai eh ya ,
oh ipoh eh taitai ipoh eh toki toki ,
ipoh eh toki toki eh ya .
crak crak .
wu ga sha ga wu ga sha ga .

so have it died ?

no .

*us* HUH WHY HAVENT DIE ?

then now how ?

i will go home take a parang & chop chop the chicken .

* we sing *
ipoh eh taitai eh ya , oh ipoh eh taitai eh ya ,
oh ipoh eh taitai ipoh eh toki toki ,
ipoh eh toki toki eh ya .
crak crak .
wu ga sha ga wu ga sha ga .
chop chop .

so have it died ?

no .

*us* WALAOOOOOOOOOOOO .

then now how ?

i will go home & take my gun & chik chik boom . (means shoot it)

* we sing *
ipoh eh taitai eh ya , oh ipoh eh taitai eh ya ,
oh ipoh eh taitai ipoh eh toki toki ,
ipoh eh toki toki eh ya .
crak crak .
wu ga sha ga wu ga sha g .
chop chop .
chik chik , BOOM .

so have it died ?

no .

*us* PA JIAO UHS .

yeah , pajiao .

so now how ?

i will go home take a granite & weeeeeeeeeeeee BOOM .

* we sing *
ipoh eh taitai eh ya , oh ipoh eh taitai eh ya ,
oh ipoh eh taitai ipoh eh toki toki ,
ipoh eh toki toki eh ya .
crak crak .
wu ga sha ga wu ga sha ga .
chop chop .
chik chik , BOOM .
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee BOOM .

& thats how you kill a chicken .
:D"

thats one .
the other one is ,

"PAPA , MAMA !
i love you , you love me ,
we are one happy family .
with a great big hug & a kiss from me to you ,
i shall say you love me too .
PAPA MAMA PAPA MAMA
2o8 !"

i remember one is the fight one ,
another one is the clapping one .
& another one is ,

"xi shua shua xi shua shua ,
xi shua shua woot woot .
xi shua shua xi shua shua ,
xi shua shua nah .
xi shua shua xi shua shua ,
xi shua shua woot woot .
xi shua shua xi shua shua ,
xi shua shua nah ."

xD
must dance lehs .
& i was quite hyper that night ,
kept on shouting & laughing .
while darhdarh was sleepy .
after that ,
went for a bath ,
on the way there ,
we walked behind the dorm ,
& screamed because we heard alot of frogs .
xD
& went back to assemble for debrief .
on the way up the stairs ,
me & darhdarh saw a frog .
& we both screamed .
i screamed the high pitch scream ,
she also .
then we both dont dare to climb lors .
after that , faster rush up & go debrief .
hahas .
everyone is super tired , especially darhdarh .
then we all go & sleep earlier .
right before i slept ,
7 trainers came in ,
because someone reported seeing a lizard in our dorm ,
& they thought is monitor lizard .
so they all came in with brooms & all ,
in the end , find out that its just a tiny lizard without a tail .
xD
LOLS .
that lizard was right above me & darhdarh's head ,
before we left for the debrief .

day 3 .
in the morning , my butt got hit again .
LOLS .
but this time i never immediately wake up .
because darhdarh was shouting , "7AM ALREADY !"
we are supposed to assemble at 7.3oam mahs .
xD
i was trying to absorb what she was saying .
after that , after asorbing whatever she said ,
then i was like , "SHIT , ITS ALREADY 7AM ."
LOLS .
the stupid zhangchen lahs .
she before 7am wake up already ,
but she dont bother to wake us up .
=.=
kaixin say , all the ZHANG people ,
all not good one .
xD
so we all rushed ,
& assembled .
my stomach was still feeling unwell at that time ,
cause the past few days , the food cannot be digested .
><
anyways ,
we went for breakfast ,
had games in the morning ,
& cleaned up the canteen .
better then other classes , they clean the toilet .
xD
hahas .
after that , got prize presentation .
my group won !
we are the most enthu group !
^^
then took the bus back to school .
left mr tan at the dairy farm .
LOLS .
went back to school & then went home .
in the mrt , then i realised my dad has been waiting for me outside the school .
he also never tell me .
o.o
then he angry .
=.=
i went home ,
& was welcomed home by the puddle of urine on the ground .
maybe thats the way the rabbits say hello .
xD
hahas .
ate two packets of instant noodles ,
one can of F&N drink &
one vitagen .
growing fat already .
xD
but , once in a while ,
& also to reward myself for enduring & not quitting halfway .
its really very tiring , but fun !

thanks to darhdarh for the past three days .
^^
i shall thank her here .
thanks for holding my hand when i was scared ,
thanks for forcing me to eat the pills when i had stomach problems ,
thanks for scolding me when i was too stubborn ,
(because of your scolding then i not so stubborn lehs ! ^^)
thanks for enduring my irritating-ness ,
thanks for being there when i was not happy ,
thanks for giving me the support when i was scared ,
thanks for eating my veggies & the food that i didnt want ,
thanks for always being with me ,
thanks for waking me up , although it wasnt easy ,
& lastly , thanks for everything .
:D
iloveyou ~

^^
the camp made me realise some things i shouldnt have found out about ,
but i'll forget it soon .
i dont feel like remembering the bad things .
hahas .
ilovedarhdarh :D

& also , thanks to wanying & kaixin for your concern for my stomach .
:D
thanks to abigail , khairi & shakinah for making people laugh .
hahas .

LOVES ~

HELLOS HELLOS EVERYONE .
I'M BACK !
anyways ,
i need everyone's help !
should i go for the stupid 3d2n dairy farm camp ?
SHOULD I ?!
i called mr tan today ,
& i told him , if joan not same group as me , i wont go .
he say he will drag me there .
=.=
but i really wont go if she not same group as me .
he say he will say by monday .
SHOULD I GO SHOULD I GO ?!
hmms .
help me think okay ?
& yeahs , they say its like hell there !
T.T
& canberrians ?
its the same organiser who organised our p5 camp .
:D
but they treat us very well right ?
for my deyi de friends ,
theirs is p6 camp ,
they treated like dogs ):

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ?
help me lehs .
^^

FRUSTRATED ~

I HATE YOU , BIATCH .
YOU ALIENATED BIATCH .
I HATE YOU .
i wont even tell you anything about me anymore .
DREAM ON , YOU DISGUSTING HYPOCRITE BIATCH .

i'm sorry for MIA-ing ):

its funny how one person can say one thing & do another .
they keep on saying , "i hate this fella" ,
but then , in the end , who is the one who interact with that fella most ?
them .
i thought ,
dont like = no interaction ?
maybe i'm too outdated or what bahs .
now , i dont like a fella , who everyone else likes .
she's like everyone's angel ,
but to me ,
she's just a person who laughs at other people ,
she doesnt feel happy for people ,
she doesnt care for others ,
she's extremely selfcentered ,
she always wants to be the victim ,
she makes up stories which aint true ,
she wants the whole wide world to pity her when she has a problem ,
she wants the world to be happy when she got what she wants ,
she is dispicable , she is a biatch ,
& she is a liar .
ask me who she is uhs .
xD
i may say ~

& i also hate one more fella ,
but this fella is from my tuition .
she sucks , she often flirts ,
she is fat , she has a fat face ,
she has pimples , she have no dimples ,
she has long hair , she looks like a ghost ,
she has fat lips , she has a fat nose ,
she has small eyes , she is ugly .
& yet she flirts .
she wears white newfuture shorts , with those legs ,
she wears a skin tight tee which flunts her fats ,
she has ultra big boobs , & she loves to pop it in the teacher's face .
she loves to stretch , & pop her nehnehs in front .
she talks in an act cute voice , she acts as if she doesnt know everything .
if she doesnt , she might as well go back to primary 3 ,
when we started learning science .
"i dont know lehs ." "hahahas !" "huhs ?"
all so act cute , go die lahs .
=.=
stupid fella .
i will find out your name & i will post it here .

YOU BIATCHES .
i hate you all .

to another person :
oh , whatever . =.=

that person will never realise ,
its happiness now , is because of what i did .
if i never told them about that person ,
maybe that person wont be so happy now .
now , that person is so happy ,
but me ?
hais .
that people will never know .
how disappointing .
i did something good , yet i cant say it out .
i feel like slapping that person ,
& saying , "FCUK YOU , ITS ME LAHS . =.="
instead of hearing the things i shouldnt be hearing .
hais .
but what can i do sial ?
=.=

okay .
i'm done here .
i'll blog another day .
now , i have alot of work to do .
(:

MORONS .

before i say anything ,
let me say ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE !
today is ren ri .
:D

something happened , so ,
today i'm just going to show the video .
i aint going to post anything .
byebyes .



on speakers to hear what i'm saying .


okay .

yes , i love KANGCHENGXI .
is there a problem ?
=.=

i'm very tired today .
i placed my head on the table during literature ,
cause my eyes were closing & my head is going to drop anytime .
after that ,
miss nur'ain came ,
& said , "felicia , up ."
I'M A DOG UHS ?
=.=
i didnt bark , i am not barking & i will never bark .
so , you dont have to treat me like a dog .
you are the farmer jones , i'm the dog uhs ?
=.=
alright .
maths lesson woke me up ,
cause kept copying & learning .
^^
after school ,
pangseh-ed darhdarh ,
cause need to go abigail house do project ,
but the computer people going her house ,
so she cant go .
sorry to pangseh ):
anyways ,
bought macs , & went to abigail's house .
did abit of the chinese ,
& watch the trailers of SWEENEY TODD .
:D
i love that show !
& furthermore , it isnt as gruesome as everyone says .
its alright .
hahas .
after that ,
ate chocolate fondue ,
& i made a stupid video .
show you all tomorrow .
:D
i'm lazy to type .
i type more tomorrow !
hahas .
xD
BYEBYES ~

lalalas . chinese new year is going to be over soon ):

short post .
I HATE YOU LAHS HORS .
everything i do also must copy copy copy .
copy very fun is it .
you dont have brain is it .
have brain then use it lahs .
rot in hell lahs .
why whatever i say you also must use ?
YEAHS , THEN PEOPLE SAY YOU CREATIVE ,
BUT THE BLOODY IDEA CAME FROM ME .
i hate you so much .
stop copying me , you moronic asshole .
rot in hell , die there , burn there whatever there i dont care .
i also wont talk to you already .
you are such a disappointment to me .
tsk .

stupid assholes . faster kana slapped better .

okay .
so i was mean to trick you all yesterday .
><

muscles contracted & relaxed .
i wasnt prepared for the war .
it was beginning too soon .
it was a war between two worlds .
i had no choice , but to fight .
the outcome was clear ,
there was no win or lose ,
we , are the survivors .
actually , its writing about my stomach pain .
xD
cause when stomach pain , muscles sure contact & relax uhs .
& of course i wont be prepared for it .
its the war between my ass & my stomach .
both were hurting .
):
& i had to endure lors .
hahas .
so i'm a survivor !
tsk , i feel so lame now .
xD

ANYWAYS ~
today was quite rushed .
woke up at 11.45am+ .
then after that , ate tidbits ,
& they were my breakfast .
(:
after that , had a huge stomachache .
just like yesterday .
my stomach isnt well ):
everywhere also got problems .
tsk .
after that , went to rina's house .
stayed until 4pm+ .
then had to go back ,
cause my godmother & cousins came .
then abit paiseh if i not there .
rushed back , & they stayed for awhile more before going .
=.=
sis bought her nitiendo .
aiyas , dont know how to spell .
so now her hongbao money left abit only .
xD
i asked dad to save mine ,
but i took out $1oo .
i cant keep promises to myself ,
everytime i do that , it'd fail .
that time i said i will take out $5o ,
then i took out $1oo .
=.=
okay .
very bored now .
I FINISHED THE GEOGRAPHY POWERPOINT !~
now left is , resize the words , & put inside thumbdrive .
(:
alright .
i shall do it now ,
with kaixin's help .
:D

HOHOHOS ~ MONEYYYY .

I'M CURRENTLY ON A HYPER MODE .
cause , i found out ,




I'M





PREGNANT





FOR





AROUND





THREE





MONTHS !





the pregnancy kit was positive .
can you believe it ?
my own child !
yeahs , mum was pretty mad over it .
& dad said he will cut that guy's penis off .
they are calling the police now .
now i know why i kept vomiting this few weeks .
& i'm beginning to love sour stuffs .
she asked me to abort it ,
but i'm not a murderer .
she said i had too much sex ,
thats why .
well ..
hais ..









































no , i'm just kidding .
xD
the good news is ,
I FOUND OUT KANGCHENGXI's BLOG !
I FOUND OUT I FOUND OUT I FOUND OUT
I FOUND OUT I FOUND OUT I FOUND OUT !
okay , i should stop .
(:
his url is http://kangchengxi.blogspot.com
:D
& he had it since september .
i didnt know .
T.T
okay .
i feel that i'm going crazy again .
i went around taking his photos .
=.=
HE ALSO HAS FRIENDSTER !
he's so cute , so shuai , so .. nice .
:D
okay .

about today .
had a very very very nice sleep ,
which resulted in me having a very good mood today !
had a very heavy lunch , which was cooked by my mother .
& i quarreled with my sister .
=.=
she went to wipe the table ,
then she went to the kitchen , & said ,
"jie , your chair not pushed in ."
usually , the 1st thought that comes to your mind ,
when you see a chair like that is to put it into place right ?
who in their right minds tell the person ?
=.=
so i said ,
"why you cannot help me push in ?"
then she gave me those bushuang face ,
& went to push it in .
so from the time she went to push it back in ,
till the time she went back into the kitchen to get drinks ,
i kept scolding her .
why such a simple thing cannot help me do ?
i didnt notice mahs ,
since you noticed , why cannot help ?
=.=
weirdo .
then mum & sis needed to go to the temple to pray ,
cause they "chong" tai shui .
then me & dad stayed in the car for three hours .
he slept & i read a book .
i read from the starting to the ending ,
then they came back .
o.o
THREE HOURS .
after that , went to my 6th grandaunt's house .
hahas .
dinner was pizza , KFC , & some food they cooked .
^^
of course , i only ate the pizza & kfc ,
but i didnt eat so much !
i only ate 1 piece of pizza ,
2 chicken drumsticks ,
& some popcorn chicken .
hahas .
(:
recieved 2 hongbaos ,
then went home at 7.45pm .
quite early to go home ,
but their house was at geylang .
so when we reached home , it was around 8.15pm ?
xD
tomorrow going to rina's house to visit .
hahas .
ohyeahs , i finished the geog powerpoint already !
i need someone to help me see the size lahhhhhs . ):
okay okay .
i have a video to show you all before i go .



now , i dislike taiwan , although there are alot of nice food there ,
& cheap stuffs .
they gave me a bad impression .
i refuse to think that 5566 is also like that .
tsk .
disappointed .
they themselves cant speak english properly ,
& yet they want to critisize us ,
saying we have a weird slang .
sometimes , we also speak in proper english ,
it just depends on the situation .
& besides , i feel that they are just jealous ,
that we can speak better then them .
tsk .




lalalas ~ :D

i suddenly remembered something which i thought of ,
cause i didnt believe something yesterday .

me :
OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD .
*faints*
*wakes up*
OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD .
*mother slaps , faints*
*wakes up*
OHMYGOD OHMYG ..
*slaps myself & faints*
*wakes up*
i believe now .

LOLS .
yeahs .
(:
hahas .
about today , read below .
:D

stupid .

i have the bloody urge to blog .
i want to scold people .
skip this part bahs .
you can read the bottom one .

dont say that now is CNY , so i cant scold .
i had enough of her fcuking attitude .

you really 生在福中不知福 .
she slapped me when i ate slow , but not you .
she chased me out of the house , not you .
you ask her , she used to hate me alot ,
until my dad scolded her then she became better .
but she's still frustrated with me at times .
just because she scolded you once you are angry with her ,
& say she treats me better .
she treats me far worse then you .
you want , you can dig out the history & see .
she never ever interacted with my friend's parents .
she never bothered to help me carry my bag .
during my primary school days ,
which is the period of time which you are born ,
the only thing she did for me , is walk me to school each day ,
& fetch me from student care .
you ask yourself ,
when your bag is heavy , who helps you carry ?
who is the one who always plays with you ?
who is the one that put the smile on your face ?
its them , our parents .
or should i say , your parents ?
you see , when you are quiet , they bother to ask you what happened .
& you actually got angry with them for asking ,
you think that they are irritating .
you never see , when i'm quiet , do they care ?
do they even ask me ?
last time , only dad plays with me .
but now i'm grown up already , how you expect him to play with me ?
& somemore , he has you .
mum ? she also needs some happiness ,
you three together , are the happiest trio .
when i talk to mum or dad , you'd butt in .
they dont even care about me .
yeahs , everyone say they very good ,
prepare breakfast for me , prepare dinner ,
sometimes joke .
like that only .
little sis , your childhood is so fun , yet you dont cherish it .
i last time have maid , so hardly spend time with parents .
even up till now we are also not close .
with you around , we drifted even further .
but , since you bought them the joy that i couldnt give ,
i didnt really hate your birth .
but , i just dont like you , to 生在福中不知福 .
they really treat you damned well .
its because of you , i hardly communicate with them anymore .
they always had to take care of you ,
giving the famous excuse , "she is younger ."
they kept on giving you attention , then i didnt communicate with them anymore .
its like , we lost contact although we stayed in the same house .
last time , when i was p1 & p2 ,
i see those kids going home with their parents ,
you know how much i envied them ?
there was no one to help me carry my ricesack bag ,
there was no one i could tell my feelings to .
you have the childhood i wanted ,
yet you aint cherishing it .
you have everything you want ,
& yet , the only thing i want , i dont have .
a parent's love .
tsk .
cherish yeahs .

was supposed to be scolding , but dropped tears instead .
maybe its the insults i got today that made me so agitated .
i kinda hate cny , its full of insults for me .
hais .
but then i also cant do anything .
i hurt , those people also wont feel it .
sis , mum , relatives .
tsk , you all love to insult me so much .
coming to 14 years already , still not enough .
i hate you all .

alright , today .
woke up late , the alarm rang but i went back to sleep .
went to my mother's father's father's brother's wife house .
she's an old lady already ,
& her husband died not too long ago .
she kept giving us food to eat uhs .
& she also kept rabbits .
(:
after that , went to my father's friend , James house .
the boy there very cute , & active .
the girl , quite rough , but also gentle .
stayed for awhile before going for lunch .
alot of places very crowded so we went to Upp.Thomson there .
the place there is very oily .
ate prata there then went back home .
did the geography powerpoint until 5pm+ ,
then went to godmother's house .
ate dinner there , the potato & chicken is delicious .
& was abit scared of the dog there .
watched tv until around 8.45pm .
then went back home .
i dont feel like continuing .

fights fights fights , quarrels everyday .
you all not sick one is it ?
CHINESE NEW YEAR LEHS ,
since yesterday kept quarreling .
dad , this morning i just told you to scroll down to read the OTHER instruction ,
then you diao me , give me those bushuang face .
until now still abit bushuang with me ,
not even talking to me anymore .
mum & sis , say i fat , okay uhs , it wasnt me who wanted those legs .
i inherited it from the person who said i was fat .
then at night , insult me again ,
small eyes , big butt .
so ,
i'm a fat person , with small eyes , & a big backside .
thats nice .
doesnt mean that brat is skinny , means i have to be too .
how was i to know that i will inherit the fat legs from you ?
i have bigger boobs then you , then you abit not happy ,
say what , big boobs means no brain ,
or , i can do without the fats there .
stop saying you joking or what lahs hors ,
you mean it , & you know it .
& stop insulting my character .
i can tell you straight in the face ,
I'VE CHANGED .
last year , last last year , all were different from now .

you all everytime say she skinny , say i fat ,
say i small eyes , many pimples , fat leg , big tummy ,
single eyelid , grow fatter each year , look "different" .
how many more can you all come out with to make me hurt more ,
to make my self-esteem go down even lower ?
go on lahs , say me uhs .
you all say me like that ,
still expect me to smile .
DREAM ON , GO FLY KITE .
it'd never happen .
if i slapped you , you also wont smile at me .
its the same .
you insult me , dont expect me to be happy over it .
i call you a biatch , will you still smile at me , & be happy ?
no right ?
assholes .
as much as i feel like stuffing my feet into your ass ,
then stuff it up your mouth for you to suck ,
i wont do such things .
you all wait ,
when i'm really angry i will .

is insulting me really that fun ?
after 13 years , still so fun ?

its the worst CNY .

HELLOS HELLOS .
:D
happy new year !
called some people & sms-ed some people last night .
i didnt post cause was too tired .
xD
anyways ,
about yesterday ,
school released at 9.3oam ,
then went back canberra with darhdarh & abigail .
then after that went minimart ,
abigail had to leave & yunting , amanda , xinyi & yanhong came .
then after that we all left uhs .
xD
kept talking .
& xinyi hors ,
LOLS .
she sms-ed me , asking me where are we ,
& that she wanted to come find us ,
when i was reaching my house .
=.=

alright ,
today !
i love what i wore today !
^^
its nice lors .
hahas .
woke up early , 8.45am .
then sat on the sofa , didnt eat breakfast ,
after that changed & went out .
godmother's house 1st .
:D
their dog , female de uhs , called baobei .
she hate me alot , she kept wanting to bite me ,
cause i show her a scary face .
hahas .
ate abit there ,
then went to .. i dont know how to say de house .
xD
got a male dog there , called wangwang ,
remember ? last year i also got say about him .
i love him alot !
he loves me ^^
he never bark at me .
:D
hahas .
mum say its because i'm a female born in the year of the dog .
maybe thats why the female dog hates me so much .
xD
alright .
then after that went to grandmother (mother side) house .
ate meesua for lunch ,
& accompanied uncle to collect the yusheng .
its $78 .
crazy .
& my grandmother's house is full of people .

me , my mother , my father , my sister ,
my uncle , my grandmother ,
my 1st , 2nd , 4th , 5th , 6th grandaunt ,
my 5th grandaunt's boyfriend , 5th & 6th grandaunt's 2 sisters ,
my mum's cousin , his wife , his child ,
my mum's another cousin , his wife , his child ,
my 4th grandaunt's husband .

i think is like that bahs .
21 people .
:D
went home after awhile ,
on the way back ,
went to the drivethru macs ,
bought my dinner , cause i didnt eat .
bought grandmother (father side) one too .
& for sis , cause she say she hungry , although she ate .
xD
went home & eat .
counted money also ,
quite happy .
:D

there were abit of quarrels today ,
between my mum , sis , & dad .
but , i think its over bahs .
(:

HAPPY CNY ~

i think i'm going crazy .
i also dont know why .
xD

okay .
so i felt like vomiting this morning ,
& it was a horrible feeling .
tsk .
must be the dinner yesterday ,
it was too oily .
hahas .
xD
then went to school ,
felt better , & then got menses cramp .
=.=
i seem to have alot alot alot of problems these days .
rashes , cramps , aches .
tsk tsk .
okay .
didnt really talk much today ,
very sian lors .
xD
but then after school talked alot .
& darhdarh's buttocks are flat now .
she banged it too hard on the seat .
^^
very very tired today .
this few days never sleep well ,
kept feeling cold .
the blanket was too thin ,
or i stupidly kicked it away in the middle of the night without myself knowing .
=.=
alright .
so , i was pretty moody this few days ,
cause i didnt hear any fast songs .
BUT YESTERDAY ,
MY WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER WORKED !
& i am a happy person again .
:D
okay .
i'm feeling very very tired now .
):
sorry that i didnt talk much today ,
& i think it made jiaying freaked out for a moment ,
cause she kept asking why i never talk .
really uhs , i never talk very weird mehs ?
hahas .
xD
hais .
GOOD NEWS !
i tricked a guy today .
he wanted to have sex with me ,
so i said okay ,
& he told me to meet him 8.15am at braddell mrt .
then after that ,
wait for him at amk mrt at 12pm .
i was in school ,
laughing at him all this while .
:D
then when i went home ,
i talked to him ,
he BU FU QI lehs !
hahas .
who ask him so horny .
& somemore he ask his friend to go .
=.=
if lahs , he meet this girl ,
& they go have that thing ,
then he also bring his friend ,
i tell you lahs ,
that girl vagina die already .
it will tear until dont know like how .
& somemore , he say he want to shoot inside mouth & there .
=.=
so that means the girl have to eat pills lahs .
somemore , who want to eat sperm ,
its disgusting lahs .
like drinking sticky milk like that ,
just that its tasteless .
& somemore ,
who wants a guy's sperms to be swimming inside her ?
cause when eat pills ,
the sperm still stay inside whats .
imagine it swimming around your body .
i cant stand that feeling .
tsk .
& somemore ,
he think i'm who sial ?
i'm not some cheapo fella lors .
even if one day i'm those type of horny fella , like him ,
i also wont go & do sex for free lahs .
i'll be the one who lose out .
he gets all the fun & i get the child .
unfair right .
hahas .
today in class ,
jiaying kept talking about chapter 6 .
its a sex chapter .
practically the whole class is excited over it .
LOLS .
hahas .

i have another good news !
CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING !
CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING AROUND THE CORNER ~
^^
i'm ready for the money to come flowing in .
hahas .
xD
* prays that tomorrow is half day *
the school never say if its halfday or fullday .
tsk .
i want to go back to cps lehs .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS .
okay .

lastly ,
i want to say i love darhdarh ^^
she was supposed to write down the stuffs i need to put inside the powerpoint for geography ,
then she added something there ,
is a small note , about adding the pictures in ,
& ILOVEYOU !
xD
hahas .
i will tell her i love her too tomorrow ~
i just saw it sial .
its with me the whole day yet i didnt see it .
LOLS .
hahas .
I LOVE HER I LOVE HER !
(:

TOMORROW I DIE DIE ALSO MUST GO BACK CANBERRA !
^^
cps , here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

loves ~