i just did some tests .

what your face says
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.
you're 52% evil
You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.
Your Sensitivity Score: 69%
You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you.You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down.But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.
You Should Have Been Born Under:
the year of the dog. You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest.However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are!Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk.You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood!You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.
You Are 100% Borderline
It seems like you have borderline personality disorder. Seriously consider seeking help, even if you think you don't need it.
You Have Low Self Esteem 88% of the Time
You're definitely in a low place right now, but you also know deep down that you can get out of your funk.Take a chance and make a new friend or try a new interest. Shaking things up will give you the self-esteem boost you need!
You Are An INFP
The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
You Have Your Sarcastic Moments
While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.
On Average, You Would Sell Out For
$1,101,708
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Ditzy Herbalist.
Where You Lived: Portugal.
How You Died: Dysentery.
You Are 15% Left Brained, 85% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
You Are a Normal Girl
You are 50% Good and 50% BadSure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.
You Are 68% Pure
Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close.But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.
You Should Be An Aries
What's good about you: you're fearless about taking charge and grabbing the spotlight
What's bad about you: if you're annoyed, you're not going to hide it!
In love: you jump in quickly and don't mind risking your heart
In friendship, you're: likely to have a new best friend each month
Your ideal job: detective, butcher, or surgeon
Your sense of fashion: ultra trendy and sexy
You like to pig out on: appetizers, especially buffalo wings
You Are 52% Slacker
You are a bit of a slacker - though you can pull it together and live a somewhat normal life.If you're young, this is probably phase you'll outgrow. And if you're already grown up, you need to get off the couch a bit more!

so many .
blahs .
lazy to do mores .

ilovekaixin okays .
she's so sweet .
awwws .
she gave me chocolates today .
it totally made my day .
she knew i love chocolates_* .
=DD
then she gave me chocolates .
i'm simply touched okays .
ilovehers .
thanks to her ,
i shant bother myself with any more attention seekers&bigmouths .
=DD
i'll just concentrate on having fun with my friends .
like ,
x joan
x kaixin
x xueying
x amanda
x rina
x jacinta
x jiahui
x xinyi
x ms george
x wenning
x edwin
x ang ying
x esther
x wanyu (lazy call her cher le)
my friendships with this peoples have been going downhill .
i want to revive it .
no matter whats .
i'll make everything back to normals .
=))
wish me good lucks .

BIGMOUTH .
you just had to
OPEN YOUR BIGMOUTH ,
and tell mr tan rights ?
i'm so going to blame you if anything happens to my piercings .
i'm going to take revenge if anything happens .
get that into your sex-minded brain
IHATEYOU
you suck .
if he does a spotcheck tomorrow ,
i'll hold you responsible .
cuz you're the one who opening your FUCKING BIG MOUTH ,
and said all those .
i dont fucking care if you have a gang or whats .
you offended me ,
you'll get the same treatment back .
i'll be asking you to SHUT YOUR ASS ,
every time you talk .
dont blame me .
you forced me to do this .

today i got damned pissed .
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also dontknow why .
cold&hot day bahhs .
den i wrote this on my foolscap paper .
start here .

you walk down the row ,
everyone fights for your attention .
all those attention seekers .
dontworry ,
i wont be like them .
since they all want your attention
i shall give it to them .
i wont follow their childish antics
if you want to talk to me ,
then come find me .
if you're too busy ,
i wont be there screaming your name or whats .
i wont e like a freaking idiot
i aint wasting my time ,
x screaming for you .
x worrying for you .
x caring for you .
x being happy for you .
x being sad for you .
x treated like a toy for you .
since you have a whole lot of peoples willing to do that for you .

God Bless Me
leave me alone , asses .

YAYS .
done .
my MASTERPIECE .
but now i okays le .
=DD
joan jealous worhhs .
she jealous i so happy with abigail all this ,
and with her the face black black .
no lors .
i didnt face black black in front of her .
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i just very tired .
sorry worhhs .
dont be angry luhhs .
iloveyou okays ?
=DD
today ms haryati go le .
i was trying to keep my tears in .
i dont want to cry in her class .
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its like so sad luhhs .
she's going .
she's one of the best teachers in this world sia .
=

i'm so bhb and pissed today .
hmpts .
so its like ,
1 or 2 plus , joan called ,
ask if can change time from 3 to 4 .
then 3 plus , she called to change it to 4.30 .
then after that i sms-ed ,
you need to change the time to 5 anots .
then after that blahs blahs .
then she ask me go causeway point ,
her dad fetch us to that place .
that place far far away which i will never go back again .
YMS .
okays , so its like ,
i called rina and complain complain complain .
LOLS .
then when i reached ,
then joan's family (plus her) ,
were at the minitoons there .
so i from GROUNDFLOOR went all the way up there .
then they from THATFLOOR went all the way down to groundfloor .
=.=
then take the lift ALLTHEWAY up to 6th floor .
=.=
then sit car blahs blahs .
then i THOUGHT YMS would be GRAND .
all this was a illusion .
it was like , this small TINY place ,
which look like it cant even fit a band .
=.=
anyways ,
when we reached ,
joan said she wanted to go bugis street buy earrings .
so we walked and walked .
then i was bhb-ing about my "great" sense of direction .
=DD
typical me .
anyways ,
we reached , she bought her things ,
then we walked to fulushou there to meet angela&hermother .
then its like ,
we walk the temple road there ,
suddenly ,
*piak*
i heard something .
it fell on my head .
BIRDSHIT
i screamed for a tissue .
it was GREEN&YELLOW .
omgs yuck .
then i wanted to cry luhhs .
birdshit lehhs .
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then i didnt want to talk all the way to the YMS .
no ,
i didnt talk for a LONGTIME .
when we reached the YMS i didnt talk .
when we reached the opposite coffeeshop i didnt talk .
i think when we went in then i talked .
then hors ,
it was warm inside .
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then the music so soothing .
somemore i so tired .
then got break that time ,
i took joan's hand and use it as bolster .
LOLS .
after the whole thing ,
i was half-dead .
x.x
then joan say her dad fetching her ,
and me .
i was reluctant , of cuz .
so ps luhhs .
like , dont wanna bother peoples mahhs .
then i was like , 'no need i go back myself .'
then joan walk halfway then hit something sharp .
poorthings .
(its her THIRD time today she tripped)
then i was like , 'YOU OKAYS ANOTS ?!?'
then in the end ,
i went back in her dad's car .
then the car was so steady .
my eyes were like , 'i'm closing i'm closing ~'
LOLS .
then hors , i didnt say ASINGLEWORD throughout .
too tireds .
then when nearly reaching my house ,
i saw how loving her family is .
i so envy luhhs .
my family could never be so loving .
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haiis .
then i wanted to cry luhhs .
why is their family so loving whereas mine is like , shit ?
then i forgot to tell joan's father thank you .
ahhhhs .
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then i messaged her she didnt reply me .
=.=
I'M TIREDS .
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i'm never going back bugis ever again .

all this while i've been living in your lies .
ihateyou .
i cant tahan you anymores .
whatever you said , i tried to do .
when i failed , you got angry .
i just want to give you one tight slap sometimes you know ?
who the fuck do you think you are ?
you ACT as though you like me ,
although its very obvious that you DONT .
if you like her , say so .
i'll leave you alone .
i wont contact you .
i wont talk to you .
i wont have anything to do with you .
i dontwant to have anything to do with you either .
seeing you makes me have a bad mood .
seeing you makes me puke .
ihateyou .
you suck .
one tip for you ,
you look nicest when you are YOUNG .
now you look like shit .
simply shit .
worse than shit .
DECOMPOSED shit .
you spoiled my day .
thankyous .

YAWNS .
now is 1.22am , 29th april 2007 .
if i sleep now , i would be waking up 11 hours later .
>< lalalas . MOUNTAINS&MOUNTAINS of smiles .
cant do it here .
will have problems .
i've tried before .
lalalas .
chocolates_* called me twice yesterday .
but i didnt answer .
my mother was there .
i was scared .
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i regretted .
haiis .
then that burning_cell@hotmail.com fella .
keep saying mushy things .
GOOSEBUMPS .
i dont want to talk to him le .
pissed .
hmpts .
YAWNS .

i realised none of you understands me .
let me rephrase okays ?
i realised none of you TAKES THE EFFORT to understand me .
=))
i should rephrase again .
i realised none of you TAKES THE EFFORT to understand YOUR FRIENDS .
=DD
that sounds MUCH better .
after all the quarrels i've witnessed within friends .
i realised that .
=))
well ,
as i've said so many times .
two words .
self-centered .
XD

that freaking burning_cell@hotmail.com cursed me .
=.=
i paste the conversation here .

卍解 ! says:
i hope u will never have a guy wif u..lols..
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
why ?
卍解 ! says:
u know hw much i still love u dun u...
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
uh-huhs .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
den ?
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
you got other girls whats .
卍解 ! says:
and no mattar hw cold u been treating me...im still giving in aint it..
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
i where got treat you cold ?
卍解 ! says:
no mattar hw many girls i had...i still wanted u best..
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
you dont talk to me den i dont talk to you luhhs .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
simple .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
if you talk to me i will surely reply de
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
budden you didnt talk
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
den i talk for whats ?
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
will like idiot de lehhs .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
only that you dontknow .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
somemore
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
you're the one with the LANJIAO .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
so should be YOU
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
take the intiative to talk 1st
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
and since you didnt .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
i dont see why i should .
卍解 ! says:
sure.....
卍解 ! says:
baby...of cos i will talk to u..
卍解 ! says:
bt u know hw much i wanted a chance to win ur heart...
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
its easy .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
be sincere .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
thats all .
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
lalalas .
卍解 ! says:
havent am i sincere enuf...
卍解 ! says:
baby...
卍解 ! says:
no mattar hw long i wait...
卍解 ! says:
i will jz wait for a chance wif u..
卍解 ! says:
sometimes...i wish to talk to u on the fone ya...
felicia ♥ - laughing is the best remedy .©™ says:
for ?
卍解 ! says:
i know u had never like me or anything...
卍解 ! says:
bt promise me...give me a chance...give urself a chance..

and like as if i want to give HIM a chance .
bleahs .
i've got my chocolates_*
i wish he would stop bothering me ,
but if he stops , then life wont be fun anymores .
i like to be sacrastic to him .
somemores ,
i dontthink he loves me lors .
i think he want me for sex onlys .
to him , thats what girls are for .
hmpts .
typical guys .

13 days have passed since we 1st met .
6 days have passed since we were stead .
3 days have passed since you sms-ed .
6 hours have passed since you called me .
why did you fight with your dad ?
i know you love your mother alots ,
but you dont have to fight with him .
now , he confiscated your phone and laptop .
then what about me ?
my parents are almost always home ,
we cant talk on phone .
=
then now how ?
i dont even know if i can call your house phone .
what if your dad answer how ?
so many questions .
getting a headache .
O.O
i'm going swimming in 9 hours time .
=))
going to get tanned and have nice , healthy , skin .
=DD

i know why he hasnt been replying my sms-es or going online .
his handphone&laptop has been confiscated .
poor thing .
at least he bothered to call and tell me .
ilovehim .
=))
but he talks like an indian .
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today i slept halfway thru paper 2 english exam .
so ps luhhs .
almost everyone saw me sleep okays .
and i didnt wake up until someone screamed my name .
i slept for like 45mins .
quite a fruitful sleep .
felt damned refreshed after that .
=DD
but very embarrasing larhhs .
=.=
last night larhhs ,
i cried mahhs .
then sleep late also .
until this morning so tired .
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everytime during exam will feel so tired de .
aiyas ,
ever since i went to deyi ,
even during class time also tired .
YAWNS .
now i tired again .
i'm a pig ~
=DD
pig year mahhs .
but then classroom 409 is really VERY hot .
=
YAWNS .

i'm not happy .
i hate my parents .
i dont think they are even my parents in the 1st place .
they found out about my piercings .
then like , so ?
they dont have to ban me from going out .
THEY SUCK .
what 'if next time you want go out with your friend , ask your friend to call me 1st .'
you fuck larhhs .
you my FATHER .
this type of words also can come out from your mouth .
ihateyou .
fine , ban me .
i dont go out lors .
i stay at home ,
but i use the computer everyday .
i wont talk at all .
i will only talk in SCHOOL .
i will never talk at home unless needed to .
YOU BOTH ONLY CARE ABOUT YOUR FACES .
LIKE AS IF ITS THAT IMPORTANT .
ihateyou ihateyou .
YOU ALL SUCK .
biased freakish ignorant to your own child parents .
what kind of freaking parents are you ?!?
ihateyou .
if i can , i would run away and never come back .

i'm showing attitude .
i showed my mother attitude .
i showed a guy attitude .
make me pissed , and you'll die horribly .

me&rina crapping on phone just now .
talking about the ,
'using fork and chopsticks to eat burgers .'
lalalas .
then i wrote in my msn : PEEPURS POOTPOOT .
cuz me&xinyi talking about shit .
=DD
then i wrote : xinyi love to eat POOTPOOT .
then i made a MOUNTAIN OF SMILES .
=DD
which everyone complained that it lagged their computers .
bleahs .
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its like so cute luhhs .
=DD
he hasnt reply me yets .
i think he has gone there .
either that or he is silently breaking with me .
chocolates_* ,
please reply .
i need you .

4th piercing is here !
YAYS .
=DD
went to northpoint with joan .
she pierced two holes while i pierced one .
(despite my parents disapproval)
then hors ,
she went to meet her boyfriend .
then i called rina to come ,
then she messaged me to tell me say that her mother dont allow her to go until 5pm .
=.=
so i pek chek .
go buy the bag and went home straight .
all alonee .
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today so tired .
YAWNS .
keep hearing complaints after complaints .
ONEZEROEIGHT .
my royal complaining class .
cuz got all the complain queens and kings there .
=))

just back from amk hub and northpoint .
imagine a girl's sadness when she realises she doesnt have enough money to buy the bag she really likes .
haiis .
anyways ,
he didnt message me the WHOLE day today .
rina say he most likey go boys home le .
haiis .
i dontwant him go boys home .
i want him stay .
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i just hope is his hp no battery bahhs ,
not anything else .
if he go boys home ,
i scared i may not have the patience to wait .
haiis .
dontknow how now .
should i call him ?
maybe i should ..
but i'm scared .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHS .
forget it .
treat this as a silent break .
bye chocolates_*
i'll miss yous .

bleahs .
feel like scolding someone now , here .
right here right now .
she sucks okays .
buay hiao bai fella .
who the fuck does she think she is .
hmpts .
always trying to be the "big boss" .
and yeah , as if .
no one respects you in the class .
everyone hates you , you freaking moron .
i think you will be respected if you run home now to suck your mother's ass .
how did your parents teach you ?!?
they were right .
peoples who came from that primary school are bossy and unreasonable .
like you .
exactly like you .
you suck okays .
stop acting like some big boss who thinks she knows everything .
we DONT respect you .
not even the least fucking bit .
so would you just kindly SHOO ,
and stop making us suffer in class hearing your voice everyday .
you think your voice so nice is it ?
and stop , and i repeat , STOP being so chor lor .
you have NOTHING to show , so stop being that .
dont act .
you dont have that talent .

okays .
YAYS .
i've cooled down .
just now went to yishun with rina .
looking for the FBT shorts .
later if rain not so heavy then we go AMK hub look for it .
=))

MY PHONE'S MUMMY IS BACKS !
my dad used less than one minute&a paper clip to take it out .
i used more than 30mins&3paperclips and it didnt come out .
zzz .
memory card dont like me .
bleahs .
anyways .
i'm okays now .
just now had difficulty breathing and everywhere hurt-ed .
now i feel beter .
opened the window . thats the medicine .
=DD
YAWNS .
still tired .
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even after having a nice cool bath .
=P

okays .
i forgot to post something about today !
important .
for the 1st time i&joan took a photo together .
we knew each other since JANUARY 2004 .
but this is time 1st time we took a pic together .
this is the year 2007 !
wahhhhhhhhs .
scary okays .
LOLS .
i wanna take more&more .
but .
idontknow her .
=P

i feel my energy coming back after i ate my instant noodles .
=DD
okays .
erms .
MY HANDPHONE .
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the memory card stuck inside the computer .
LONGGG STORY .
i plugged the phone into the comp to get me&joan pic from the handphone .
but handphone and computer dont want to cooperate .
then i took out the memory card .
and stuffed it into one slot .
it didnt work .
i stuffed it into ANOTHER slot .
it went all the way in !
and stuck there .
but it worked .
now , its still there .
awwwws .
how i miss it so .
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it must be there shivering .
haiis .
dad , quick come back help me take it out .
before it cant make it .
my poor handphone , without its mother(memory card) .
my poor memory card , without its child(handphone) .
YAYS .
dad is back !!
YAYS YAYS YAYS .
=DDD

today hors .
the IPW .
suck-ed .
i do the powerpoint so ugly larhhs .
cher see alreadys also say hair stand up .
then crystal , derrick and mingcheng like not happy like that .
not happy then you go do larhhs .
if you can do a better job then me , then go ahead .
dont everytime IPW push all the work to me&hanfei .
i'm going to fight for the marks .
i dont care .
hanfei will fight with me .
we will make sure you all will NEVER get the marks .
i had totally no mood today .
dont feel like doing anything .
my body feels very tired .
even talking like that also makes me tired .
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lalalas .
today , i pierced a new hole in my ear !
YAYS .
if you wanna see it , then pm me in msn .
=DD
i dont wanna show it here .
i pierced the bone you knows ?
=DDD
so fun so fun .
lalalas .
it hurt-ed when pierced .
but after a while ,
the only probs was smiling and eating .
LOLS .
but now okays le .
=DDDD
YAY ME .
kaixin say ,
'instead of cutting youself , now you go pierce round your body . whats next ? you'll pierce your nipple ?'
then i thought about it for quite some time .
then i said , 'maybe . =DD'
now whenever i answer phone then the ear very itchy .
because i pierce left side and i use left ear answer phone .
LOLS .
so ,
now rushing out the IPW project which is due tomorrow .
just now chocolates_* messaged me .
he asked ,
'dear , what are you doing ?'
i replied in such a fantastic way sia !
i said ,
'your dear freaking out cuz she rushing out a bloody project due tomorrow .'
LOLS .
i love my answer .
i'm publictising my answer .
not his question !
=DDDDDDDD
my ear itchy .
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today is so normal !
bleahs .
went out with rina ,
pei her go and alter her skirt .
then go her house .
lalalas .
then its like ,
i was trying to help her with her and someone .
although she told me not to ,
but she seemed so sad .
then i helped lorx .
then now she blaming it all on me .
THANK YOU LARHHS .
blame me larhhs .
i said alreadys whats .
to you all i criminal larhhs .
everything fucking thing i do is fucking wrong .
since i'm always wrong ,
WHY THE HELL BOTHER TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME IN THE 1ST PLACE ?!?
i tried to help .
and you didnt appreciate it .
fine .
i wont help you next time .
i will NEVER help you EVER AGAIN .

i'm going to scream .
i'm going to scream .
I'M GOING TO SCREAM !!!
okays , this aint an act of emo-ness .
I'M FREAKING HAPPY .
=DDDDDDD
cuz cuz cuz .
there's this guy that i liked ,
he's rina's ex .
then he asked me to be his ganlaopo .
YAYS .
=DDDDDDDDD
he and rina not stead le .
so i'm not considered as 3rd party hors .
=P
then he called me laopo !!!!!!!!!!!
do you know how fucking happy i am ?
he knows my past .
and yet he still ask me be his ganlaopo .
although i dontknow what ganlaopo stands for ,
but , LOLS .
what the heck .
still got the word 'laopo' there i happy le .
=DDDDDDD

today got band hors ,
WHOLE DAY DRILLS .
but quite fun also .
got the very fierce sir .
he sucks larhhs .
but also funny .
LOLS .
okays , i'm really going colourguards .
=DDDDD
lalalas .
sometimes life just rocks .
say you love me again&again .
#21o4o7
*5.35pm*
i was born on o2o494 at 5.30pm .
=))
see how close the dates are ?
ILOVEHIM .
=DD

i want my own room .
i want my own closet .
i want my own bed .
i want my own bagstand .
i want my own pet .
i want my own boyfriend .
i want my own closet of belts .
i want my own favourite clothes .
i want my own laptop .
i want my own boyfriend .
i want my own girlfriend .
i want my own everything .
i want my own life .
can you give me that ?
i think i wont like guys from today on .
they give me TOO MUCH STRESS .
lalalas .
and , i looking for a laogong/laopo .
=DD
i dont want guys .
i want girls .
=DDDDD
okays , i'm not turning into a LESBIAN .
but , not fun larhhs .
you all have i dont have .
=P
anyways ,
its just to play play .
LOLS .
for fun&laughter .
lalalas .
i want i want i want .
i want daddy .
i want mummy .
i want korkor .
i want jiejie .
i want didi .
i want meimei .
i want ahma .
i want ahgong .
i want husband/wife .
i want ganmeimei .
i want gandidi .
i want gankorkor .
i want ganjiejie .
i want EVERYTHING .
=DDDDDD
i'm greedy .
*munch munch*

do you even treat me as your child ?
if yes , why do you make me feel like an orphan ?
maybe you are telling me , 'yes , you're our daughter' OUTSIDE .
but inside , you're thinking 'should i hide the fact that she actually fell from the sky and dropped into the river so we picked her up and bring her home ?'
you dont let me pierce the places i want to pierce .
you dont let me have a boyfriend .
you dont let me stay out until very late .
EVERYTHING YOU ALL ALSO DONT ALLOW .
if only you would say 'okays .' i dont know how happy i would be .

scold scold scold .
slap scold scold slap .
is that all you can do for me ?
and to my sis ,
praise , scold , hit .
praise praise scold .
you chased me out of the house before .
you didnt do anything to her .
you slapped me when i ate slow .
you didnt do anything to her .
you stopped caning me when i was EIGHT .
you stopped caning her when she was THREE .
and who are you ?
you're my mother .
YOU , your life revolves around , your family&relatives&wife&youngestdaughter&fishing .
you never cared a toot about me .
she asked you to remind me things , you will forget .
you yourself know i have poormemory .
yet , like this .
and who are you ?
my father .
its okays .
i dont need your helps .
if i fall , i pick myself up .
if i cant stand , i will force myself to stand .
i'll provide for myself .
i will not talk to you all much ever again .
i dont even freaking feel like talking to you now .
you three go become a family ,
like how you all ALWAYS WERE .
always playing together ,
leaving me behind , walking like a dazed idiot .
leaving others to point at me , thinking , 'what the fuck is this weirdo doing following that happy family of three ?'

someone , treat me like a servant .
please .
let me do all the manual work .
just make me keep my mind occupied .
i dont want to think of all this anymores .
dont worry .
it wont affect tomorrow .
i'll still smile and laugh like nothing has ever happened .

friends ,
when you say iloveyou to me , do you really mean it ?
when you say you missed me , do you really mean it ?
when you say you care for me , do you really mean it ?
or is it just to make me happy ?
if its just to make me happy ,
you dont have to tell me all that .
because sometimes , its hard to tell ,
whether you are lying or nots .
i want to know the truth .
do you guys really love me as friends ?
or do you guys treat me like psychos and hate me like the rest of them ?
can you please tell me your responses in the tagboard ?
i really need your answers .
just one simple answer .
if you really love me as a friend , type , 'iloveyou as a friend'
if you dont , just type , 'i'm just trying to make you happy' .
i wont mind what answer you say .
i just want to know your true feelings towards me .
dont lie just to make me happy .
when i find out the truth ,
i may be even more depressed .
and may even kill myself .
if you want me to die , type in tagboard 'i want you to perish from my life' .
just be honest with me .
please .
take it as i'm begging you .
you all are really driving me up the road of self-destruction .
i really need your answers .
please&thanks .

why must you all treat me like robot ?
i have feelings !
do you know , by being so rude and cold to me ,
it actually encourages me to cut myself ?!?
i listened to you and actually became more happy .
i told you if you have any problems can come find me .
but instead , nvms .
all i ask for is for you to treat me better ,
is that very hard ?
is it hard to treat a psycho better ?
psychos have feelings too ..

today while waiting for the MT cher to come ,
i slept , as in really slept .
totally oblivious to the noise around me .
the shouts , the screams , the hits on my table , blahs .
and i felt so refreshed .
=))

friends , i'm sorry .
i totally have no mood today .
i dont have the mood to joke , laugh or anything .
i have a very strong urge to cut today .
and i didnt want to tell anyone .
i know you all think of me as a psycho alreadys .
i just dont want to say .
to you all , i'm like the psycho criminal who broke out from prison .
i didnt even talk much to jiaxing , who kept blabbering .
i kept playing with the penknife .
thoughts of death kept running through my mind .
even at the mrt station , i thought of dropping down onto the railway track .
i wanted to stand as close to the track as possible ,
so that you could come and pull me in again .
you've changed , really .
you've become so distant , so quiet .
i really miss the old times .
just now when i wanted to open the door ,
i almost wanted to use key to cut .
but then , i stopped myself .
when i was cooking instant noodles ,
i felt like breathing in a thousand and one gases .
and just perish like that .
but i stopped myself .
for the sake of you all .
if you all tell me you all dont want me to die ,
i'll stay here .
if you all tell me you all want me to die ,
then i'll perish from your lives .
deal ?
=))

today both sucked and rocked .
LOLS .
rocks because ,
x the dentist said my teeth was healthy and it was the first healthy set she saw in the whole of today .
x band rocks ! for the 1st time i'm saying this .
because , i played the clarinet rights , then hors .
mrs chee , and a other few SLs said my tune was nice . YAY ME .
=DD
and got one SL , she say , 'i like your diaphram' . i dontknow how to spell !
then i was like , 'huh ? you can see inside me ? O.o'
then i understood .
LOLS .
she liked my sound , as in the tune .
=DDDD
so i today kana praised alot of times , made me so happy .
but i asked the dentist alot of qianbian questions also .
LOLS .
today sucks because ,
x ms haryati is leaving us . >< WAAAAAAAAAAS .
x ms lee MAYBE leaving us . >< double waaaaas . no more 'you eat i teach' !
x jiwei STILL dont want to send me his photo .
x not that happy today . feeling very tired . ><
why must the good times die fast ?
why must i plead a million times before any of you idiots listen to me for once ? or help me with something ?
why ?
YOU TELL ME .
why must i plead ?
why must good things end fast ?
why am i so ugly ?
why is god being so biased ?
why he give so many people nice , pretty faces while me , a ugly face ?
why others look for 1day can find a few bfs while i take 4 months and havent even found a even a piece of shit yet ?
why why why why why ?
okays . i've chilled .
i shant let anything ruin my mood for tomorrow .
=))

my attitude WORSENED .
my mood swings WORSENED .
give me time .
i'll try my very best to change .
please&thanks .
=DD
continue to loveme okays ?
=))

today hors .
SCIENCE LESSON ROCKS !
ms lee , my science cher had been talking and talking for half an hour .
everyone looked so tired and restless .
so she asked if we wanted a break .
everyone said YESSSSSSSSSS .
then some said they were hungry and wanted to go to the canteen .
then she think about it , then say okays . but we must behave .
then its like , she say , 'you eat i teach' .
LOLS .
then hors .
we go lorx .
30 mins only .
bleahs .
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then got assembly hors .
mr sam lim damned angry with us for making so much noise .
then he shouted , w/o microphone 'SILENCE !'
or something like that , with a whole lot of other things .
then its like , he shout until the WHOLE hall can hear .
everyone kept quiet for like , 5secs .
then guess whats .
everyone clapped .
LOLS .
lalalas .
today quite okays .
i have a MC to skip PE&school tomorrow .
i'll still go to school , but i dontknow want to go PE anots .
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maybe i'll go , maybe i wont .
lalalas .
the penknife is beside me now .
i dontknow what to do with it .
cuz i bought it to cut myself .
then now i listen to you all dont cut .
then the penknife i dontknow how le .
LOLS .
i think i'm going to starve myself for the next few days .
i wont eat lunch .
i let the acids eat my stomach .
the feeling of being hungry keeps me occupied .
when i'm VERY hungry , my stomach automactically stops being hungry .
lalalalas .
good .
that way , i'll slim down faster .
i'll be like an anorexic .
an anorexic is a person who starves him/herself .
and does ALOT of exercises .
its not a person who eats and vomits afterwards .
thats bullimic .
an anorexic will never feel warmness while slimming down .
like how i feel now .
cold inside .
sweating on the outside .
my inside , my heart , is frozen solid .
can someone warm it for me ?
and , i want to apologise to joan for being so mean and rude to her today .
lack of sleep .
i'm sorry .
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i'll be better tomorrow .
tomorrow will be a better day .

okays .
since you all wondering why i cut myself .
i shall write my past down here .

MYPAST
i didnt have a very happy childhood , unlike you all .
i almost died while my mother gave birth to me .
when i was born , i was at the centre of attention , cuz of my standup hair .
was pretty creative (BHBS ~) and made names for most of my relatives .
(the ones which i still call them now .)
then , that time , i lived with my godmother , cousins and grandmother at a flat in yishun .
my grandmother , that time , is also a babysitter .
she takes cares of other babies too .
so its like , i got2 cousins , one boy one girl .
the boy is 3 years older then me , whereas the girl is one year younger then me .
so usually , my grandmother will leave me , my girl cousin and another baby
inside the house , while she send my boy cousin to school .
during that time , there was no one at home .
my mother in the end , sent me to a childcare center which resulted in my grandmother not talking to her for a month .
then that time , i was still a baby wearing diapers .
and when the diaper is full , the shit will go onto the floor (as expected)
then my godmother , who obviously looked down on me ,
called me a dog when my shit went onto the floor .
my godmother , a straightforward person .
when my grandmother , godmother and cousins moved out .
the house everyday at night left me and my mother .
my dad at that time , worked in pub .
my mom and i became very dependant on each other .
there's once , my mum and dad fought so hard until my mum left the house without anything except keys for one whole day .
my mum chased me out of the house when she was angry with me .
she often slapped me when i ate slow . (whereas my sis dont have)
then came my little sister .
everyone went to her .
played with her , cuddled with her .
loved her .
giving all the same excuse , 'she's young and needs more care .'
i kept everything to myself from then on .
i didnt talk much .
until i went to primary school .
i met apryl&chingyee .
we bullied rina .
her mother came and scolded us .
i became rebellious .
p3 , during PE , i didnt want to do the PE .
so i didnt do .
the cher tried to drag me and anoter friend to the general office .
but we were stronger .
i had no friends during 2003 .
i begun going to the library everyday ,
hoping to find some hope in there .
i kept even more to myself . not even wanting to talk .
i met joan when i was in p4 .
i also dont really know HOW we became friends .
thru her , i knew many others .
thats how i lived thru p4-p6 .

PRESENT
now , sec 1 alreadys .
i keep to myself most of the time ,
craving for someone to love&care for me .
as i grew older , i wanted more love .
i dont want anyone to neglect me .
i became very insecure .
you neglect me for 5 mins and i think you hate me .
i didnt feel love for 8 years alreadys .
actually , is more than 8 years .
i cut myself is for peeps to care .
i just want you all to care for me .
at the beginning , i didnt stop ,
because no one cared .
now , i'm stopping , cuz everyone cares .
but , there's something inside me telling me not to .
i need friends .
i need them to help me out of this dark tunnel .
i need them to hold my hand and lead me out .
i dont want to stay inside anymores .
i'm scared .
i'm trying my best to go out of it myself .
remember ,
i'm doing this cuz of YOU ALL .
so , loveme more okays ?
=))

SO , THATS MY PAST &PRESENT .
erms .
just now i went to the clinic ,
the one i went to since i was a kid of like , 3yearsold .
i realised i was VERY creative as a kid .
like , the doctor , her name was doctor JASMINE .
but , that time i was young , i called her darling doctor !
LOLS !
up till now , my whole family calls her that .
thanks to me .
=DD
i am the braver one in my family compared to my sis .
my sis is those type of "scared to die" kind .
lalalas .
ohh yeahs .
then i went there rights .
while waiting , i saw a family of FOUR .
the mum , the dad , the baby and the little girl of around 4-5 years old .
i could see the old US inside .
my mum and dad , playing with the baby ,
while i was there , trying to get their attention .
but i always failed , like her .
i wondered if she would go down the same road as me .
i hope not .
i wish her all the best , be strong .
=))
i have a VERY bad sore throat .
see , i told you the screaming made it worse .
LOLS .
had slight flu , occasional headaches due to irregular sleep ,
body aches due to lack of sleep , feel-like-vomiting due to lack of sleep and cough .
my leg has stopped hurting .
so i UPGRADED .
from a indian baika to a indian .
=DDDDDDDDDDDDD
be happy for me .
=))
wish me get well soon okays ?
terrible being sick .
urghs .
seems like all the sickness i have is MOSTLY due to lack of sleep .
i should sleep earlier nowadays then ?
WAIT LONG .
i cant sleep before 10 .
its either 10-11.50 .
during 12-1 i cant sleep .
LOLS .
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i'm weird .
YEAH .
like thank you .
=.=
i need to avoid cold drinks if not the throat will worsen .
i need to avoid ALOT of other things .
i need to slim down ! (thats my OWN goal)
battle my sickness ~ (main goal)
ALL THE BEST TO ME ~

most memorable incident that happened today .
was outside the cher's staff room after school .
their door was facing the bball court .
then it was raining .
so alot of peeps took shelter there .
then i dontknow who said whats .
then i shouted 'FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !'
then i dont know who joined in also .
i heard another voice .
lalalalas .
then it was like , fun larhhs .
cuz i long long long time didnt shout le .
anyways , it made my throat worse .
=.=
okays .
so i wanna thank all the peeps who scolded me and asked me not to cut .
i wont cut for you all .
=))
BE HOURNOURED (dontknow how to spell)
anyways .
here are the peeps .
joan .
amanda .
xueying .
rina .
angus .
burning_cell@hotmail.com
abigail .
jacinta .
jiajia .
esther .
wanyu . (i lazy call her cher le . ><)
OKAYS .
a big big big THANKS to you all .
iloveyou !
muacks muacks ~
smoochies ~
i will always cherish you all .
ILOVEYOU !

i think i saw too many couples yesterday .
i inflicted another line on myself today .
with my nail , in the toilet .
i envy them .
they look so happy , so secure .
unlike me .
they have someone to ,
hold their hand when they are scared .
hug them when they are sad .
comfort them when they are down .
share their joy with them .
share the unhapiness and sorrow .
advice them on the right things to do .
=
i dont even have friends who are like that , much less a boyfriend .
this time , the line is about 8cm from the wrist .
you know , i do this , so i can have someone to care for me .
i just want some care .
is that just so hard ?
today went to revenue house with my uncle and family .
when it came to dessert , my uncle and father ordered the same .
then my mother and sister was bombaring my dad with questions ,
like , 'whats this ?' , 'omgs . so cute ! what is it ?'
then i think my uncle felt my sense of leftout-ness .
then he shared with me some of his .
so sweet .
no one has done that to me before .
i'm always the "odd one out" in everything .
it seems like everything i do is wrong .
when i care , you all feel that i'm irritating , you all dont appreciate it .
when i dont care , you all think i'm some uncaring freak .
when i try to do something good , to you all its bad .
everything i do is bad .
everything i do is wrong .
yeah ,
i'm the criminal in you all de eyes .
i'm the "big bad wolf" .
i'm the wicked witch in hansel and gretel , snow white , sleeping beauty .
i'm the beast in beauty and the beast .
i'm just like shit to you all .
treat me better can ?
you all are driving me down the road to self-destruction .
i just want someone to ,
hold my hand when i'm scared .
comfort me when i'm sad .
share joy with me .
share sorrow with me .
do that to me , and i'll do the same .
you treat me good , i'll treat you good .
do the opposite , and i'll do the same .
when you say iloveyou , do you actually mean it ?
if you say it in real life ,
i may believe it .
i know how to differentiate friendship love and relationship love .
but if you say it in msn ,
and you didnt meet me before ,
you have no right to say that .
because , even if you chat with me for a few weeks , or even MONTHS in msn ,
you cant be loving me in MSN .
there aint such a thing as love in first sight in msn .
you only have the right to say ilikeyou in msn .
cuz you didnt see me before ,
you dont know the real me .
so , you , you & you .
shoo from my life .
thank you .
i'm tired .
so tired .
i slept at 12.30am last night .
and woke up at 12.35 this morning .
LOLS .
i didnt even hear my mother vacumming the floor .
i only heard her shouts .
'FELICIA ! WAKE UP ! 12 O CLOCK ALREADYS !'
'FELICIAYAP ! WAKE UP ALREADYS ! 12 O CLOCK ALREADYS !'
'FELICIAYAP ! 12.30 ALREADYS ! WAKE UPPPPP !'
'FELICIAYAP ! WAKE UP ! AIYAS . FORGET IT . CONTINUE TO SLEEP LARHHS . SLEEP UNTIL TOMORROW . I TOMORROW MORNING 5.35 WAKE YOU UP !'
lols .
then i was like , cant i even have one day of peaceful sleep ?
i didnt have a nice sleep last night .
i didnt have a nice sleep for the past few weeks .
i'm just so weak and tired .
somemore i'm on medication .
YAWNS .

i'm like , no different from a indian baika .
=.=
i look like one and walk like one .
i'm limping wherever i go .
my poor left leg .
jacinta said it was the ligament or something .
not sure .
my dad ask me to stretch it .
then i was like , 'you crazy is it ? want to walk alreadys so pain , you still ask me stretch . =.='
then he kept quiet .
LOLS .
i'm freaking out now ~!
dontknow whats the english homework .
lalalalas .
but i'm lazy to do it now .
YAWNS .
see , i yawned again .
the right side of me hurts .
ouchhh .
last time is left side , now its right side .
maybe i am going to die soon or something .
painfullll .
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i'm not as uncaring as i look .
i care for you .
i never want to see you get hurt .
i want to see you safe at home ,
no matter how much you hate it .
its very dangerous out there .
if i support you to go , i wouldnt be considered as a friend .
i know the dangers out there .
i know what will happen if a girl just wanders off like that .
dont ask how i know .
i just know .
i dont support you to go ,
because ,
i'm your friend and i love you .
i'm not joking or anything .
i'm being freaking serious .
do you actually know how much i worry for you ?
thats why i look so old , so haggard .
from worrying for you .
and the rest who needs to be cared for .
if i can tolerate this for eight years ,
why cant you tolerate it for one day ?
up till now , i'm still tolerating .
i aint saying anything about it .
cuz , i lead my life ,
they lead theirs .
i dont have a family .
what i have is some shelter , some food .
so i know how you feel .
its the 1st time you felt it ,
its the , dontknow how many times i've felt it since my sister was born .
yeah , everyone turned biased and turn their backs against you .
but , i just want you to know ,
i'll always be here for you .

me and jacinta having the same touching blog song .
we both miss our primary schools !
awwwwwws .
canberraprimary ..
peeps from there , dont change ..
lets all turn back the clock to 2006 .
where we were all so naiive and carefree .
i dont want to go to 2007 .
i want to stay in 2006 .
here's the song lyrics .

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And i keep thinking of that night in juneI didn't know much of love
But it came too soon and there was me and youAnd then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feel

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
can we make it somehow?
I guess i thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when i leave this town
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

ahhhhhhs .
i'm crying alreadys .
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the songs is called graduation (friends forever) by Vitamin C
its very touching .

today i stood in the sun for 2 hours +
for the drills .
=.=
now i'm like a indian .
i forgot to put sunblock .
oh , how stupid of me .
=.=
i cant find my journal .
=((
imissit .
i think i maybe wanna go colourguard .
LOLS .
fun mahhs .
=DDDDDDD
YAWNS .
i woke up late today .
joan also !
LOLS .
so i was like , 'okayys .'
because i also late .
=DDDDD
then hors .
my SL told the clarinet section , saying ,
'its a tradition in deyi band , when its someone's birthday , we spill water on him/her .'
then hors .
we waited for the birthday girl to come .
then we fall in in 3 rows .
then she stand in the middle .
then everyone spilled water on her .
i decided i wanted to be kind and i didnt spill much .
=DDDDD
LOLS .
okays .
i'm stinky and tired .
=))

OH YEAHS YOU PERVERSE FREAK .
i dont even LIKE you .
you are like the AUNTIES @ THE FISH MARKET !
always gossiping about something that aint true .
gossip and gossip .
i didnt do any of the things you told him .
i was pretending .
come on larhhs .
you think you so great .
you cant even make a 80years old ahma horny ,
no need to say me larhhs .
if you so hard make someone so old horny ,
no need to say GIRLS .
you simply suck .
you tell others things that i didnt do !
like , i DIDNT fucking have cybersex with you .
and you admitted you lied .
and , i didnt mast with you .
which , you admitted you lied .
THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU TELL OTHERS THAT I DID ?
by telling , you're ruining my chance of having a boyfriend .
you freaking moron .
rot in hell please .
no one wishes to see your ugly face .
you're only 14 and is like that .
i'm seriously disappointed in you .
you just suck .
guys this days ..
are they all like him ?
so perverse , horny and gossipy ?
if yes , then i rather not have a boyfriend .
i rather stay single .
now , i was so damned sacrastic to you until you kept quiet .
hahas .
i said in msn alreadys .
make me pissed , and i'll be so sacrastic until you wet your pants and run home crying for mummy ~
i said it once .
now i'm saying it again .
if you try to talk horny with me in any ways ever again ,
i cant ensure the birth of your next generation .
=))

i was bored .
so i went to count the pairs of earrings i had .
i had 63 and a half pairs .
the half is cuz the earring's partner went MIA .
so .. yeah .. LOLS .
i'm so sick ~
let me list them down .
x cough
x flu
x legache
x feel-like-vomiting
x bleeding lips
x occasional headache
x sore throat
lalalas .
see !
imagine how the band peep's faces look like when they see this .
if i wrote it down in the letter .
which means if i dont go .
but , i'm going .
if i dont go , their faces would be like , =OOOOOO .
LOLS !
YAWNS .
i keep yawning today .
=)))))))))))
coughcough .

okays .
today got the dance thingy .
like exam like that .
then the best group get chosen to go for the danceration .
danceration is a dance competition by deyisecondary .
then its like , after all the groups have finished dancing their own dance ,
the chers had to pick a best group to represent the WHOLE class .
then hors .
got , hippies (thats the group i'm in) , 1920's peeps & the other group idontknow .
then the cher announced , saying , HIPPIES WILL REPRESENT ~
then everyone in the hippies group was like , 'HUH ?'
cuz we thought we did very lousy .
then cher told us , cuz we're the ONLY peeps in the WHOLE of sec one who did 1960 ~
and , we coloured our hair into bright colours and everything .
LOLS .
then we went for the danceration audition , which was at 1.30pm .
so we practised abit more .
then when we went into the dance studio , again .
we danced , but this time dontknow why so fast lehhs .
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LOLS .
then mr sam lim asked whats the title of the song .
then no one answered .
so i said , 'all you need is love' .
then i think he think i leader .
cuz when he giving tips , he keep looking at me .
then i keep nodding my head , i actually thought it was going to fall .
LOLS .
then everyone went home .
blahsblahs .
this few days , the feel-like-vomiting came back .
then hors ,
yesterday , when i felt like vomiting ,
i suddenly jerk up and sit up straight .
and asked aloud , 'FELICIA ! ARE YOU PREGNANT OR SOMETHING ? THATS WHY KEEP LIKE THAT ?'
then i laughed .
=.=
cuz i didnt do sex before whats .
how to pregnant .
=.=
lalalas .
today was so tiring !
then i so tired until lazy to open mouth to talk .
then joan keep asking why i so sad .
abigail keep asking am i okays .
LOLS .
i'm fine , i'm just lazy to talk .
all the running , and turning .
made me so .. *YAWNS*
tired .
i hope we make it into the finals .
because , that dance , we enjoyed it .
=))
everytime we dance that dance , i cant help but notice everyone smiling .
that made me smile too .
although there had been many times when we screamed at each other ,
although there hadnt been MUCH good times ,
we were happy when we were dancing , aint we ?
=))
my hair's messed up .
=.=
LOLS .
*YAWNS*
*AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS . CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO .*
O.o
a guy keep sms-ing me .
very irritating .
i want my own personal space back !
LOLS .
=DDDDDD

PEEPS .
you all care for me rights ?
you all love me rights ?
hahahas .
from my tagboard , i deduced ,
YOU ALL LOVE ME !
awwwwwwwws .
iloveyou all too ~
O.o
ilovepandas .
=DDDDDDD
okays .
anyways .
for the 1st time in my whole life ,
i was actually interested in history !
actually my whole class was .
we were so enthu on the ancient india thingy .
LOLS .
erms .
okays .
i'm not scolding anyones todays .
good mood .
=DDDDDD
lalalas .
and i got a new bf !
his name called lance .
=.=
but i know we going to break sooner or later larhhs .
we having ABIT communication problems .
=
ohh god .
i keep sneezing .
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh chooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooos .

okays .
what i'm going to say next may be a little offending to some of you all .
but , what the heck .
bleahs .
number 1 : and yeah , you suck ! maybe you should really just shut your trap sometimes . stop poking your smelly nose into other peoples businesses . if i can , i would try ways and means to make you cry and wish to die ! hmpts .
number 2 : if you dont like me , say so . i can see when you dont like me and when you like me . so stop trying to put on a act . you suck at acting .
number 3 : i wish i didnt know you okays ! always being horny . =.= always wanna attract attention , who the fuck do you think you are ?
number 4 : stop telling me the same clinch lines . its boring to even hear . somemore , i wont go out with a guy who had sex so many times before . somemore you are only 16 ! if i meet you next time , i'll make sure i'll run again . like 1year+ back . i'll make sure you cry until you wet your own pants . sex maniac . hmpts .
number 5 : i'm still shocked at you ! disappointment !
number 6 : stop trying to attract attention larhhs . you just like , suck you knows ? sometimes i wonder why you want so much attention . talk and talk . NON-STOP .
number 7 : can you just shut up sometimes ? i dont keep wanting to wish to hear about your life ! my ears need rests too ! bleahs .
number 8 : dont keep telling me 'hi felicia' for no reason okays . tell me hi for a reason , like , you wanna ask me something or whats . dont just say hi and walk away .
number 9 : go put on some deodorant , you need it .
number 10 : sometimes i wish you could just scram from my life . then my parents wont be so biased anymores . but sometimes i just loveyou to bits ! =DDD

okays .
top 10 peeps i was pissed with today .
i guess cuz i'm sick , thats why .
very sick somemore .
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OKAYS GUDNYTS .
miss me hors .
=DDDDDDDDDD

okays .
so she was right about not doing pe .
when i breathe once , i felt like vomiting once .
but when running , i breathe one , i felt like vomiting thrice .
=.=
lalalas .
now , got sore throat , flu , occasional headache , cough and feel-like-vomiting .
lalalas .
hope i get okays by ..
tomorrow hopefully ?
LOLS .
=DD
today in band hors ,
i'm sick rights , then i was playing the instrument ,
then the mrs chee go lend my instrument , clean the mouthpiece on her shirt and played it .
o.o
later she get sick not my probs hors ~
=DDDD
today very tired .
yesterday fought with my mom .
cried for 4 hours straight .
non-stop .
today eyes abit swollen .
joan say not swollen but rina say abit .
O.o
LOLS .
i'm kinda abit depressed today .
so tired .
just wanna lie down on the bed and sleep .
YAWNS .
gudnyts !

respect me please .
i'm not a bitch .
if you hang up on me purposely again , i wont call you back .
this is a conversation between me and my mother just as i was on the way home from sunplaza .
rings .
me : hello ~
her : do you know that you still have to wash your hair ? (that time was 9.45pm)
me : i coming back alreadyyyyyyyyyyys .
and she hanged up .
i mean like ,
i respect you , you know ?
i respected you all this years , i was not the least bit rude towards you .
yet you ,
treated me like how a farmer treats its pigs .
then when i was at comics connection ,
i was buying something ,
the cashier took it ,
took out the bar code ,
and threw it on the table ,
waiting for me to take .
ITS NOT LIKE I'M A DOG OKAYS ?
i just didnt want to say anything about it only .
if i got really pissed ,
i'll kick your ugly fat face there and then !
its just that , i wasnt in any mood .
i'm like , very sick .
i feel like vomiting everytime i breathe .
then i went to macs .
i ordered something .
then help rina order also .
then i forgot to say seperate pay ,
then the cashier face black larhhs .
but she still forced out a smile .
i know larhhs .
my face too ugly for you to smile at rights ?
lalalas .
so after my mother called rights ,
i cried .
i was sick and tired of everyone's favouritism .
they treat one person so good , the other shabbily .
i mean like , you dont like me then dont like larhhs .
you dont have to treat me like a bitch .
now then i know ,
i can stabilize my voice so well .
when i was crying , i called joan .
i asked her if i was a very bad person .
i didnt know she slept alreadys .
i'm sorry .
i longed for a person to ask me what happened ,
so that i can spill it all out .
O.o
nvms .
whats done have been done .
the hurt from my mother&the two cashiers will be left as scars in my heart .
my mother ,
always , when she's angry , hangs up on me .
sometimes i dont even know what i did wrong .
hang up on me bahhs .
i wont be calling you back .
be angry than angry bahhs .
you think you sick then bad mood can larhhs .
i also sick whats !
somemore i caught it from you !
i feel like vomiting every second .
i dont feel like talking .
you also rights ?
then you dont have to vent your anger on me whats .
cant bear to vent it on your precious daughter rights ?
she's too little and cute to be angry with rights ?
every night , will sit by her bed and tell her goodnight .
no one in this bloody family wishes me good night .
no one wished me good night befores .
i regretted being so kind as to sms you to cheer up just now .
I REGRET !
i shouldnt .
i forgot , you three are family .
i'm a outsider .
i'm not worthy to be in this family .
i'm just a bitch rights ?
fine , than you go care about your cute and pretty daughter and husband .
I DONT NEED YOUR CARE !
i can care for myself .
by cutting daily .
its fun .

today wasnt that great .
my throat keep threatening to throw all the food out of my poor stomach .
aiyos .
then its like , since my birthday until now ,
my stomach hates me .
everytime i eat , will feel VERY bloated .
until wanna vomit those kind .
then now my throat another one .
my whole body fan kang against me larhhs .
=.=
if i can , i want a new stomach and throat .

you know ,
i envy those peeps who have boyfriends and mothers as housewives .
like , when they go home , they got food to eat .
hot , piping , delicious food .
they have boyfriends to care for them ,
dont want them to get sick ,
dont allow them to go under the rain ,
care so much for them ..
then its like , everyday ,
i go home , eat instant noodles .
and i dont have anyone to care for me .
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like , even if i go under the rain , my family will be like , 'ohhs .'
friends lehhs ? no need to say larhhs .
they wont bother .
then when i cutted ,
only a few friends told me not to .
and my parents didnt know .
i wish , i wish upon a wishing star ,
that my life could be much better than it is now .
i wish , there will be peoples who care about me .
as friends , as steads . whatever .
as long as a person who cares .
i wish there was someone who loves me .
somewhere , somehow .
i wish all my wishes will come true , for once .

okays .
today suck-ed .
the whole class sucks .
the whole school sucks .
everything in deyi sec sucks !
DONT TELL ME NOW I STILL LIKE GUAI KIA !
I'M NOT I'M NOT I'M NOT !
LISTEN UP , YOU IDIOTS OF THE NORTH SOUTH EAST WEST ,
YOU MORONS OF SINGAPORE !
I'M NOT A GUAI KIA !
OKAYS ?
UNDERSTANDABLE ?
I'M NOT A FREAKINGLY ASSHOLEY BLOODY FUCKINGLY NERDISH GUAI KIA !
okays .
i've chilled .
if i can , i'll slap your heads until your heads comes out and rolls onto the floor .
and another thing ,
i dont look like , rina or abigail .
i dont look like any tom , dick or harry you see in the streets .
i look like myself .
i have my own looks .
so dont try to tell me soandso looks like me ,
cuz if you dare say that ,
i cant guarrenty your safety .
get that into your little pea-sized brains !
ahhhs .
i feel much better now .
=DD
today , was so hungry ..
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then wanted to go home .
when i reached the doorstep ,
i found out that i had no key .
=.=
so my mother had to call my grandmother to help me open the door .
bleahs .
LOLS .
okays .
so i'm home .
lalalas .
sometimes this world just sucks .
=P

okays .
so today turned out to be a better day .
just that i felt more tired and sleepy .
YAWNS .
=DDDD
okays .
its still too early for me to sleep sia .
about 3 more hours then i can sleep bahhs .
like 1.21am perhaps ?
LOLS .
helping jacinta with her blogskin now ~
what a religious fella .
=P

i'll post the results of all the tests i've did in here .
=DD
Swimsuits reflect your personality
Here is the analysis:You are extremely sensitive and the smallest criticism can profoundly hurt your feelings. When you are not happy with something, you let it show. You are a candid person, but sometimes people might wish you were less of a drama queen.

How well do you get along with others?
Here is the analysis:You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

Your Handwriting
Here is the analysis:If you write some strokes thickly but others are thin, it's likely that you're a very unpredictable person. Sometimes you'll get very serious about something, but there's always the possibility that you'll suddenly lose interest. It can take you a long time to complete a task--if it gets done at all before something else grabs your attention.

Your Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
Chocolate chipYou sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 75%You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Are You Nosy?
Nosy Level: 40%You are a well-mannered person who does not wish to invade other people's private lives. You are able to decide what topics are appropriate to talk about with people and what's not. You are confident in your ability to not offend.

Your Hidden Talent
Here is the analysis:
The Mass CommunicatorYou have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

Toilet Test
Here is the analysis:You are an efficient person but you always need time to think through issues before taking action. You can be a romantic one but you are too hasty making decisions in love. Generally, you are very cheerful.

Emotion Test
Here is the analysis:
Your emotional controlled rate: 47%You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.
Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

What are you going to do on Sunday?
Here is the analysis:About money, you spend whatever you have.
Sunday is the day you are free to use however you want. Having freedom to do whatever you want is like having money to spend. Becoming good at managing your finances is an important step towards independence. What do you think of your money spending habits?

okays .
so i did alot of tests !
woots ~
=DDDD

okays .
so just now i went to revenue house to eat the 99c sushi (again)
LOLS .
then after that went to square 2 which was opposite .
i saw a shirt that i really liked there .
then its like , my mother said it was more for skinny peeps .
then we went into a korean shop .
then the cashier called my sis 'pretty girl' in korean .
yeah .
she's cute and pretty wherever she goes .
whereas no one gives a heck about me .
yupps . i know ,
i dont have the ,
x looks .
x attitude .
x height .
x character .
x weight .
x hairstyle .
x figure .
i know i dont have ..
i know i'm ugly ..
you all think i'm a nerd ..
okays ..
I'M UGLY .
WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT ?
why am i born so ugly ?
okays .
i'm feeling very discourged now .
how i wish ,
there's a friend next to me ,
telling me , 'felicia , dont be discouraged . cheer up . you still have all of us here to appreciate you .'
well .
there aint .
and i dont think there will be one .

i just did this test ..
called 'jealousy test'
results are ..
Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 55%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it showYou often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

which are the peeps whom you met from p1-p6 ?
good experiences or bad experiences ?
write down ~

good is on top . bad is after the line .

p1 .
apryl - awws . we bullied the same girl together ! =DD
chingyee - she pitched in the bullying too . =DD
joel - always funny . never fails to crack me up . =))
_________________________________
rina - bullied her . =DD

p2 .
same same .

p3 .
yunting - she intro-ed herself to me on the 1st day i went FSC . =DD
xueying - she was with yunting . =))
xuejun - xueying's sis .

p4 .
joan - i think its from the 'table , i'll remember you .' which came from me . =))
javier - stupid talkative guy .

p5 .
may - cher made us sit together . =DD
weiling - O.O i forgot . =xx
___________________________________
jyn lem - suckish fella . copied me . hmpts .
bo chao - BO + proud . =.=

p6 .
amanda - AHHHHHHHHS . i forgot . = but i still love her . muahahahas . =DD
xinyi - cher made us sit together . =DD
siewcheng - thru yunting bahhs .
fadhilah - also forgot . =xx
nigel - from his big mouth i guess . x)
ms george - science tuition ~ =DDD
shinyi - MUSHROOM HEAD ! =DD
esmond&alex - always a funny pair . =DD
shuyi - science tuition . =))
luisa - science tuition .
_______________________________________
cinyee - we fought .
nisa - proud . =.=
liangwei - he suck-ed . =.=

okays . i dont think i can remember anymores .
if i didnt put your name , must be i forgot when i knew you .
sorry bahhs .
=xx

LOLS .
okays .

today , i woke up at 12.30pm .
then when i went to the living room ,
i asked , 'you all vacuum and mop floor alreadys ?'
and everyone stared at me .
=.=
cuz they already did .
and i didnt hear .
OKAYS .
so i skipped breakfast and lunch .
and ate dinner !
dinner was buffet ~
my uncle's treat .
=DD
okays .
i told ms george i cut myself yesterday .
she was not pissed , but sad .
she said she thought she had established a friendship with me .
because , she thinks , if she's my friend , she would have been there telling me not to cut when i was really depressed and wanted to .
well , no one was with me when i cutted .
i didnt tell anyone until the next day .
there were no one there to tell me not to cut .
besides .
who the hell would bother ?!?
rights ?
=))
okays .
i'm tired .
gudnyts !

my sister in the end , found out that she didnt need her pe anymores .
and i just got pissed like that .
then i screamed at my mother .
because i was supposed to go and bathe but i was talking to my sister .
i feel like crying this whole night .
i totally lost my mood .
i just wanna have a good cry and forget all about it .
i dont want to cut anymores .
i want to stop this cutting business .
but i dont have peeps support me .
friends , i need you all ..
please , dont leave me ..
dont be like burning_cell@hotmail.com ..
i apologised to ms george for breaking the promise ..
i dont think she'll forgive me anyways ..
she was already so agitated when i WANTED to cut .
now , i've cutted , wont she react in a worse way ?
friends ..
dont leave me ..
please ..

yeah , we all cant deny that we dont miss canberraprimary .
yeah , we cant deny that our new school aint as good canberraprimary .
we had our fair shares of cryings in canberraprimary .
we had our fair share of friendship problems in canberraprimary .
we had our fair share of laughter in canberraprimary .
we had our fair share of homeworks in canberraprimary .
but , sometimes we just have to pack up and move on .
no matter how much we resent moving on , we have to .
we may throw fits and abuses just to stay in the past .
but , once it has passed , its gone forever .
whatever you do cant change it .
although it doesnt hurt to look back on the happy times once in a while .
even though our hearts hurts from the pain of being seperated from our dearest primary school , where our memories of growing up is in ,
we have to try to like our present classmates .
you're going to see them for the next four years .
its not easy , yeah , i know .

i MISS&LOVE canberraprimary !


LANJUT TRIP .
i will remember you for life !
i will never forget the fun , the laughter and the excitement we had there .
especially the horror walk ! =DD
okays .

imiss&lovelanjut&canberraprimary !

okays .
i've realised that my stomach hates me since my birthday .
either loss of appitite or feel like vomiting .
today cross country , whole stomach pain .
felt like vomiting at home alreadys .
anyways .
now it still hates me .
i still feel like puking .
bleahs .

OMGS .
there's an ant in my water !
common ?
nopes .
this ant is SWIMMING .
like as if my water is a swimming pool .
=.=
i aint killing it .
i'm leaving it there .
LOLS .
meanie felicia .
=DDDD

me and my sister conversation .
ringgggggs .
me : helloooooo .
she : jie you just wake up arhhs ?
me : no .
she : can you help me bring my pe shirt and shorts to school ? i forgot to bring .
me : then just tell the teacher you didnt bring larhhs . then no need to pe .
she : but i want ..
me : okays larhhs . wait for me at the gate there .
she : but then i going to be late if i go , pass it to the guards larhhs . they will give me de .
me : you wanna be late or dont go for pe ? (if its me , i rather not go for pe)
she : but i dont want be lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
me : okays larhhs . later i go .
I HUNG UP .
pek chek .
hmpts .
then i go to canberra .
saw a guard , the guard tell me to go to the uncle at the stairs there .
he like , not happy like that larhhs .
then i tell the uncle ,
he just handed me a pen and ask me to write down the name and class .
then after that , i went home .
still hungry and tired .
TODAY LARHHS .
CROSS COUNTRY .
so tiring okays .
i was at the back of the sec one girls .
then mr soon behind , keep saying ,
'YOU ALL WALK I KICK YOUR ASS ARHHS .'
then i said , 'then we sue you for molest lorx .'
he : okays larhhs . who's your lawyer ?
i pointed at abigail , 'her .'
he : if she's your lawyer , i dont even need a lawyer .
me : =.=
today i was feeling so sticky , sweaty and mean .
LOLS .
to the peeps whom i have been mean to ,
SORRY .
=
i'm just too tired , too hungry and too sleepy .
><

chocolates ,
as i've found out .
are sinfully heavenly treats , created for the hungry , the greedy and the depressed .
=DD
i had first hand experience .
when i'm hungry , i eat chocolates .
when i'm greedy , i eat chocolates .
when i'm depressed , i eat chocolates !
=DD
and i feel much better after eating them .
LOLS .
but i hate those VERY bitter chocolates .
lols .
cuz they are bitter .
OKAYS .
i'm crapping again cuz its now 1.09am .
=))
6 more hours to cross country ~

okays !
i've proven that you go with me because of LUST .
not LOVE .
see ?
you claim that you love me but actually you dont !
thats why i dont trust guys anymores !
=DD
YAYS .
i saw your true colours .
and , yeah .
my mom really read the messages .
but only a small part of it .
=))
i messaged you about this ,
and you didnt reply .
LOLS .
i've seen through you a long time ago .
you dont have to hide anything from me .
i'm just your sex tool .
just to make you feel man and horny .
thats all .
i know , all guys are like that .
=DD
lalalas .
i've seen through you , and i'll never forget it .
remember worhhs .
i'm a girl who bears grudges .
=))

OKAYS .
so rina reminded me that she said the turtle looked like me .
ARGHS .
i dont look weird okays .
i look average .
=DD
i'm a average human being leading a normal average life in a normal average home which is in a normal average town which is in a normal average city which is near the normal average equator which is in the normal average world which is in the normal average milky way which is in the normal galaxy revolving around the average normal sun and having a normal average moon revolving around the normal average EARTH .
OKAYS .
i'm crapping , again .
=DDDD

MS NUMBER 200 POST IS HERE!
=DDD
okays .
cut the crap .
just now i went with rina go amk hub ~
finally bought the turtle i wanted .
as in like , its not a soft toy , it looks abit weird weird kind .
=DD
erms okays .
and and and .
YEAH .
i went out of the house at 7.50pm like that .
and went home at 11.10pm !
LOLS .
its like , now i'm so full .
i had a packet of macdonals LARGE fries before going home .
when i was eating at macdonals rights ,
there was this HUMONGOUS guy .
who sat on the opposite table from mine .
and he was HUGEEEEE .
he ordered mac wings , large coke , and large fries w/o salt .
seeing him eat the fries , is like seeing a glutton okays .
peeps eat is one fry by one .
he take 3-5 fries and eat it all at once !
OMGS .
okays .
it kinda freaked me out .
so , dont tell me .
singaporeans , are like that this days ?!?
okayyyyyyyyyyyyyys .
if you say yes ,
I'M GOING TO SCREAM !!
we , singaporeans of the clean and green city ,
are fat maniacs who dives into eating whenever we see food and eat like pigs ?
singapore is not a pig farm , its a well organised city with peoples with well education ,
so gluttons , please , EAT PROPERLY.
lols .
okays .
i told you i was freaking out over that guy .
LOLS .
okays .
i feel like going out tomorrow (again)
=DDDDDDDDDDD
see 1st bahhs .
see what time i wake up from my beauty sleep .
LOLS .

dont lie okays ?
i know those words that you typed didnt went thru your brain .
you are just a flirt .
a liar .
a big fat liar .
i told you about my phobia and you wanted to leave me .
at the time i needed someone with me the most ,
you went away and everyone else followed .
actually ,
i look for a boyfriend is cuz i want someone to care for me ,
to advise me , to lend me a shoulder to cry on .
i dont want to carry on with the pretence .
well , nvms .
i dont even have friends who will do those stuffs .
no need to say boyfriends .
everyone is too wrapped up in their own silly lives .

you sad , i cheer you up .
i sad , no one is there .
its true that the most popular girl in class likes you and hates me .
sometimes ,
i'll wonder why .
i take so much efforts to comfort you all , when in turn , when i'm sad , everyone continues with their own lives .
i just want someone to care , is it so hard ?
just asking me hows my day , is that so hard ?
just being concerned for once , is that so fucking hard ?
dont ask me to go and chat with walls .
its different than talking to a human .
you all , all have your boyfriends , family or friends to confine to .
then what about me ?
everyone's biased .
either care about themselves or the ones they love .
i know i'm depised by you all .
i can see that from your reactions in daily life .
i know you all dont wanna stay near a bitch .
okay fine .
i'll cut .

okays .
so i really slept at 3 yesterday !
YAYS .
=DD
erms .
so i left a couple more homeworks .
yupps .
this morning , my dad shouted at me for me to wake up .
he shouted like that .
felicia ! feLiciA ! FELICIA !
louder and louder .
then i was like , 'huh ?'
then he asked , 'you want me buy lunch for you ? what you want to eat ?'
=.=
the nike bag costs $80+ .
i dont care , i'm going to buy it this friday or saturday .
by hook or by crook , i must get it .
LALALAS .
i've done MOST of the work .
okays .
i'm so fucking sure that i dont wanna go for the UDC this thurs .
UDC = Ultimate Deyian Challenge
i'll run as slow as i can .
i aint going to waste my breathe running some 3.2km for some house competition .
my friendster , some testiis are missing and some came back .
LOLS .
okays .
just now jiwei talked to me .
and we fought .
YAYS .
i dont even want to go near him okays .
he made me have a phobia over guys and i aint going to forgive him for that .
yesterday , burning_cell@hotmail.com sms-ed me .
then i decided not to lie to him further .
i told him i have a phobia over guys .
cuz of that suicide guy (jiwei)
he was abit pissed cuz i didnt say any sweet things to him for a long time ,
then now i tell him this .
he told me , 'i cn leave u if u wan to'
okays , i'm hurt okays .
just give me some time ,
i'll forget that freakish moron and go with you .
but since you said that , forget it .
i wont even go with a strand of your hair .
yupps , i've made that clear .
good .
although we steaded before ,
i know you're still mad over the mrt incident .
i just know okays .
so just stop smsing me and SHOO from my life .

OMGS .
okays .
so never eat a chili just like that .
its super spicy okays .
bleahs .
i've just ate one .
drinking alot of water now .
LOLS .
okays , there's no smoke coming out from my mouth .

okays .
congratulate me .
i've done most of the boring work .
left the even more boring ones .
i left ,
x the home econs ws (the ppt cant assess !)
x the value education's "reflection"
x chinese (the one that need to join one word to other words de)
x science (crossword puzzle)
x the english newspaper home section thingy . (i'm very lazy)
and so the rest i've done it .
but i'm a bit puzzled by the maths thingy .
about the ex 9.2 de .
well , i didnt bring my book back .
=DD
okays .
erms .
see mr tan tomorrow online anots .
then i ask him .
now is 2.38am .
I'M SO TIRED !
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okays .
let me make something clear .
dont tell me , 'OHHS FELICIA , YOU'RE OFFICIALLY THIRTEEN NOW .'
its like , although its going to 12 , yeah .
but i was born at 5.30+pm .
so its like , ask before you say anything okays ?
=DD
and , things wasnt like how i expected .
i expected to see a whole class of cold hard peeps wrapped up in their own silly lives .
but , a few peeps told me happy birthday .
and those that i expected to have forgotten , remembered my birthday .
whereas those i expected to remember , forgotten my birthday .
and ALOT of peeps wish me happy birthday thru frienster and sms .
i'm so touched okays ?
its like , i thought no one would remember .
awwwwws .
iloveyouall !
okays ,
anyways , mr tan was online just now ,
and me , jacinta , huijun , shermin and him chatted .
and i ask for someone to wish me happy birthday .
LOLS
then you know what mr tan say ?
he said , 'HAppy BiRthDay to uuuuuuuu..........the forever mie niu felicia'
okays .
lols .
erms .
so today's my birthday , yeah .
and i went to eat stingray ! (again)
and unfortunately , i puked .
cuz i drank milk before i ate .
BLEAHS .
when i puked , i was like the merlion .
really .
then its like , disgusting !
lunch + dinner .
EWWWS .
now i'm abit hungry .
but you wont expect to see me eating at this hour .
everyone would think i'm psycho or something .
=DDDDDDD
okays .
doing the stupid e-learning thing .
today hors .
during VE .
ms lee like sitting there not moving .
then i sit in front of her ,
and she smiled at me .
okays , thats scary .
then i asked her why she like that .
she told me she was thinking of something and thats called stoning .
=.=
okayyyys .
then she say the e-learning is preparing for something , like , if there's a next avian flu outbreak or something .
bleahs .
but nvms .
i get to sleep tomorrow .
i think i'm sleeping at 3am today .
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