today has been a HORRIBLE day for me .
AND I MEAN REALLY HORRIBLE !
school hours .
got maths and history test .
after school hours .
tuck out shirt .
walk up stairs .
kana caught by mr freddy goh (discipline fella)
wths larhhs .
then he book me for detention .
then today i also got band .
so detention from 2-4 .
then at 4 i went to band .
until 5 .
for detention , need to copy student diary page 20-29 .
wths rights ?
arghs .
assholey school .
then i went to band .
although of peoples know i went detention sia .
wths .
1/8 , i made you all lose face .
i'm the second GIRL who went to detention .
well , you dont see any of the 1/8 guys going for detention .
then went to band .
after band , raining .
thanks to hui jun who sheltered me until beside mrt de bus stop .
then reach sembawang .
cant find my umbrealla .
then thanks alot to joan .
who so called , sheltered the both of us .
until her house downstairs .
then i lend her umbrella .
=DD
my left arm is soaked . while her right arm is .
=DDDDDDDDD
then now her umbrella is in my balcony .
drying slowly .
luckily today no homeworks .
if not , i tell you , I'LL SCREAM UNTIL I GO MUTE .
lols .
remember how i always say , 'muahahas' to replace 'hahahas' ?
well , i found out that 4 peoples have been copying me .
in deyi sec 1/8 'o7 de .
but then they use 'muhaha' .
then still got a few , so BHB !
SHIT TO THEM PLS .
=P
nvms .
tomorrow will be a much better day .
=))

lalalalas .
rushing the science project .
hahas ~
going to finish it alreadys liaox ~
grats to me .
BOO TO THOSE PIGS WHO DIDNT BOTHER TO FIND THE PIC FOR THE INFO THEY FIND .
=DDD
thanks to jacinta lorx .
if not hors .
i wont be able to even think clearly .
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i already told her say can give .
then you made me tell her say return at the end of the year .
DONT YOU KNOW BY DOING THIS YOU RUIN MY LIFE ?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHS .
then now she say dont need already larhhs .
i dont care if i lose face or whatsoever .
friendship is more important .
i was helping a friend's sibling lehhs .
then you say end of year return .
its not only troublesome but it made me and my friend de friendship wrecked abit .
i'm damned pissed today .
better not piss me .
everyone .
i warn you all 1st .
dont say i didnt warn at all .

i'm so pissed today .
one , i dont know where is the world coming to .
this world is so full of rude and uneducated peoples !
they may have a PHD or diploma .
whatever !
but if they are rude , whats the point ?
having IQ and no EQ sucks !
i rather have EQ my whole life and be a dumb person than being a highly education feelingless fella .
today i went into econ minimart .
the cashier was scolding another fella vulgarities .
SHE WAS SO RUDEE .
cant she treat her customers properly ?
so what if her customers have done wrong ?
in the business world , the customer is always right .
aint it ?
she kana PMS also cant like that larhhs .
then friends .
everyone changed .
everyone as in i really mean everyone .
they either become ruder or more arrogant .
with some friends in exception .
and i just found out some friends was copying me .
i feel so frustrated now . as in pek chek .
i wanna scream at the top of my lungs until i go mute .
where is this world coming to ?
peoples are either rude or copycats .
so ?
we are all going to die miserably arent we ?
from now de situation .
i can conclude that .
nvms .
i shall continue on my project and not bother about this matters .

*burps*
oops .
sorry .
i'm so fulllllll .
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just ate macdonals .
muahahas .
delivery lehhs .
then i use today my neighbour give the ang pow go and pay .
shhhhhs .
dont say out hors .
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my 1st time order delivery lehhs .
i'm so proud of myself .
MUAHAHAS !!
today in school boring larhhs .
i didnt feel like talking today .
i just wanna keep quiet and immerse in my own dreamland .
TODAY THE DANCE SUCKS LARHHS .
we cant do the 2'8 s .
then we stay back awhile .
kana lectured .
so now , i have to go and find out about the potato ance .
o.o
LOLS !!

I DONT CARE !
I DONT CARE !
i dont want peoples mistaken me anymores !
kkays .
i'm a attention seeker .
something like nigel , as you may say .
hmms .
i also dont know why .
i need attention !
24/7 !
lols !!
really .
when i dont get attention ,
i'll be all quiet and moody .
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i dont know whyy .
i dont want this to happen to me .
lols .
YAYS !
I'M DONE CONFESSING .
now ,
you all better not misunderstand me .
=DDDD

i forgot to say .
for band rights .
need to buy gloves .
then hors .
we go the econ minimart .
me and joan .
after school .
then was like , beside the school de .
then hors .
the gloves all together mahhs .
then i take out de hors .
all is for right side de .
then the cashier like bu shuang .
take the packet of gloves and put it at the cashier table .
then she take out one left hand de and one right hand de for me and joan each .
then SHE DIDNT GIVE PLASTIC BAG .
wths .
shit her larhhs .
she bu shuang den say larhhs .
i go other place buy !
hmpts .

I'M BOREDDDDD .
nothing to do .
today was like SHIT larhhs .
i so hungry noww .
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i go sun plaza de 7-11 , dont have the instant noodles i wanted .
then i pei joan go until her house there .
then i forgot her house there de minimart close liaox .
then i go .
then it was closed .
so i walked to canberra there de minimart .
then when i saw the minimart ,
i start to take out my money .
then i reached there , i still taking my money .
then i walk and walk .
didnt see my way .
then almost bang onto the minimart de metal grill .
IT WAS CLOSED !
wths .
still got two more minimarts at YMCA there .
but then too far , i too lazy also .
wths larhhs .
all close .
i want to eat instant noodles that time closed .
i dont want to eat that time is open .
today history lesson is like ,
BORINGGGG .
i'm going to sleep .
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then this whole day no one sms me .
i'm so boredddddddd .
although got homework .
i lazy to do .
somemore is not tomorrow hand up .
*yawns*
so tireddd .

lalalas .
today i was in a dramatic and bad and good mood .
i felt so dramatic early in the morning .
then after recess i was starting to cry .
turned baddd .
then after band i was in good mood again .
from recess until band practise i wasnt in a good mood .
i kept thinking no one in this world loves me .
not even like .
which is true by the way .
then i didnt have any friends in clarinet .
so i was crying .
i hated my family .
my bias parents .
my rude and arrogant sister .
haiis .
then i was saying something like ,
'i everyday , make a fool out of myself to make friends . instead , what did i get ? i kana called stupid , idiot and etcs .'
then after school i was fighting with joan .
haiis .
but then in the end we okk liaox .
=DD
i didnt mean to be in a bad mood .
but sometimes i really feel as though my world is crashing down on me , hard .
then i just wanna give a good cry .
i cant help it .
it just comes .
how i wish i can hug the gals in my school .
haiis .
they will think i les .
like always .
that day , go back canberra .
yunting hugged me .
lols .
it was a nice feeling .
being hugged again after 9 years ..
ahhhs .
joan saw the ugly side of me today .
the side which is keep crying and being sad sad sad .
thats how i am every night .
i try my best to keep my tears until 11pm .
which is the time i sleep .
11pm , i will let it all flow down ..
sometimes i dont cry at all .
i hold it in until its gone .
then i'll be happy .
cuz if i cry at night , cry until late late ,
the next morning i'll be tired and my eyes will be swollenn .
nvms .
i promise you all .
you all will only see the happy side of me from now on .
you wont see the unhappy side .
today during band , was chatting with a girl .
was fake laughing all the way .
i didnt have the mood to laugh .
i wanna cry alreadys .
then she say joke , not very funny also .
then i was like , 'hahahaahas !'
forcing and forcing .
forceeee .
i wanna apologise to joan for flaring up at her so many times todayy .
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to jacinta , for flaring up at her cuz she said the word stupid .
waaas .
i'm so meann lehhs .
i wont do it again .
i hope .

lalalas .
today my cousin went my house .
no ang pow .
yesterday collect liaox .
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waaa .
nvms .
chinese new year aint about moneys .
its about the gathering of the families .
=))
lalalas .
i love myself .
i love my life .
but i hate my sister .
=))

wths .
i hate being accused of something i didnt do .
just because of some bloody thing a person forgot to tell me ,
delayed my family's dinner .
and made every hungry person in the family mad at me .
what did i even do ?
my grandmother called ,
she told me , later my godmother will be coming to collect the discs later from our house .
so i told my parents this .
then they waiting for her .
then 30 mins and they havent even come .
then my parents go and call them .
then said loudly , 'FELICIA ANYHOW SAY LARHHS .'
how was i supposed to know how long is her 'later' ?
wths larhhs .
so now dinner is delayed larhhs .
all my fault larhhs , issit ?
how was i to know ?
she didnt tell me they go and eat dinner 1st whats .
then now blame me .
i told you all my life's fucked up .
you all didnt want to believe it .
on the outside , my family is those "perfect rich" family .
you dont know how it feels like .
me and my sis .
we quarrel everyday .
i dont want to quarrel with her ,
but she's always picking a fight with me .
sometimes i really dont want to live anymores .
WHY GOD ,
WHY ?
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH A LIFE ?
now ,
i give you all the piroity to call me a female dog .
and whatever you all wanna call .
i dont wanna care anymores .

today is chinese new year !!
=DD
went to like , three peoples houses .
got about like , 14 red packets .
lols !!
but then hors ,
today i damned zi lian lehhs .
like , every mirror i see rights ,
i will look into it ,
and say ,
'FELICIA ! OMGS ! I DIDNT KNOW YOU LOOK SO NICE !'
then i told my mother ,
'today hors , whichever of my friends see me , they will be shocked . cuz i'm beautiful .'
LOLS !
then i took a pic of myself .
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there .
i feel as though i look so maturedddd .
although of peoples said , 'felicia , wow , you've grown so much . so matured now .'
then i will like , 'ohh , thank you thank you .' and smile WIDELY .
cuz , FINALLY PEOPLES NOTICED ME !
muahahas .
so bhb sia .
but ,
i'm happy .
=DDDD
ohh yeah .
today hors .
i see whatever things that i can see my image de hors ,
i will treat it as a mirror .
=))
i damned zi lian sia .
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

some idiot just reminded me of a EVILLL thing i did to him .
lols !
spoil my mood sia .
nvms .
i'll have a good sleep and forget all about it .
hmpts .
party pooper .
=))

HAPPY NEW YEAR !
=DD

wths .
sms jam .
cant send out sms .
=.=

how i wish there is someone in this world who can love , care and understand me .
my family , they dont understand me .
especially my sister .
she does not care about how i feel .
she keeps retorting and critisizing me .
my parents , they side with her most of the time .
my dad is bias .
going home is no different than going to a orpanage .
i feel depressed everyday .
i wanted to try sliting ,
but i dont want my parents to find out .
as there will be scars and i dont want them to think i'm crazy or something .
i want to kill myself .
but i dont know if there is someone , anyone ,
in this world who loves me .
really really loves me .
if there is and i kill myself ,
wont that person be sad ?
i dont wanna sadden anyone .
but i also dont want to be the one fake smiling everyday for the whole day for peoples .
just a day of love , care and understanding is all i need .
i just wanna know how it feels like .
please .
i dont want to grow up anymore .
i want to think that i'm a ignorant 6 year old who doesnt know a single thing there is to know in this world .
i want someone to take care of me as an elder sis or bro .
i never had experianced real love before and i doubt it exists .
is there such a thing ?
if yes , can someone prove it to me ?
i want to throw tanturms
and not be bothered about how peoples feel about me .
i dont want to be self concious .
i dont wanna grow up anymores .
i just want to have fun , and not stress .

o.o
i forgot to say .
my last year MT teacher ,
ms ong ,
SHE ALSO CAME FROM DEYI SEC !
muahahas .
so happy .
i thought no one from canberra , teachers or students ,
came from deyi sec or would even think about going there .
i'm so happy .
ohh yeahs .
and today hors .
my mother found a golden-white hair .
hidden in the mass of black hair .
=))
can i say i'm happy ?
YES . I'M HAPPY !
by the ways .
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
HOPE EVERYONE GET LOTS OF MONEYS !
=DD

4 words .
i hate this world .
i hate the way my sister acts innocent in front of my parents .
i hate the way i look .
i hate the way peoples critised my looks .
i hate the way i take neoprints .
i hate the way the guards told us that we cant go into canberra primary .
i hate the way this world works .
hmpts .
i vented my anger .
=))
all cuz of my sister acting innocent in front of my parents .
it made me annoyed and disgusted .
it made me wanna puke all over her so called cute face .
SHE'S NOT CUTE !
o.o
she's cute .
she's DISGUSTINGLY HORRIFINGLY DESPICABABLY CUTE !
=DD
they dont know how she talks to me .
they dont know that she is violent .
i say something wrong only she wants to kick me already .
she will make sure her leg get up to my face .
but wont touch my face .
thank god .
then i'll chase her around the house .
making sure my leg goes over her head .
but not touching her hair .
i wont let my leg be dirtied by the brat's hair .
as the years pass ,
the kids get worse and worse .
where is this world coming to ?
the p1 - p5 nowadays .
our so called future successors .
are so rude , violent , inconsiderate , despicable and have brains the size of a pea .
their minds are full of crude stuff .
nothing else .
HOW CAN THEY BE OUR FUTURE SUCCESSORS ?
they practically suck .
they think they are all so mature and all .
they dont even respect their elders !
WHO THE FUCK DO THEY THINK THEY ARE ?
PRESIDENT ARHHS ?
i bet even the president respects his elders .
so , who those peoples think they are ?
just say something wrong only ,
wanna use violence .
violence cant solve everything !
it only makes matters worse !
hmpts .
yesterday , i was crossing the road with apryl .
was sharing an umbrella .
then there was this guy , about p4 .
walking pass us , turning his umbrella round and round .
then it was raining .
so the water from his umbrella splashed onto us .
i shouted , 'INCONSIDERATE BOY !'
then apryl said , if there aint other peoples around ,
she will scold all the vulgar language at him .
she changed .
she didnt used to be like this .
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everyone changed , i guess .
i miss the old times .
if we had the chance to go lanjut again ,
would they all be the same ?
or would we all be different , have different likes and so on ?
i dont want all of us to go our seperate ways now .
i want us to be all the same again .
i want to go back to the past .
=

today i went back canberra primary .
ahhs .
the feeling to go back is simply indescribable .
the teachers , students , the many walls of canberra .
all changed .
i have to say my schoolmates changed too .
i realised today that i miss them so much !
ahhs .
i miss everyone there !
alot of things changed .
hmms .
I LOVE CANBERRA !
o.o
I LOVE DEYI SEC too .
=DD
today hors .
deyi got the chinese new year celebration .
then got lion dance lehhs !
i loved it !
then hors .
got interclass fancy dress competition , malay dance , chinese dance , indian dance .
then at the end , the PSG group gave out sweets .
know what we all did as a whole school ?
THROW THE SWEETS !
=DDD
like , my class was in the front row .
so we get to throw 1st !
then joan threw it at the class nerd , accidently .
=DD
then got once i throw , a fella behind behind was laughing with his mouth WIDE open ,
then the sweet i threw hit him .
oops .
=))
it was fun , throwing sweets .
then mr freddy goh said , 'STOP THROWING SWEETS !'
then he laughed .
=.=
but , today was a great day !

ask me about valentines day ?
O.O
i kana group with ming cheng , AGAIN !
i dont care .
i'm going to insist and insist and insist until he changes group .
hmpts .
he caused me to fail my IPW .
i wont let him fail my science also .
o.o
then you all going to ask about bernard ?
he went to my school .
lols .
then joan thought he outside .
then didnt see anyone outside .
then he inside the school !
psps .
i hold joan hand and walk out of the school .
we thought he outside larhhs .
then see already no peeps .
then we go lorx .
then we walked to the smaller gate ,
then saw him .
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but then we walked away .
then when i went back sembawang ,
i ditched him .
o.o
he was angry .
then after that he said he was sorry .
but then
i was persistent .
in the end we also broke .
so now i'm single .
=DD
single-lism ROCKS !
=xx
jks .
i didnt expect him to treat our relationship seriously .
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LOLS .
today hors .
got fire drill .
the field so hot larhhs .
total defence day .
=.=
HENG DIDNT EAT POTATOES !
=DDDD
not like in canberra .
i wonder how is it like today .
hmms .
tomorrow hors .
if they let us go at 9.30am .
i will go back canberra .
i promise .
=))

i CRAVE for some love now please .
i want someone , anyone , girl , boy , les , gay whatever !
i just want someone to love me .
i want the feeling .
i want to be in the mood for valentines day .
i dont want to be all sad sad tomorrow .
please .
anyone .
just love me for one hour .
let me feel how it feels like to be loved .
let me feel how a girl with her loved one feels .
please , anyone .
girl , boy , les , gay , anyone will do .
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i miss canberra .
i want to go back .
celebrate chinese new year with them .
celebrate the chinese new year which i took for granted every year .
when i was young , i thought everything could last forever .
i want to be young again .
i want to think the same way again .
i dont want to know any single thing about death .
i dont want my tears to keep coming out of my eyes .
i dont want to know that canberra is the past now .
i dont want to know that i'm going to deyi sec .
i dont want to know everything thats happening in my life now !
last year and the years before ..
there aint really such a thing called valentines day .
there aint really such a thing called boyfriends and love .
in the past ..
we like someone means we like .
we dont like means we dont like .
now ..
there is such a thing as valentines day .
there is such a thing called boyfriends and love .
there is such a thing called STRESS .
thats stressing me so much .
i feel so weak everyday .
every morning , i dont even feel like going to school anymores .
i dont want to hear everyone talking about their boyfriends and exs .
i want it to be like last time .
when we talked about nonsense and laugh .
now ?
talking nonsense only makes you lame .
i dont wanna talk about boyfriends and exs in front of my friends .
i dont wanna hear them talk about it either .
i want to hear fun , laughter , nonsense .
i want to be a small kiddo again .

UPDATES UPDATES .
just now de fight with that rude person .
42 minutes of quarelling with me made the chicken run home crying for his mama .
=))
life is good to you at times when you feel down and out .
=DDDD
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I CANT STAND SOME PEOPLES !
like , they do something wrong .
then they dont apologise .
then i will say , 'at least a sorry ?'
then they will say , 'sorry larhhs . wtf .'
so .
that was what happened just now .
so after that fella said that ,
i was like , 'dont act cool larhhs . you aint cool . my ass is cooler then you . feel free to block me or whatsoever . '
i hate this type of peoples .
hmpts .
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o.o
i'm so fullll .
just now went to eat reunion dinner .
*burps*
O.O
excuse me .
=DD
in the car rights , just now .
i played the song 'Mr Lonely'
then when we parked the car and walk back home ,
my dad started to sing , 'I'm so lonely ..'
then i was like , 'no lorx . you have THREE females here .'
then he start to sing , 'i have a headache ..'
=.=
its lame , yeah , i know .
but i laughed .
now , i'm just sitting here .
rotting .
waiting for time to pass .
when you're having fun , time pass fast .
when you're bored , time seems to take its own sweet time .
now , i dont even know need to do journal anots .
alot of peoples didnt do .
wths .
then i do already .
wths .
i remember ms haryati got tell diyana to tell us to do about the learning journey de lehhs .
hmms .
maybe its my dream bahhs .
but then i wont dream homework de mahhs .
hmms ..
well , tomorrow then will know .
=))

omgs larhhs .
i puked today .
=.=
lols .
never mix spicy things with milk .
i ate kimchi ramen just now .
and i drank bandung .
when i finished eating , i really did not feel good .
then i went to the toilet .
and you know .
=DD
o.o
muahahas .
jacinta helped me find 1960 songs .
=DD
beegees de .
i will pick 2 out of the 3 .
then got one more is i find myself de .
is called ..
all you need is love .
=DD
i feel like using one more also .
its called .
give peace a chance .
its a nice song .
=))

wths larhhs .
band is damned tough larhhs .
but then is fun too .
at the end , i dont even have the strength to talk .
i'm so tired .
then have to go to my grandmother's house to change and meet my family for the reunion lunch .
zzz .
i cant explain how tired i am .
headache , handache , legache , stomach muscle cramps .
arghs ..
i cant explain what happened .
want to know then ask me in msn .
i now doing the dance project .
finding 1960 songs .
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forgive me pls .

i've seen the hurtful side of human nature today .
i called so many peoples , but all of them was either eating dinner or havent eaten yet .
i realised today , that i'm so insignificant to this world .
i called and said i need you to be my counsellar , all of you whom i called .
i just said that .
but what you all didnt know was that i was crying my heart out then .
i loitered around sembawang , wondering who could lend me a shoulder to cry on .
sadly , there aint anyone .
its okk ,
i cried alone and confinded to myself .
i'm in serious need of a counsellar of whom i trust .
any age .
i dont trust school counsellars .
please .
anyone .
i really need someone .
anyone ..

PS . the post below is the earlier post . it aint joined together .
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i'm getting damned pissed at his actions for her .
i mean like , reunion dinner ,
she cant go then dont go larhhs .
why must force everyone to go on the same day ?
cant she just DONT GO ?
or change date larhhs .
i want to pei joan go back sembawang larhhs .
also cant .
must go their house change .
FUCK LARHHS .
she cant go saturday dinner and sunday lunch .
sunday dinner is another reunion dinner for me .
SHE CANT GO THEN DONT GO WITH HER LARHHS .
WHY FORCE ALL OF US ?
WTHS LARHHS .
shit him larhhs .
if i can dont go , i wont go !
my dad asked me , 'would i rather she dont go or i dont go ?'
i shouted , 'I DONT GO !'
i rather not go .
i wish i wouldnt have to go !
he got girlfriend , so ?
aint my business whats .
so why force me to go for a reunion lunch on the day i got band ?
dont know what is rush issit ?
I DONT WANT TO GO THEIR HOUSE AND CHANGE THEN GO WITH THEM TO MEET MY FAMILY LARHHS .
I'M NOT WILLING .
I AM SO NOT GOING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS .
I'M SO NOT GOING TO SMILE TO HIM TOMORROW .
I WONT EVEN TALK TO HIM MUCH .
IGNORE .
he got gf , so ?
want everyone to know issit ?
WE KNOW LARHHS .
wths .
bloody idiot .
HIS MOTHER , MY GRANDMOTHER , ALSO SAY .
SHE CANT GO THEN DONT GO LARHHS .
OR CHANGE DATE .
THATS WHAT I SAID TOO !
I FEEL THE SAME WAY !
SHE CANT GO THEN DONT GO LARHHS .
FORCE EVERYONE .
what a unreasonable fella .
i wont forgive him for this .
i'm so close to tears now larhhs .
i dont want to go then they still force .
they also know i hate peoples force me .
unless that person is allowed to force me .
which not many peoples is allowed to .
even my parents aint allowed to force me .
i dont allow them .
why cant they let me come back sembawang , change ,
and go with MY FAMILY to meet them ?
i dont want to see them so fast .
i dont even want to see them .
seeing them irks me .
makes me wanna puke .
lalalas .
i'm going to puke all over HIS face tomorow .
hmpt .
who ask him treat me like this ?
if i can , i'll whack him .
but sadly i cant .
i mean like ,
whats his problem .
i've been repeating this .
SHE CANT GO THEN DONT GO !
hmpts .
suckiish peoples .

i know why i this few WEEKS keep feeling like crying and get angry often .
PMS .
=.=
i wanna apologise to all the peoples whom i got angry with .
joan is the worst hit de .
sorry joan .
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feel so guilty !!
IN BAND , I'M IN CLARINET .
but then the clarinet STINKS .
ewws .
i dont know how long is that thing already .
but then hors .
mrs CHEE told me my breathing that time , pushing very good .
muahahas .
i'm good mood .
she ask us to lay down on the table , one by one larhhs .
then put a thick book on our stomachs .
then you must breathe in the push the book up until you can feel the pain in your diaphram .
shit , i dont know how to spell .
psps larhhs .
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lols .
band fun larhhs .
life is good larhhs .
lols .
i need to go councelling siia .
i need a councellar .
wths .
dont know how to spell .
i need !
any age .
volunteer yourself .
=DD
in pri school , i have one .
but then now totally different school , cant talk as much .
i miss her alot .
although she aint a real councellar ,
she gave me lots of good advices and told me her experiances .
haiis .
lols !

today ming cheng brought the project .
he did it .
and no one told me .
I MISSED SO MUCH TV SHOWS YESTERDAY !
want to cry already larhhs .
make me st here for six hours ,
only coming up once to drink a sip of water and bathe .
thats all .
WTHS .
i made until one sip of water can last me 6 hours .
then sit until my backside pain pain .
then he told me today he had done it .
then i very sad larhhs .
say , 'then you use yours lorx .'
that time , i so emotional larhhs .
i want to cry already .
cuz i spend 6 hours on it lehhs .
in the end , got use larhhs .
lols .
i thought will be like the name de thing like that .
i lay down on the floor , hard concrete floor for 4 hours to do it lehhs .
then they didnt use .
they only use the names .
then the 1/8 all this lehhs ?
i specially go and buy the liquid to do .
i specially go buy ANOTHER gold pen to do .
then ?
where did it all end up ?
dustbin .
hahas .
the english saying , 'all the hard work went down the drain .'
mine is , 'all the effort went into the dustbin .'
hahas .
nvms .
its over now .
tomorrow have the heritage trail .
at the , hall the corridor there .
then thursday go asian civilization .. something .
friday go .. somewhere .
wths larhhs .
i all forgot larhhs .
then tomorrow also got dance .
siians larhhs .
but then the dance got one song i love .
=DD
its called , 'hollaback girl' by .. i forgot who .
lols .
wish me to enjoy my days ahead .
=DD

WTHS LARHHS .
THEY THROW ALL THE WORK TO ME LARHHS .
SOMEMORE GIVEN A WEEK ,
THEY TODAY 3PLUS LIKE THAT THEN TELL ME .
TOMORROW NEED TO HAND UP THE THINGS TODAY SO LATE THEN TELL ME .
FUCK THEM ALL LARHHS !!
THEN I HAVE TO RUSH IT OUT LARHHS .
MAKE ME SO DAMNED BAD MOOD .
this few weeks i cannot kana agitated de lehhs .
if not i can easily cry .
right on the spot .
if not is get really really mad .
whats happening to me ?
is this stress or is this my mental problem ?
i will HAVE to see the school concellor sooner or later .
but then i dont dare .
i mean like , its all small kiddy inside .
but then its very homey .
=DD
i feel like going .
but i dont dare .
i hate to cry in front of peoples .
HATE HATE HATE .
haiis .
how ?
i have to thank , joan , jia jia , angela , kai xin , hui jun and somemore i forgot .
they helped me with my project .
without them , i wont have finished the project even at this time .
THANKS !
THANKS ALOT ALOT ALOT !
*hugs*
muahahas !!
good mood now .
cuz done the project finish already .
i'm damned determined to not put my leader and timekeeper name in the credits section .
cuz they didnt even do anything !
i dont care .
they dont get the share of the marks .
han fei at least found crystal num for me .
ming cheng at least told me the 1st 3 questions .
but the other two ?
crystal left her foolscap at the locker and didnt even know a question .
shit them all .
love all those who helped me . =))

WHO HAD
&made you smile?
- too many .
& saw you cry?
- too many .
& went to movies with you?
- too many .
& talked to you on the phone?
- too many .
WOULD YOU RATHER
& pierce your nose or tongue?
- nose .
& be serious or funny?
- funny .
& drink whole or skim milk?
- whole bahhs .
& die in a fire or drown?
- fire bahhs ..
& spend your time with your parents or enemies?
- parents larhhs .
DO YOU PREFER
& flowers or candies?
- candies .
& gray or black?
- black . =DD
& colour or black and white photos?
- both .
& lust or love?
- love.
& sunrise or sunset?
- both .
& m&ms or skittles?
- m&ms .
& staying up late or waking up early?
- staying up late .
& sun or moon?
- moon .
& snickers or hersheys chocolate?
- hersheys .
& left or right?
- right .
& 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?
- 2 best friends .
& sunny or rainy?
- sunny .
& vanilla or chocolate icecream?
- chocolate .
WITH HONESTY, YOU SHOULD ANSWER THESE
& do you like anyone?
- yeah .
& ever recorded a sexual act on video?
- HECK NO LARHHS .
& have you taken a picture naked?
- OMGS . LIKE YUCKS ? WOULD I EVER DO THAT ? zzz .
& will you fall for the wrong boy or girl?
- yeah . maybe .
ABOUT YOU
& what time is it?
- 10.36pm .
& name?
- felicia .
& nicknames?
- dont know lehhs .
& what is your birth date?
- o2o41994
& what do you want right this second?
- sleep .
& where do you want to live?
- home is where the heart is . =))
& how many kids do you want?
- one .
& do you want to get married?
- maybe yes or no .
DO YOU HAVE THE SKILLS?
& can you roll your tongue?
- yupps .
OTHER THINGS
& do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
- both .
& have you eaten spam?
- nopes .
& favourite icecream?
- dont know lehhs . ><
& how many kinds of cereal are there in your cabinet?
- i dont eat cereal .
& whats your favourite type of soda?
- dont know .
& do you cook?
- instant noodles count ?
IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU
& had a crush?
- yupps .
& brought something?
- yupps .
& sang?
- yupps .
& been hugged?
- sadly nopes .
& felt stupid?
- yupps .
& missed someone?
- yupps .
& danced crazy?
- yupps .
& gotten your haircut?
- yupps .
& cried?
- yupps .
& lied?
- yupps .

Do you like anyone?:
` yupps !
Do they know it?:
` erms . i dont know ..
HAVE YOU EVER. . .
Said "I love you" and meant it:
` yupps . of cuz .
Waited all night for a phone call that never came?
` yupps .
Sad and looked up at the stars?:
` yupps .
DO YOU PREFER. . .
Flowers or chocolate?:
` chocolate ~ =DD
Gray or black?:
` black
Color or black and white photos?:
` both
Lust or love?
` love .
Sunrise or sunset?:
` both
M&Ms or Skittles?:
` m&m
N0N VALENTiNES DAY Q`S
Are you in a relationship?:
` erms . yeah .
If so, who with?:
` a guy .
Star Sign?
` aries .
Do you believe in love at first sight?:
` of cuz . who doesnt ?
What about true love:
` OF CUZ . by seeing old couples holding hands walking together . =))
Would you kiss on the first date?:
` maybe . depends .
Do you like hook ups?:
` if it means getting paid , why not ?
Do you enjoy receiving flowers?:
` YEAH ! who doesnt ?
VALENTINES QUESTIONS
You have a valentine event planned out?
` yupps .
Do you like having a Valentine?
` who doesnt ?
Does someone like/love you currently?
` i dont know .
Whats the best gift to receive on the day?
` a hug and a kiss !
Is a little kiss (peck on cheek)during school on valentines day sweet?
` VERY . =DD
Have you ever gotten something from someone on the day?
` nopes . be sad for me . =))

by the way , its a different photo from last year .
who look nicer ?
left side .
thanks alot .
you all made me go through the emotional stress all over again .
she is cute then cute larhhs ..
why tell me ?
i'm hurt again .
she looks nicer larhhs ..
stead with her lorx ..
if i tell her about this ,
she surely over the moon de larhhs .
me lehhs ?
squashed to tiny bits on the hard solid ground .
how come i look so ugly ?
why do i look so ugly ?
why do i look so fat ?
why .
why am i like this ?
why everyone thinks she looks nicer ?
why ?
i'm not fit for anyone .
i aint worth to be with anyone .
maybe i'm destined to be a loner .
one who spends her life alone .
i aint worth for anyone ..
why other girls so pretty ?
why am i the only ugly duckling around ?
they all lead happy lives .
why am i the only one who cries everyday before i sleep ?
why am i always the odd one out ?
why must i be the one who is hated ?
why ?
i dont even have the right to be jealous .
i dont have the right to love .

this few days so cold larhhs .
wear jacket whole day de larhhs .
wear to sleep also .
then sleep also need two blankets .
plus jacket .
then the fan on num 1 only .
zzz
today i bought a new jacket !
black de .
sporty type de .
=DD
then i bought a tube dress .
with tights .
=DD
today is such a nice day .
=DD
actually it aint .
i quarrelled with my sis a thousand over times .
by the way , i call my sis by the name of spring onion now .
cuz got once she made me angry then i threw spring onion at her .
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i know larhhs .
i very mean rights ?
whatever larhhs .
then spring onion like , pinch me .
then i pull her hair and all that stuff .
make until my mother so pissed .
this few days hors .
i think .
i've reached a stage of my life where nothing matters ,
as long as i am happy .
then i everyday feel like crying .
for no particular reason .
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weird rights ?
omgs .
whats happening to me ?
causeway point today so damned alot of people .
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my uncle didnt call today .
siians .
i want him to faster buy for me a laptop .
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i dont want to wait another 2/3 years .
by then he will have wife le .
then where got will spend on me ?
i so selfish larhhs .
keep thinking of myself .
haiis .
THINK OF OTHERS .
THINK OF OTHERS .
bleahs .
valentines day coming .
got big big plans .
muahahas .
hmms .
chinese new year coming .
WOOTS .
cheers ~
bbq coming up .
RED PACKETS coming up .
reunion dinners coming up .
new clothes coming up .
new bags coming up .
new things coming up .
MUAHAHAS .
I'M DAMNED HAPPY .
money money money .
i'm the money faced girl which you can only find in sembawang .
=DD
i'm obessed with money and shit .
=.=
lols
that day hors .
help deco class mahhs .
then i taking out the staple from the wall .
then need to use the backside of the stapler rights ?
then i was saying , 'woo . i'm using the ass of the stapler to take out its shit .'
=DD
then i act like mr tan .
cuz my class theme is 'DANCE FLOOR' or is it fever ?
nvms .
then i was like , retro .
go into classroom act like mr tan .
hands up and down .
saying , ' class , today we will learn maths .'
in a rap sort of way .
then abigail say ,
mr tan move up and down saying ,
'today we'll learn about prime factorisation .'
was laughing like mad larhhs .
now msn sibei siians .
not much people online .
the people i want online aint online .
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today dont know why so tired in class .
zzz
TOMORROW I'M GOING BACK CANBERRA , if can larhhs ..
i miss that big old place man !
by the way ,
i go military band .
no more symphonic .
i also heard military more fun .
then symphonic also cant accept so many peoples , only can 15 .
so was like , i go military bahhs .
then i play clarinet .
joan playing french horn .
=DD
today zombie lesson SUCKS larhhs .
wanna sleep already .
HER LESSON SO BORING LARHHS .
like shit like that .
just that shit is abit more exciting then her !
=PP
i dont want to help in the class decorations larhhs .
stupid .
i know it will be nice larhhs .
but then , I LAZY LARHHS .
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valentines day coming .
i have BIG plans for that day .
surprise surprise . =DD
chinese new year !
MY FAVOURITE EVENT OF THE YEAR .
of cuz , excluding my birthday .
=DD
i tell you .
i'm going to be rich larhhs .
80 + 60 + 50 = $190
WOOTS !
although this aint VERY much .
but its better then just $50 .
=DD
ahhhs .
i love life .
=DD
hope people give the red packets .
each give $50 .
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm so greedy arent i ?
muahahas !
heck care !
i love money .
i money faced .
=DD
even my mother says that .
=DD
OHH YEAH .
GOT HOMEWORK !
SHIT .
=DD