okk . so i posted alot of posts today .
THATS CUZ I'M GOING TO THAILAND TOMORROW .
YAYS .
so , i was daydreaming and thinking about things today while painting my nails .
i realised this whole week i was quite agitated .
this whole week , i kept crying . ><
somemore , yesterday , i found out got one more .
of my friend copy me .
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ask me lorx , if you wanna know .
then i that time when she copied me ,
was talking to rina .
then i suddenly cry .
=.=
ehhs .
then i was thinking about the teachers i will miss
when i'm going going gone from canberra .
well , this are the few .
ms george . =DD
ms goh . =))
mr ng . ><
mdm lai (!!!)
ms vasu (!!!)
ms ong . =DD
mrs lee .
mrs teow chia .
ehhs .
i think no more le .
then friends lehhs .
during the hols only .
cuz can meet in school when come and visit . =DD
joan . =DD
xinyi . =DD
amanda . =DD
weiling . =DD
may . =DD
her brother . (paii sehh . ><)
yunting . =))
jyn lem . (cuz i cant tease her about her mole anymores)
xueying . =))
erms .
still got more , i think .
but cant remember .
lols !
too excited .
woohoo .
wish me all the best !
will buy presents for :
joan .
xinyi .
amanda .
weiling .
yunting .
dont know whether want to buy for may anots .
also dont know whether will be seeing her anots .
lols !
dont say meet in thailand !!
lols .
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yesterday rights .
rina want me to bring her go see deyi sec .
then i bring her lorx .
then when we going back rights ,
she kept saying st nicholas girls school .
then i was looking out .
then suddenly say 'st keatiphol girl's school'
actually its quite nice name lorx .
lols .
then rina said , if got such school ,
i'll be the 1st to go .
then my ear suddenly felt hot .
lols .
means paii sehh .
also dont know whether my face got red anots .
rina didnt tell me .
maybe got abit .
just a little bit .
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i feel so embarassed !!!
lols .
3rd january .
going sec school .
i'm having school fright .
lols !
but i going back to canberra to visit .
=DD
i bringing my mp3 ,
so i wont get bored .
lols .
i kept spelling it as board .
then backspace , and respell .
lols .
peoples , this five days .
i aint around .
miss me kkays ?
miss me then got presents !
MUAHAHA .
joking larhhs .
lols .
wish me all the best !
=DD
wish wish .
faster ~
lols .

heres a load of tests you people can rip if you are bored . =DD

How old do you act? ----

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] I do my own laundry
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] I always do my homework/work
[ ] I actually enjoy intellectualconversations
[ ] I think politics are exciting
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers
Total: 2

[x] I show up for school/work everyday, unless I'm sick
[ ] I always carry a pen in mypocket/purse.
[x] I've never gotten a detention.no such thing as detention
[ ] I've watched talk shows to pointout the credibility of it all.
[ ] I know what credibility meanswithout looking it up
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week
Total: 2

[x] I know how to run the dish washerand/or do the dishes.
[ ] I can count to 10 in Spanish.
[x] When I say I'm going to dosomething, I do it.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[ ] I can wash a car.
[x] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water my plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school
[x] I remember to feed my pets
Total: 6

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up.
[x] I clean up my own mess sometimes.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[ ] I listen to my elders.
[x] I can type fast.
Total: 5

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[x] I can look at someone hot without thinking of sex.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the ageof 25 and have a job.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it sometimes.
[x] People have said that I act/lookolder than I am.
Total: 4

Now add up how many x's you have.
I ACT LIKE I'M 19 . HAHS !


nerd test . =))
[x] you wear/own a pair of glasses
[ ] you've played some sort of video game 5 hoursstraight
[ ] you have GI Joes or toy dinosours
[ ] you pack your lunch to school
[ ] reading books is fun!
total = 1

[ ] you go to the library to "hang out"
[x] you've corrected people's grammar
[ ] math class rocks! (but I like maths)
[ ] you've told someone a joke and nobodylaughed
total = 1

[ ] you like eating chinese food with chopsticks
[ ] you've won the spelling bee
[ ] girls/boys have cooties! duh!!
[x] you've watched t.v for 4 hours straight
[ ] sports are just not my thing
total = 1

[ ] you have/had a pet tarantula, snake, and/orlizard
[ ] you cried because you got an F on something
[ ] your homework is ALWAYS turned in on time
[ ] your NEVER late for class
[ ] spiderman is the coolest superhero EVER!!!!!
total = 0

[ ] you've corrected the teacher
[ ] you want to be a doctor or surgeon when yougrow up
[ ] you have a napolean dynamite t-shirt
[ ] you always have a pen or pencil for class
[ ] you're an honor student
total = 0

[ ] you've never cheated on a test/quiz
[ ] I dont care about my looks...I have school workto worry about!
[ ] you're in band
[ ] you've tripped and fallen in the hallway
[ ] spiders and bugs are way cool!
total = 0

ADD THEM ALL UP AND MULTIPLY BY 2.
I'M 6% NERD . HAHS ! GOOD !


crazy things test . =XX
[ ] smoked a cigarette
[ ] smoked a cigar
[ ] done weed
[x] kissed a member of the same sex
[x] drank alcohol
SO FAR: 2

[x] been in love
[x] been dumped
[ ] shoplifted-the fun of it.
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight
SO FAR: 4

[ ] snuck out of a parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have themback
[ ] been arrested
[ ] made out with a stranger
[ ] gone out on a blind date
SO FAR: 5

[x] had a crush on an older person
[ ] skipped school
[ ] slept with a co-worker
[x] seen someone/something die
SO FAR: 7

[x] had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTERfriends
[ ] been to Paris
[ ] been to Spain
[x] been on a plane
[ ] thrown up from drinking
SO FAR: 9

[x] eaten Sushi
[ ] been snowboarding
[ ] met someone BECAUSE of myspace
[ ] been mosh pitting
SO FAR: 10

[ ] been in an abusive relationship
[ ] taken pain killers
[x] love/like someone right now
[x] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes goby
[ ] made a snow angel
SO FAR: 12

[ ] had a tea party
[x] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle
[x] gone puddle jumping
[x] played dress up
SO FAR: 16

[ ] jumped into a pile of leaves
[ ] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game
[x] been lonely
[x] fallen asleep at work/school
SO FAR: 19

[x] used a fake/someone else's ID
[x] watched the sunset
[ ] felt an earthquake
[ ] killed a snake
SO FAR: 21

[x] been tickled
[ ] been robbed/vandalized
[ ] robbed someone
[x] been misunderstood
[ ] pet a reindeer
SO FAR: 23

[x] won a contest
[ ] been suspended from school
[x] had detention
[ ] been in a car/motorcycle accident
SO FAR: 25

[ ] had/have braces
[x] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[ ] had deja vu
[ ] danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 26

[x] hated the way you look
[ ] witnessed a crime
[ ] pole danced
[x] questioned your heart
[ ] been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 28

[x] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost
[x] been to the opposite side of the world
[x] swam in the ocean
[x] felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 33

[x] cried yourself to sleep
[ ] played cops and robbers
[x] recently coloured with crayons/coloredpencils/markers
[ ] sang karaoke
[x] paid for a meal with only coins
SO FAR: 36

[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[x] made prank phone calls
[x] laughed until some kind of beverage came out ofyour nose
[ ] kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 39

[x] written a letter to Santa Clause
[ ] been kissed under a mistletoe
[x] watched the sun set with someone youcare/cared about
[x] blown bubbles
[ ] made a bonfire on the beach
SO FAR: 42

[ ] crashed a party
[ ] have traveled more than 5 days with a car full ofpeople
[x] gone roller skating/ blading
[x] had a wish come true
[ ] humped a monkey
SO FAR: 44

[x] worn pearls
[ ] jumped off a bridge
[ ] screamed "penis" at a football game.
[x] swimming with dolphins
SO FAR: 46

[x] got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
[ ] kissed a fish
[x] worn the opposite sexes clothes
[ ] Sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 48

[x] screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] can do a one-handed cartwheel
[x] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night
SO FAR: 51

[ ] picked and ate an apple right off the tree
[ ] climbed a tree
[ ] had/been in a tree house
[x] are scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 52

[x] believe in ghosts
[x] have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] been in jail
SO FAR: 54

I'VE DONE 54 OUT OF 125 CRAZY THINGS ! =DD


experience test . ><
[ ] Held hands
[x] Lost someone
[x] Never got a chance to tell someonesomething important
[x] Cried my eyes out
[x] Danced
total: 4

[x] Rejected someone
[x] Wanted to kill someone
[x] Got called a slu*t/wh*ore
[x] Heard a rumour about yourself
[x] Hurt someone
total: 5

[x] Got involved in sports
[ ] Got called a dork
[x] Fell out of love
[x] Went to a funeral
[ ] Know someone who has commited suicide
total: 3

[x] Wrote a love song/poem
[x] Went through a phase
[x] Got ditched
[x] Know someone really stupid and/or annoying
total: 4

[x] Drank
[ ] Made a mistake
[ ] found drugs somewhere
[x] Thought you found the one
[x]Cheated on your bf/gf
total:3

[x] Found out your bf/gf cheated you
[x] Felt like the happiest person in the world
[x] Felt like dying
total: 3

[x] Prayed
[x] Have/had a crush
[x] Disliked someone
[x] been somewhere you werent supposed to be
total: 4

[x] Spread a rumor
[ ] Smoked a cigarette
[ ] Done something illegal
[x] Vandalized
total: 2

28x3=84% experienced.

amanda allowed . ><

o1. What will you do when one guy walks up to u ask for u hp no.?
- exchange numbers . you'll never know what will happen . =))

o2. What gave a very big memory when you were in primary school?
- erms . when joan's comb got stuck in the school chinese new year deco , and when she took the comb , the 3/4 of the deco fell . and the lanjut trip , when everyone except me kept snorting . =.=

o3. What will u do if your friend breaks down n cry?
- erms . comfort first . then cry with her . ><

o4. What would u be wishin for right now?
- i wish i had a million bucks to go shopping . =DD

o5. What's the time now?
- 3.35 pm

o6. What's the date today?
- 30 november 2006

07. Who do u think is the cleverest person in your school?
- me , me and me . =)) lols .

o8. How many ex-boyfriends do u have currently?
- 11 . sad . CURRENTLY SINGLE . =DD

o9. Can you tell me the meaning of hyperactive?
- super active ?

o10. Whose your favourite singer?
- erms . mostly guy singers . =XX

o11. What do u think of Kids Central?
- ehhs . i stopped watching that channel since i was nine . lols !

o12. When's the last time that you went out?
- last afternoon . when i went to deyi . =))

o13. Who do you think sucks in this world or maybe should perish from this world?
- JYN LEM JYN LEM JYN LEM ! and her mole . yucks .

o14. What will you be saying right now?
- ehhs . nothing ?

I'M 69% EMOTIONAL . =DD

[x]You aLways wear black shirts
[x]You always think that it is better to leave this world
[ ]You don't care about your physicalappearance
[x]You always cry
[x]You don't have any inspirations
TOTAL: 4

[ ]You don't have time to make people laugh
[ ]You usually talk with God
[x]You always read your horoscope in your space
[ ]You get low grades this past few days
[x]The color of your space is black oremo
TOTAL: 2

[x]You always think that your a fool
[x]You used to hear sentimental songs
[ ]It is better for you to be alone than to be with someone
[x]You think that guys are two-timers
[x]You love tazmania
[x]You don't care about sports
TOTAL: 5

[x]You always think that no one loves and cares about you
[x]You think that you don't want to love anymore
[x]You tried to have suicide
[x]You don't care about showbiz
[x]You sometimes realize that you are talking to yourself
TOTAL: 5

[ ]When you're taking a picture with yourself,you notice that you're notsmiling
[x]You have many problems 2 solve
[x]You hate yourself so much
[x]You hate people around you
[x]You sometimes blame yourself even though its not your fault
TOTAL: 4

[ ]You think that rockerz are cool
[ ]You sometimes imagined that you arein hell
[ ]You used to watch horror moviesrather than comedy movies
[ ]You cry when you see that yourparents are arguing
[ ]You want to be in a dark placerather than light place
[x]You like to surf on the internet rather than to talk with yourbrothers/sisters
[x]You are willing to sacrifice yourself even for your mortal enemy
[x]You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the world
TOTAL:3

Add all the totals then times 3.
23 x 3 = 69

i'm bored . so do this test . =DD

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was your first thought?
X_ why i so fat . ><

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
X_ i didnt even had sex before , how i know ?!?

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DUCK"?
X_ woohoo . FUCK .

4. Favorite planet?
X_ earth .

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call liston your mobile?
X_ 8613712938938 - other country freak anyhow called me . =.=

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
X_ endless . =DD

7. What shirt are you wearing?
X_ a too big for me white winnie the pooh shirt . lols .

8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
X_ screaming at my friend for calling me too late . =))

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing.
X_ i aint wearing any shoes cuz i'm at home . =.=

10. Bright or Dark Room?
X_ bright .

11. What do you think about the person who tookthis survey before you?
X_ ang moh guy .

12. If you're in a room with two beds, which onedo you sleep on?
X_ the bigger and comfortablest bed . =DD

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
X_ scolding rina . =XX

14. What did your last text message you receivedsay?
X_ i wan 2 sleep,dun replx - from rina . =.=

15. How do you like your eggs?
X_ I DONT EAT EGGS . lols .

16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot?
X_ bloody hell . bloody shit you . etcs etcs .

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
X_ myself ?

18. Last furry thing you touched?
X_ my hair ? lols . my rabbit ~

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
X_ i dont take drugs . thanks . =DD

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
X_ none . =))

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
X_ 10 . =))

22. Your worst enemy?
X_ jyn lem and her mole . she copy me and her mole freaks me out . yucks .

23. What is your current desktop picture?
X_ mary had a little lamb . with the lamb dead . =.=

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
X_ K LARHHS K LARHHS . BYE . - to rina . =DD

25. If you had to choose between a million bucksor to be able to fly?
X_ a million bucks .

26. What do you want to be doing?
X_ go shopping . lols . I'M BROKE . ><

27. The last song you listened to?
X_ chun zai by 5566 . =))

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, what would you do?
X_ erms . let them die in peace ?

29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be?
X_ it wont be jyn lem , cuz i dont wanna touch her big disgusting mole .

30. What is the closest item to your foot?
X_ erms . my OTHER foot ?

me and amanda's conversation .
lols .
just for laughs .
gray is me .
pink is her .
ell0s
jyn lem AKA ms m0le
hello! =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
welc0me to the vast and wide world of msn
ahh.. TY TY. im new here.. so can gimme some contacts?
hmms
candydreamss-@hotmail.com
ah.. this girl sounds to me v pretty eh..
hmms
yeah
euu can go seduce her
if euu lyk
oh no.. im not worthy of her..
glad dat euu noe
i think i pei wif u more lei..
really ?
wow
LOLLLLLLLLLLL
but
sorry
i'm jutz interested
wid guys
haha
CUT CUT CUT
END OF FILMING
VERY GOOD .
=DD
WE'LL TAKE A 5MIN BREAK
kkays
lol
BREAK TIME PEOPLE
BACK IN 15 MINS
GO TOILET ALL DIS WORHHS
LATER THEN WE CONTINUE THE SHOW
OF 'JYN LEM THE LESBIAN'
Ok, the next scene will be u holdin hands wif ms mole, walkin down the beach, under a rainbow
lol
jk niahh
den
i'll slap her
haha!
and tell her i already have a bf
den she go find my bf
den she say
'how can euu snatch my darling felicia ?'
she's mine and mine only !
YUX\
im gettin nauseated
then they will have cat fight
then i will say
'OH MY GOD
PEOPLE .
PLS STOP
den i sink to the floor
and cry
den they both stop
walau eh!
den my bf give me a kiss ~
den i okk
dun change de script
the actual scene is
den i kick jyn lem in the ass
u slap ur bf
then say sorry to ms mole
den she go fly away
then HAPPY ENDIN
THE END
END OF FILMIN

hope you all enjoyed the conversation .
=DD

5 wise and important Lessons

LESSON 1
A junior manager, a senior manager and their boss are on their way to a meeting.
On their way through a park, they come across a wonderlamp.
They rub the lamp and a ghost appears.
The ghost says, "Normally, one is granted three wishes but as you are
three, I will allow one wish each"
So the eager senior manager shouted,
"I want the first wish. I want tobe in the Bahamas , on a fast boat and have no worries."
Pfufffff, and he was gone.
Now the junior manager could not keep quiet and shouted
"I want to be in Florida with beautiful girls, plenty of food and cocktails."
Pfufffff, and he Was also gone.
The boss calmly said,
"I want these two idiots back in the office after lunch at 12.35pm."

*MORAL OF THE STORY IS: " ALWAYS ALLOW THE BOSSES TO SPEAK FIRST"*


LESSON 2
Standing in front of a shredder with a piece of paper in his hand.
"Listen," said the CEO, "this is a very sensitive and important document,
and my secretary has left. Can you make this thing work?"
"Certainly," said the young executive.
He turned the machine on, inserted the paper, and pressed the startbutton.
"Excellent, excellent!" said the CEO as his paper disappeared insidethe shredder machine.
"I just need one copy."

*LESSON II - NEVER, NEVER ASSUME THAT YOUR BOSS KNOWS EVERYTHING.*


LESSON 3
An American and a Japanese were sitting on the plane on the way to LA when the American turned to the Japanese and asked,
"What kind of -ese are you?"
The Japanese confused, replied,
"Sorry but I don't understand what you mean."
The American repeated, "What kind of -ese are you?"
Again, the Japanese was confused over he question.
The American, now irritated, then yelled,
"What kind of -ese are you Are you a Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese!, etc......???"
The Japanese then replied, "Oh, I am a Japanese."
A while later the Japanese turned to the American
and asked What kindof 'key' was he.
The American, frustrated, yelled, "What do you mean what kind of -kee'am I ?!"
The Japanese said, "Are you a Yankee, donkee, or monkee?"

*LESSON III - NEVER INSULT ANYONE.*


LESSON 4
There were these 4 guys,
a Russian, a German, an American and a French,
who found this small genie bottle.
When they rubbed the bottle, a genie appeared.
Thankful that the 4 guys had released him out of the bottle,
He said, "Next to you all are 4 swimming pools, I will give each of you a wish.
When you run towards the pool and jump, you shout what you want
the pool of water to become, then your wish will come true."
The French wanted to start.
He ran towards the pool, jumped andshouted"WINE".
The pool immediately changed into a pool of wine.
The Frenchman was so happy swimming and drinking from the pool.
Next is the Russian's turn, he did the same and shouted, "VODKA" and
immersed himself into a pool of vodka.
The German was next and he jumped and shouted, "BEER".
He was socontented with his beer pool.
The last is the American.
He was running towards the pool when suddenly he steps on a banana peel.
He slipped towards the pool and shouted,"S H I T!!!!!!!........."

*LESSON IV - THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING, BECAUSE SOMETIMES ACCIDENTS DO HAPPEN.*


LESSON 5
The organs of the body were having a meeting, trying to decide who wasin charge.
Each organ took a turn to speak up:
Brain......... I should be in charge because I run all body functions.
Blood........ I should be in charge because I circulate oxygen for the brain.
Stomach...... I should be in charge because I process food to the brain.
Legs......... I should be in charge because I take the brain where it Wants to go.
Eyes......... I should be in charge because I let the brain see whereit's going.
A s s h o l e.....I should be in charge because I get rid of your waste.
All the other parts laughed so hard and this made the asshole very mad.
To prove his point, the a s s h o l e immediately slammed tightly closed
and stayed that way for 6 days, refusing to rid the body of any waste whatsoever.
Day 1 - Brain got a terrible headache and cried out for relief
Day 2 - Stomach got bloated and began to ache terribly
Day 3 - Legs got cramps and became unstable
Day 4 - Eyes became watery and vision became blurred
Day 5 - Blood became toxic and poisoned the body
Day 6 - The other organs agreed to let the a s s h o l e be in charge.

*MORAL OF THE STORY: NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, OR HOW IMPORTANT YOU THINKYOU ARE, YOU WILL FIND THAT IT IS ALWAYS THE A S S H O L E THAT IS IN CHARGE.*.

the only thing this girl needs and wants is a hug .
from anybody .
she just wants to be loved .
she just wants to be noticed .
remember those chain emails ;
where they say ,
people who wear black are those who are alone and needs help ?
she used to look at those words ,
point at them ,
and say "thats me ."
she only needs and wants a hug .
a hug that'll tell her everything is fine ,
cuz her life is crashing down on her now , hard .
she just wishes someone would lend a helping hand .
someone would give her a hug .
or maybe even a shoulder to cry on .
she hasnt had a good cry in ages .
she wants to cry , but she stays strong .
all for her friends and family .
she wants them to be strong .
she doesnt want anyone to be as weak as her .
please .
if you want to help this girl , you want to give her a helping hand .
or even better , a hug .
tell her in thetagboard .
she goes there to read everyday .
she is getting weaker and weaker , day by day .
she cant keep it on much longer .
if you want to lend her a helping hand ,
do write it in the tagboard .
thanks .

1/2 of me is filled with happiness , joy .
1/4 of me is filled with anger .
1/4 of me is filled with sadness , emptiness .
so how ?
if i go with happiness , joy .
it will be ,
I'M GOING TO THAILAND SOON .
YAYS .
THIS FRIDAY , PEOPLE .
DONT WORRY .
I'LL MISS YA AND BUY YA ALL PRESENTS .
I MEAN .
ONLY FOR MY FRIENDS .
eg .
joan , xinyi , yunting , weiling , amanda .
etcs etcs .

if i go with anger ,
ITS ALL CUZ OF MARCUS .

if i go with sadness , emptiness .
i miss canberra ..
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i miss the big old thing .
i miss the peeps in there .
i even miss mdm lai !
lols !
know why ?
cuz its always in her lesson in our hectic schedule that we can have laughter .
relaxation .
fun .
i really really miss the school .
its where i had my ups and downs .
its where i made friends .
its where i had loads of fun .
its where i learn about life .
its where i had all the memories there .
i miss canberra primary third floor the most .
and forth .
the third floor , to me ,
represents loneliness and friendship .
p3 , i was alone .
none of the 2.3ians went there .
except for those i aint close with .
so i didnt mix with anyone .
i was a loner .
i always eaten my recess and went up to the 3rd floor to the library .
gradually , i began to have books as friends .
my english improved in tremondous leaps .
teachers praised me .
but no one knew about the emptiness i felt .
no one knew about the loneliness .
p4 , i met joan .
had loads of fun with her .
joan , if you got read this , remember the lantern ?
chinese new year de .
the one between the library and the toilet .
lols .
the comb .
hahs .
thats why it represents both lonliness and friendship to me .
=))
forth .
i also dont know why .
maybe its just cuz i spent my last year of school there .
=DD
i love canberra .

i love all my friends .
i love the whole school .

loving someone means seeing him happy , you will also be happy ?
loving someone means waiting for a person is ready before you both have sex ?
whats the real meaning of love ?
okks . the next part you may find it abit disgusting .
but we have to accept that we all have grown up .
and this type of things is not strange anymore .
i asked marcus if he had sex before ,
he said no .
i asked if i was to be his girlfriend ,
would he want to have sex with me immediately .
he said if i wanted to its okk with him ,
but he respect me . and he dont want to break the law cuz i'm underage .
when i heard this , i was fuming .
know why ?
cuz he said he loved me ..
and if a person loves another ,
the person will wait till the other is ready ..
he , didnt .
he told me if i wanted can .
i'm so damned disappointed with guys .
so i told him , lets stay friends and nothing else more .
cuz of what he said .
from what he said , i KNEW he isnt those type i would have a long relationship with .
cuz : pervertic . wont wait for me to be ready .
i also dont know why i suddenly asked him that .
maybe i just wanted to see if he really liked me .
seems not .
hahs .
i aint hurt .
this aint the 1st time .
guys ..
are they worth trusting ?
are they worth loving ?
i'm always wondering why they all are like this ..
hmms ..
guess i have to find that out myself .

today went to see HAPPY FEET .
what a nice show ..
ITS LIKE SO DAMNED CUTE LORX , THE PENGUINS .
lols .
erms ..
other things that happened ..
i shant mention ..
dont want to mention it anyway .
lols .

today went to give the choose school de paper ..
with my dad ..
cuz need parents to go to sign the verification slip ..
then i went at 1.15++
then after a while , saw joan ..
she wear uniform .. =.=
lols ..
then sign le ..
my dad go work ..
i headed for home ..
when i at my house downstairs ,
i found out i didnt have key !
and my hp was having a problem on-ing ..
i was like , WTHS ?
so i bought a pepsi from the nearest vending machine ..
and sat at my house's void deck there ..
so boring ..
so i went to sun plaza ..
on my way , saw my this year de MT teacher ..
i smiled at her ..
she smiled at me ..
reached liaox ..
went up to third floor ..
where the old people always sit ..
except that there was only two old people there ..
so i sat on one of the chairs ..
listening to mp3 and praying that my phone will work ..
it didnt , anyway ..
so i sat there for like ..
about thirty minutes ..
then i went away ..
ONLY TO FIND OUT IT WAS RAINING .
=.=
then i from sun plaza ..
walk to the minimart beside my school ..
under the rain ..
then i saw yan hong there ..
lended her phone ..
called my mother and asked her to come ..
then she say meet me at sun plaza ..
so i walk back ~
then met her ..
buy tidbits and tomorrow's breakfast ..
and went home !
THIS TIME , WHEN I WENT OUT OF SUN PLAZA ,
IT AINT RAINING .
grrrs ..
my hp still got problem ..
so i using my dad spare hp ..
=((

many thanks to :
YANHONG - thanks for lending me your phone ~ =DD
SUN PLAZA - you gave me shelter =))
MY MOM - i asked her to come and she came ! =DDD
MY DAD - for lending me your spare phone ~ =PP
MYSELF - for going to the minimart and saw yanhong and asked her to lend phone ~
=DD

today is when the world turned its back against me ..
=))
hp cant work ..
raining ..
no key to go home ..
LOL
its a lesson learned and wont be forgotten ~

RESULTS DAY !
RESULTS DAY !
i told my mom my result at about 12.30 ..
when i reached home about 1.30 ..
my grandmother (both) , my uncle , my forth grandaunt
and alot of my mother's friends know my result ..
lols ..
bad news travel fast ..
hahs !
i passed ~
with some colours ..
result lehhs ..
you ask me then i tell you ..
if not i wont anyhow say de ..
><
hahs ..
GOING THAILAND IN SIX DAYS TIME ..
woohoo ~
going to buy presents for quite a number of people ..

joan , xinyi , weiling , yunting , rina ..
all my relatives ..
grandmother(both) .. uncle ..
cousins ..
my mom's friends ..
my sis friend's ..
etc etc ..

lalala ~

tomorrow results day ..
best of luck to all p6 !
=))
my mother want to go with me ..
i dont really want ..
i dont know why ..
but i have a bad feeling for tomorrow ..
haiis ..
pls pls pls ..
let me pass with flying colours ..
and all my friends too !
i told my mom ..
if she wanna go , she go ..
but i'll ALWAYS not stick to her side ..

changed blogskin ..
nice ?
harry potter song ..
lols ..
if dont like , please give comments in tagboard ..
i'll change it back to the old one ..
THANKS .

mopped the floor for $7 ..
hahs !
alot hors ?
know why ?
cuz i mopped the floor for the 1st time in my life today !
imagine ..
a twelve year old 1st time mop floor !
hahs ..
when my father saw me ..
he shouted 'I GOING TO STRIKE 4D !'
lols ..
when i mop finish ..
my mom clapped her hands ..
and said 'well done !'
LOL
then supposed to get $3 ..
then my mother have no small change ..
so today de $3 (lunch) ..
plus mop floor $7 ..
AINT LIFE GREAT ?
i wanna mop the floor everyday !
=DD

haiis ..
rina introduced me to her cousins ..
and one of her cousins , chris ..
said he knew about me ..
said even if i was the last girl on earth ..
he would rather go with guys ..
haiis ..
he had hurt me deeply ..
rina tried to comfort me ..
i acted brave ..
i said this aint the 1st time i'm hearing this ..
although i'm lying .. its for her own good ..
but actually ..
its the 1st time i heard those ..
i felt really really hurt ..
that time ..
i wanted to have a really good cry ..
cry my heart out ..
but i know ..
even if i cry ..
there'll be no one to comfort me ..
haiis ..
whats the point of me living now ?!?
sighs ..
i admit that i aint good looking ..
i admit there are a billion gals in my school who look a thousand times nicer then me ..
but he didnt have to say those hurtful things ..
i really feel hurt ..
haiis ..
i'll continue to act brave in front of my friends bahhs ..
they wont see the other side of me ..
the one which was hurt , verbally and mentally ..

i really wanted to give a good cry now ..
i want to cry my heart out ..
but my parents will ask me why ..
so i wont ..
i'll act brave in front of all you people ..
i wont be weak in front of you all ..
you all wont have to see me cry ..
from today on ..
me crying is what you all will never see ..
not even my bestiis and boyfriend ..
even my parents also wont ..

OH NO !
OH GOD !
BIG CRISIS !
BIG GIGANTIC PROBLEM !
my grandmother say i pui le ..
sad larhhs ..
><
i tried to slim down lorx ..
then still got people say i fat ..
SHE'S THE 1ST ..
just now went her house ..
then she say i pui le ..
fat le ..
*SOBS*
arghs ..
MAJOR CRISIS !
ohh my ..
haiis ..
i'll try to slim down from now on !
I WILL !
=DD

okk .. different topics of today ..
-my sis-
we didnt really talk THAT much since yesterday ..
i still hate her alots ..
-my mom-
yesterday we sort of fought ..
then was at the prata place ..
then i kept on eating ..
cuz angry ..
in the end , i ate 3 pratas ..
thats the 1st time i ate that much ..
-my dad-
after the fight we had last time ..
we got on better terms now ..
but i'm still keeping my distance ..
><
-friends-
i miss them like crazy !
how i wish we have school now ..
so i can see them all again ..
-marcus-
last night he messaged me ..
ask me i sleep already anots ..
i replyed haven ..
then he didnt reply anymore ..
=.=
ohh yeah ..
he's going to army next year ..
so like , he's 21 next year ..
and going to army ..
at 1st i cant believe it ..
bleahs ..
i always thought guys go at the age of 18-20 ..
NOT 21 ..
so its like .. weird ..
but i think its cuz of his height ..
maybe bahhs ..
cuz he 1.5+m ..
i can be same height as him le lorx ..
HAHS .

i'm going online less often now cuz i'm busy watching my show ..
its taiwan de ..
so its in chinese ..
so i watch it in the living room ..
so .. LOL
so many 'so' ..
then i wont come in as often as last time ..
maybe after i watch finish that show then i'll come online often ..
should be larhhs ..
after taiwan de show is korean ..
=))

hate my sis !
hate her hate her hate her !
who the bloody hell does she think she is ?
she doesnt have any bloody rights to call me her sister !
she think by copying me she is cool is it ?
no , that makes her look dumber .
she already took away my parents and all my relatives love from me ..
and she still copies me !
what did i do in my past life to deserve this ?
did i owe her anything ?
should be larhhs .
thats why she's like that .
she's already loved by everyone .
why cant she let this unloved person have her own character ?
bloody cheebye larhhs . she .
bloody shit her larhhs ..
fucking gal ..
copy one or two things neverminds .
BUT YOU ACTUALLY COPIED EVERYTHING ABOUT ME .
copy once more ,
i'm going to 'ma chu hua' in front of parents le .
i aint goanna care about how you bloody feel le .
you dont even care about how i feel .
I WARNED YOU BEFORE NOT TO COPY ME .
and you still do it .
I HOPE , I REALLY HOPE .
NEXT TIME THERE WONT BE A PERSON WHO LOVES YOU !
you dont even cherish what you have !
why should they give you their love !
i want also dont have ..
all their love gave to you ..
you are spoilt rotten ..
me lehhs ?
got kicked to the corner so many times ..
do you even know how that feels ?
parents .. they spoil you rotten ..
they chased me out of the house before ..
they put me in a room with a cockroach before ..
they slapped me when i didnt eat fast when i was younger then you now ..
they stopped caning me when i was eight ..
they stopped caning YOU when you were five ..
THE REST ?
they didnt even do that to you before ..
correct , they gave me a phone when i was seven ..
BUT YOU THINK HAVING A PHONE IS FUN IS IT ?
you should see my friends w/o phone de ..
they are still happy .
AM I ?
NO , I AINT .
I AINT THE LEAST BIT HAPPY .
how about you ?
got all the love , more then you need ..
and you still want to copy me ..
i dont even copy you , for goodness sake ..
SO WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME ?
copy copy copy .
OF ALL PEOPLE .
you must be like ms mole .
i already went through her problem the hard way ..
WHY MUST YOU MAKE ME GO THROUGH IT AGAIN ?
why cant you people spare me ?
the reason why my parents try to buy me what i want is cuz ..
they know .. they have neglected me when you were born ..
they know ..
so they try to fufil my wish ..
THATS WHY .

i'm really tired ..
i am ..
please dont make me do the things i've regretted ..
please dont make me do the things i did to ms mole ..
i dont want ..
i also dont want to scream at you anymore ..
i dont want to ask you to stop copying me anymore ..
i'm tired ..
i'm really very tired ..
maybe i should just end my life ..
to rid of this tiredness ..

yeah , maybe i should and will ..

two days didnt go online lehhs ..
so paii sehh !
cuz was so busy watching show ..
the 'tian guo de jia yi' ..
nice show ..
quite funny ..

thursday night ..1611o6
xin yi wanted to know if i can lend her the goong vcd ..
so about 7.45 like that i went to the school there to meet her to pass her the disc ..
then joan called ..
then she going japan soon ..
=((
then i meet her at her house downstairs ..
wait with her for her boyfriend to lend her his mp3 ..
then she say ..
'ehhs .. ask marcus to come larhhs .. '
then i ask him to come lorx ..
i and joan not facing him that time ..
cuz we thought he would come from the other side ..
then he say .. 'hello'
FRIGHTENED ME SEHHS .
saii lorx ..
then he was about the same height as me ..
=.=
then i accompanied joan to her house ..
then i went downstairs again ..
he was there !
then he walked me back to my house ..
although it wasnt 'shun lu' ..
LOL

friday 1711o6
today got prize presentation ..
BORING DE LORX ..
then at the end ..
the choir , chinese dance , malay dance and some teachers ..
went up on stage to sing ..
when i saw that ..
i wanted to cry ..
cuz thats my last time i'll see this type of performances ..
last time i'll see the teachers ..
last time i'll see my friends ..
tears was in my eyes ..
but they didnt come out ..
i didnt allow them to ..
then after school ..
about 11 like that ..
cuz half day ..
actually wanted to walk around the school ..
remember all the memories ..
but in the end ..
i scared i cry ..
so i didnt ..
then went to take neoprints with may , yunting , fadhilah and liang qi ..
hahs ..
quite squeezy de lorx ..
i will miss all my friends from school ..
yes , i will ..

today ~
nothing much happen lorx ..
i told marcus to leave me alone on weekends ..
cuz i'm always quite busy on weekends ..
watching show and going out ..
then keep on messaging then v irritating ..
><
no offence worhhs ..

still missing school ..
haiis ..

i asked marcus who looked nicer ..
he told me the right one ..
i heard enough ..
he told me the same thing twice and he told me he guessed ..
he told me to trust him ..
trust ..
he told me he was serious about going into a relationship with me ..
but after the same thing from him twice ..
i dont know whether to believe him or not ..
i asked another guy who looked nicer ..
he didnt know how i look like ..
he told me the left one ..
which was me ..
he said i was much sexier and hotter ..
actually i didnt believe it at 1st ..
but every few months i asked him once ..
and he told me the same thing ..
if that was the case ..
why out of 70 over guys ..
60 over told me she looked nicer ?
marcus said to trust him ..
he said he was different from other guys ..
well .. shawn said that too ..
in the end ..
the only thing different was that he treated me as a free hotline ..
i dont know whether to believe it or not ..
i dont want to get hurt again ..
i really dont want ..

now is 4.59pm
broke up with him for 24 hours and 53 minutes le ..
hahs ..
i go and count until like that ..
quite miss him asking me if he could call ..
NVMS .
dont remember the unhappy things ..
today is joan last day at school lehhs ..
then friday she not going le ..
haiis ..
i'm going to say a sentence ..
and i must say something before that ..
i aint a lesbian ..
haiis ..
will miss her de ..
AS A FRIEND ..
hmms ..
she's like .. so fun lorx ..
without her in school .. SOMEMORE LAST DAY ..
haiis ..
sure boring de ..
got xinyi larhhs ..
but only one person ..
xinyi will also miss joan de ..
hahs ..
joan , if you reading this ..
SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE MISS YOU !!
LOL ..

siians larhhs ..
dizzyness takes over me since yesterday ..
cant look up or down ..
if not feel dizzy until like want to vomit like that ..
bleahs ..
stupid head ..
not enough blood say so mahhs ..
then i stand on my head ..
by the way , i dont know how to ..
hahs ..

i know i'm being lame but thats just the way i am .. =))

yesterday i fought with my father ..
we were eating dinner ..
dad : whats your blog ?
me : dont tell you
dad : then you dont use the computer .
me : why must you all know lehhs ?
dad : and i will reformat the whole computer . no more passwords .
me : okk larhhs .
then i ate halfway mahhs ..
then go throw away the rest of the rice ..
then i went to the toilet and cried ..
then they all eat finish le ..
he asked me to come out ..
i banged the toilet door on my way ..
then i sat on the chair ..
i talked to him in the rudest way ..
he gave me a talk ..
on freedom and privacy all that ..
and he said ..
" i just want you to know that we love you alot . "
that line made me cry even more ..
i asked to go out for a while ..
that time was 7.45 ..
i went out ..
until 9.20 then go home ..
i just walked around sembawang ..
near the school there ..
when i was out of my house ..
i messaged marcus ..
then we messaged and messaged ..
he made me feel better ..
then i messaged joan and yun ting ..
cuz i wanted one of them to be with me that time ..
then yunting wasnt at home .. she was at causeway point ..
then joan ..
when i reached home , she replyed ..
so from 7.45 - 9.20 ..
i went to block 470 (marcus block)
but he couldnt go downstairs cuz he having race dinner ..
so i stayed downstairs watching a cat fight ..
at the same time ..
yun ting messaged me jokes ..
making me feel much better ..
but from 7.45 - 9.20 ..
was crying all the way ..
altogether cried for 1 hour 35 mins ..
thats long ..
for me ..
cuz usually dont cry ..
then suddenly cry for so long ..
hahs ..
but i'm okk now ..
didnt really talk much to my dad ..
and my eyes are still swollen ..

broke up with shawn today ..
he wanted to call ..
i didnt reply ..
then he said i dont love him ..
and he want to break ..
i type the conversation here ..
he : dear can cal u
32 minutes passed ~
he : break lah
he : u dun treat mi as stead de
he : bye
me : kkays
he : lol
he : see
he : i love u for nth bah
me : okk
he : i hope u will nv be love
me : i h0pe euu too
me : =DD
me : btw
me : i aledi got new bf lia0x
me : so happy
me : =))
he : con grats
me : thanks

HAHS .
our cold conversation ..
FINALLY .
got rid of that bastard who treats me as a free hotline ..
muahahaha ..
life is good !

he just talked to me ..
shawn ..
he : hi dear
i was like .. WHAT FUCKING RIGHTS DO YOU HAVE TO SAY THAT ?
IGNORED ME FOR 5DAYS AND NOW YOU CALL ME DEAR .
GO CALL YOUR ASS DEAR LARHHS .
i was angry with him ..
so i was pretty cold towards him ..
me : hi
he : wad u doing
me : nth
he : can call u
me : no
he : ok nv watch show
me : watching
he : kk i dun disturb
me : k

so .. how cold was i to him ?
very cold rights ?
HE DOESNT HAVE TO FUCKING RIGHTS TO CALL ME HIS DEAR !
FUCKING CHEEBYE LARHHS , HE .

okk .. i cool down liaox ..
if you wanna know more about him ..
you can read about him in the post which is this month de ..
quite recently de .. =))

what happened today ?
wanna know ?
woo ~
long story sehhs ..
okk ..
in the morning , went for assembly in the hall and all that ..
then went downstairs to assemble for the volunteering thingy ..
and have to miss the talk by sembawang sec ..
*pouts*
nvms .
go back to story ..
i and joan was assigned to a table ..
where got a bottle of pepper , one bottle of vinegar ,
one paper with animal pictures on it and a box which got ropes/strings inside ..
what we had to do was ..
let the children smell the pepper (they dont know its pepper)
and they had to guess ..
let them feel what is in the box ..
let them try abit of the vinegar (had to use a straw and put it on their hands for them to drink)
and ask them to tick the number of the animals on the piece of paper we gave them ..
then depending on how many they got correct , marks will be given ..
total score was 10 ..
not everytime is us larhhs ..
sometimes is aliff and weili ..
we got break ..
then after that go back ..
it was fun ..
to me .. i dont know how joan feels about it ..
LOL
hmms ..
then did this from 8am plus to 12pm ..
then got one hour lunch break ..
i didnt eat , AS USUAL ..
LOL ..
then joan need to go out , so she left at one ..
while i stayed until 5 .. (got p1 and p2)
when she went ..
i suddenly had .. an empty feeling inside me ..
I DONT MEAN TO BE MUSHY .
BUT THAT TRUE ..
haiis ..
was a feeling i never felt before ..
from 1 - 4 plus ..
i didnt really talk much ..
MY BESTIIE WASNT HERE , HOW YOU EXPECT ME TO TALK ALOT ?
i was assigned with siti nabila ..
she was okk , i guess ..
what we had to do was ..
let them smell the pepper ..
let them feel what is in the box ..
and let them count how many animals are there in the picture ..
they were like .. SO CUTE ..
sat on a chair during the whole thing ..
cuz need to be same height as them ..
LOL
after that mak wei xiang they all had to go and help another 'teacher'
and siti nabila took their place ..
jyn lem and hua feng also had to go for choir ..
so each person is in charge of one p1/p2 group ..
i usually in charge of the 4th or 2nd group ..
they were smart man !
i gave most of the groups 10 points (full marks)
then they were like SO HAPPY ..
high fived with me ..
shook hands with me ..
called me their saviour and more ..
LOL
people who didnt go ..
you should !
their happy and contended faces will make you feel happy too ..
after everything was over ..
they called all the p6 volunteers to assemble ..
then we played some sort of treasure hunt ..
then my group consists of me , xinyi , may , siewcheng and qiyan ..
then we went to take all the things ..
we were the 1st group !
LOL
qiyan didnt do anything larhhs ..
she wandered off ..
nvms ..
i told the 'teacher' that she helped us and walked away after we found all the things ..
our prize was a pen .. =.=
LOL
got free magazines ..
the cover page was animals ..
so .. kawaii nehh ~
LOL
means cute lorx ..
then they gave us a form ..
to fill up if we wanna go their camp ..
we can go for free sehhs !
other people have to pay $30 ..
so if we go , we're like , saving $30 ..
shuang rights ?
LOL
hmms ..
there was a person in charge of the senses place ..
where i was assigned to ..
she saw me alone and quiet ..
she came and talk to me during break !
LOL
i mean like ..
she said 'hmms .. some of the teachers in your school look very fierce .. make me scared ..'
then i would reply somethings and continue and continue ..
then she bought tidbits for those there .. include me ..
hahs ..
she was so friendly ..

after that ..
cuz left my hp in my bag , which was in the sick bay ,
so i didnt see it the whole day ..
when i saw it ..
got 15 missed calls from joan ..
2 missed calls from my mother ..
then suddenly my hp rang ..
it was joan ..
she told me to pass her the box and autograph book
she passed to me in the morning ..
so i met her outside the school ..
and gave her the things ..
she went out mahhs ..
so she was wearing a shirt and a skirt ..
i was looking at her with envy !
then went home ..
walked back with may ..
me : haiis .. joan like so lucky lorx ..
may : why ?
me : see arhhs .. she got the looks , height , figure , attitude and perfect guy ..
may : ohhs ..
me : then me .. i got none of it .. I'M JEALOUS ! haha ..
may : no larhhs ..
me : yes lorx .. beside her , i'm the perfect ugly duckling ..
may : no larhhs ..
me : you , xinyi , yunting and weiling look nicer then me also ..
then she was like .. paii sehhs ..
then reached my home ..
then she continued to walk to hers ..
so ..
i was like .. so envy her ..
i envy they all ..
they got the looks .. the height ..
the figure ..
the attitude ..
the guy ..
haiis ..
they are like .. swans ..
then i'm the ugly duckling ..
they got the perfect of everything ..
i got nothing ..
life is good ?
think twice ..

wooo ..
parents colonian rule ~
added one more ..
if psle get 223 and above ..
and dont pierce any more holes ..
can get new phone !
mp3 and camera de ..
parents can be quite good at times too ..
=))

ohh god ..
WHY ARE MY PARENTS LIKE THAT ?!?
no more piercing ears ..
DAMN IT LARHHS .
then other people can ..
THIRD HOLE ONLY WHAT .
NO BIG DEAL .
SOMEMORE ITS MY EAR .
IT AINT YOUR EAR .
huh !
then my friend , crazy about piercing her ears ..
say , "can you accompany me to pierce my ear on monday ? pierce third hole .."
SAII LARHHS .
SHE KNOWS MY DAMNED PARENTS DONT ALLOW .
BY DOING THAT ,
TO ME ,
IS LIKE SHE'S SHOWING OFF ,
SAYING "I CAN PIERCE AND YOU CANT !"
THEN I WAS LIKE ,
"YOU WANNA PIERCE SO MANY FOR WHAT ?
ACT AH LIAN ARHHS ?"
IN MY MIND , I WAS THINKING ,
ACT AH LIAN FOR WHAT ?
YOU DONT EVEN LOOK LIKE ONE , FOR GOODNESS SAKE .
I EVERYTIME SAY SHE LOOK LIKE ONE IS FOR FUN DE LORX .
AND SHE TOOK IT FOR REAL .
STILL KEEP ON ASKING .
SHIT HER .
BLOODY SHIT HER .
BLOODY HELL .
HMPT .
PARENTS ARE ALWAYS UNREASONABLE .
LIKE MINE .

updates on wedding dinner ~
quite boring ..
yawns ..
i drank 2 cups of sprite , one cup of tea , one cup of white wine , one cup of coke ..
woo ..
so many ..
went to toilet about three/four times ..
hahahaha ..
`toilet queen
somemore dont even know many of the peeps there ..
same table as me ..
got a gal .. same age as me ..
same name as my sis !
LOL
but diff spelling ..
overall ..
BORING ..

shawn and i still didnt talk ..
he's like angry ..
and i'm like .. here enjoying my life ?
LOL
anyways ..
so late already ..
going sleep liaox ..
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE !

just now got rain ..
but it was fun ..
cuz me , my mom and my sis went to sun plaza for lunch and all that ..
then rain ..
then we rent an umbrella from hang ten ..
AND THAT UMBRELLA CAN ONLY FIT 2 PEOPLE !!
LOL
then i say i no need ..
in the end .. the three of us shared the umbrella ..
my mother stand in the middle , cuz she holding the umbrella ..
my sis and i at the sides ..
although have umbrella , i was soaked to the skin ..
while my mom and sis remain quite dry ..
surprise ehhs ?
i was wet until i cant be wet anymore ,
while they both are quite dry ..

LATER GOT WEDDING DINNER ..
long time didnt go to one liaox ~
excited ..
but should be quite boring ..
cuz its my mother's father side people ..
i dont really know them ..
my mother say we aint that close to them ..
cuz when her dad died (sad , i didnt get to see him) ,
they didnt help them with anything ..
while my mother's mother side people ..
help alot ..
cuz that time they poor ..
then my mother's mother side people ..
help finacially and dont know still got what ..
so they quite close ..
if close with my mother means also close with me and my sis ..
so since my mother's father side people not so close with my mom ..
then also not very close with me and my sis ..
saii larhhs ..
i keep typing the things all same meaning ..
=.=
okk , back to the wedding dinner ..
hmms ..
actually they only invited my mother's mother (my grandmother)
but my grandmother didnt want to go alone ..
so ask my whole family to go as well .. =DD
hahs ..

hmms ..
dressing ..
my mother wearing a dress ..
my sis also ..
i wearing a sort of like shirt ..
and a white skirt ..
my dad ..
i dont know ..
he havent come home yet ..
so havent decided what to wear ..

so ..
thats my family life ..
now say internet life .. (LOL)

i and shawn didnt talk liaox ..
ever since yesterday ..
GOOD ALSO !
wont have to talk to a jerk .
waste my time .
nvms .
shant bring up the unhappy past ..
if not i will angry again ..
then got wrinkles !!
*pouts*

=))
smile le ..
hahs !
i'm lame and i'm proud of it !
wooo ..
HAHA .
i'm just talking rubbish ..
dont mind me ..

just now i read my blog ..
was surprised how angry i felt yesterday ..
didnt felt that angry before ..
never felt that jealous before ..
wow ..
i was a total new me yesterday ..
but by night ..
i was myself again ..
normal ..
=))
i frightened myself over yesterday ..
hahs ..

you people all only know how to say flaming lies !
say will be there for me , all lies .
you only want me to be there for you .
cb people .
somemore got people wanna act lian .
pui pui pui lorx .
dont even look lian for goodness sake !
all these people kb de lorx .
just who they think they are .
and i got ms whatever the hell .
telling me everything about what the guy i liked told her .
=.=
double shit them .

sometimes i really wonder what you treat me as ..
siians then call me ..
dont even miss me ..
you dont have the right to call me dear !
you dont have the bloody rights to call me dear !
go call your own mother dear larhhs .
cb cb cb !
what am i to you ?
a hotline ?
a free hotline ?
for when you free and bored to call ?
is it ?
am i that worthless to you ?
MIGHT AS WELL BREAK .
arghs .
waste my time if i answer your call .
A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME .
are all guys like this ?
dont even treat gals with respect !

still want us to treat them with respect .
FAT HOPE , I TELL YOU .
BLOODY FAT HOPE !

just who the hell do you think you are ?
i aint a robot .
so i aint a hotline .
so you cant BOSS ME AROUND .
get it ?

cb guys .

you siians you call me .
i siians you dont even bother to answer my call !
I HATE HIM !
HE'S A BLOODY CHICKEN BACKSIDE !

dont talk to you then show me sad face .
DONT ACT KE LIAN LARHHS .
YOU JUST SUCK AT IT .

i call you , you say you busy , in school .
i didnt have any reaction , just say neverminds .
you call me , i say i busy , watching show .
you have so many reaction , keep act ke lian .

you busy i v free arhhs ?
you aint the only one busy you freak !
who you think you are ?
shuai ge with 6 pecs arhhs ?
if you are , i'll throw away everything and answer your call !

freaky fella .
act cool buay cool .
act shuai buay shuai .

that guy's a freaking ass hole .
i must apologise for something though .
I'M SORRY I DONT KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN A FREAKING ASS HOLE'S HEAD .
meaning .
I'M SORRY I DONT KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN YOUR BLOODY HEAD .

i also dont know what i see in you !
reasons :
ugly .
no respect for me .
treat me as a free hotline machine .
attitude sucks .

OVERALL .
FOUR WORDS .
'YOU SUCK BIG TIME .'

SHOULDNT HAVE FUCKING PATCHED WITH YOU !

just added :
i told you that you cant call me and you said i dont love you .
WHAT BLOODY RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY THAT ?
YOU JUST TREAT ME AS YOUR FREE HOTLINE AND YOU DARE TO SAY THAT ?
STILL SCOLD FUCK .
FUCK YOUR ASS LARHHS .
FUCK YOUR BLOODY ASS LARHHS .
BLOODY HELL FELLA .
CB CB CB .
THINK YOU SO COOL ARHHS ?
WAIT LONG LARHHS .
EVEN IF THE SKY FALLS , I WOULDNT SAY YOU ARE COOL .
MAYBE YOU ARE COOL .
COOL LIKE SHIT .

let me reveal the name of this bloody fella .
the all-time famous .
FUCKING SHAWN .

now listening to 'my grandfather clock' .
hope its cools me down .
i'm going to resign to my fate .
my last words ,
guys are just bitches with dicks .
especially him .
he should not have been a guy .
he should have been a girl .
so at least he knows how i feel .
he doesnt even bother to put himself in my shoes .
to see how i feel ..
i have a good mind to give him a tight slap ..
a few maybe ..

sometimes ..
i really feel that life is cruel ..
why are my friends able to live so happily everyday ,
while i always live in misery ?
with that fucking shawn ..

i dont wish to say anything anymore ..
sobs ..

when will the school stop talking to us about sexuality ?
ohh godd ..
i'm getting tired and disgusted with all the talks ..
=.=
urghs ..

they talked about wet dreams and all that ..
THATS THE ONLY THING I LEARNED TODAY .
others .. all i know ..
=.=
waste my time ..
LOL
at least doing something ..
better then doing nothing ..
i wonder today what was the assembly ..

hmms ..
cuz aint there , so dont know ..

took neoprints with yunting and may ..
take the $6 machine twice and $9 machine twice ..
althogether spent $10 ..
each of us larhhs ..
its alot of neoprints ..
and was fun fun fun !
LOL

today mr ng tell us ghost story ..
i was so scared ..
><
then i kept looking at joan ..
she looked so calm .. so cool ..
then there i was , scared like hell ..
=.=
what i wanted to do at that time was sit beside her ..
so at least i know someone living is beside me ..
but i scared she say me lesbian ..
=))
after that went bukit chandu ..
it was a solemn place ..
i dont know how to spell larhhs ..
then there was this act ..
got people act as japanese and all that ..
then i was frightened like hell ..
i was shaking all over !
luckily no one saw ~
hmms ..
then got alot of shows all that ..
i remember one show ..
need to put on headphones ..
then was in the dark ..
they showed us how people fought against the war ..
IT WAS IN THE DARK !
i'm terrified of the dark ..
sobs ..
den i was twisting the booklet they gave us for maths trail ..
i didnt know i was twisting it until joan took it and put it in between us ..
after that i was clutching my knee ..
cuz we were sitting down ..
so i was there putting my hand on my knees ..
and finger nails pressing v hard into my flesh ..
><
i see the film ..
i want to cry ..
one thing about me : i love to cry ..
=))
when we came out ..
then joan talk to me ..
from the right side of my eye came out a small tear ..
paii sehhs ..
><
after that nothing much happened ..
rina came my house ..
then we watched 'goong' ..
eat instant noodles ..
i mean we both larhhs ..
it was the third time i ate instant noodles this week ..
monday i ate ..
tuesday i ate ..
wednesday i also eat ..
my poor hair all goanna drop ..
I GOING TO BE A BOTAK ..
='((
LOL
jkjk ..
i'm keeping my hair and thats that .
*pouts*
=))

i asked you the same question i asked many guys ..
you answered the same way many guys answered ..

you told me you would be different from other guys ..
but it seems to me that you aint any different ..

watching goong ..
boring ..

After hearing the same phrase ‘I will be here for you’ so many times ,
I’ve begun to not believe it anymore ..
There aint such a thing as good guys in this world ..
There aint such thing as promises ..
Only maybe perhaps empty promises ..
All guy’s concern’s are fake ..
There aint such a thing as real concern ..
THERE AINT .


Times like this when I need you the most ..
You aint there ..

what do you treat me as ?
a piece of rubbish ?
you talk to me when you feel like it ..
and chuck me aside when you are not happy ..
you want to talk to me , fine ..
i can .. but in the afternoon ..
you always want to call at night ..
i told you many times you cant ..
and you dont make an effort to remember it ..
sometimes ..
i'll ask myself ..
what do i see in you ..
why do i still go with you ..
when you always make me feel more and more tired each day ..
when i feel so disappointed with you ..
haiis ..
life is always cruel ..

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这是给他的 。。

跟你在一起真的很累 。。
做事情时要想你会不会在意 。。
也要想你会不会生气 。。
我有想到你的感受 。。
你又没有想到你做的事会伤到我 。。

世界上不只有你一个人累 。。
我也是人，我也会累的 。。
我累的时候我也很想发牢骚，想被人爱 。。
我也很想跟她一样，累了就可以跑去大哭一场的对象 。。
为什么你还不明白我要的只是这些？

你累的时候我会在 。。
我累的时候你不在 。。

我想了很久 。。
是不是我又做错事了？
所以我很想你的时候，你就走开 。。

难道要很多考验还有很多抱歉才能够证明我会爱你到永远 ?

不要紧 。。
我决定放弃 。。
我不要再觉得越来越累了 。。

就因为爱没有规则，所以心痛了死了回不去了。。

i waited for your call the whole day ..
you didnt call ..
not even a missed call ..
you always wanted to call me ..
so this time i let you call ..
in the afternoon ..
since my parents will not be at home ..
you ask me so many times if you can call ..
i everytime said no ..
cuz my parents was at home ..
now when i said yes ..
you were so happy about it ..
but .. in the end ..
you didnt bother to call ..
you've forgotten to call ..
am i really nothing to you ?
am i trash to you ?
am i just your playtoy ?
neverminds ..
you've have really disappointed me this time ..
i'm real disappointed with you ..

back from lanjut ~
wanna know what happened ?
hmms ..
1st day , 30th october 2006

almost everyone slept on the bus on the way to lanjut ..
cuz the night before hardly anyone slept ..
i slept for a while then looked out of the window ..
when we passed schools , the children there was all waving and smiling at us ..
SO SWEET ..
joan sat beside me ..
she slept thru almost the whole ride ..
when i thought we going to reach , i woke her up ..
then i found out still got about half and hour more to go before we reach ..
so paii sehh !
i was typing my feelings into my hp ..
hmms ..
wait .. i type here ..
' the trip to malaysia has been quite an interesting journey .
i learnt that we , living in singapore , is very very fortunate .
as the bus went to lanjut , i slept for a while and after that observed the surroundings .
i saw many kampong houses .
i saw that they have one thing most singaporeans dont have ,
a warm friendly smile .
when the bus passed a group of children , they'll smile at us ,
some even wave .
whereas in singapore , no one would notice .
to be friendly , one has to learn to smile .
a warm friendly smile can brighten up anyone's day .
i saw the contended smiles of the children and felt happy .
compared to us singaporeans , they are much happier .
one thing singaporeans lack is love .
not those boyfriend girlfriend love ,
but apprectiative love .
we dont appreciate our nice beautiful country .
while in malaysia , even though they dont live in a place which is not as clean and green as singapore , they still can smile to each otherand even to tourists .
another thing ..
most people in singapore complain that the trip from sembawang to jurong like that is very tiring .
but just imagine , malaysia is a huge country .
children have to travel long distances to reach their destination ,
while we only take about an hour and a half to reach the other end of singapore .
so arent we lucky ?
we should really cherish our country , singapore .'

there was a firefly cruise at night ..
it was so BEAUTIFUL ..

got horror walk also ..
SO DAMNED SCARY .
so many manequins ..
with painted faces ..
and people draped in white cloth ..
and many candles ..
i held jacqueline's hand throughout the whole journey ..
was so scared ..


31st october 2006
hmms ..
that day got pull net , nature walk , clam picking , pool aerobics and children show time ..
actually , everyone was supposed to pull the net for pull net ,
but instead , me and my friends played with the seawater ..
hahs ..
nature walk was disgusting ..
it had so many mosquitoes ..
and to go out we had to go through the HORROR WALK ..
again !
the day before i went through it and now i'm going through it again !
just at different times of the day ..
when i went , it was at night ..
when went for the nature walk , it was in the morning ..
hmms ..
than after that got pool aerobics ..
IT WAS FUN ..
we didnt really do much of the aerobics ..
we was playing with the water ..
haha ..
after that was clam picking ..
i didnt hear mr lee say 'need to have a life-jacket' than can get onto the boat'
and i boarded the boat ..
a few people also like that ..
than he scolded us ..
=.=
anyway , that place was so muddy ..
yuckiies ..
the children show time was abit boring but overall ,
it was okk ..

1st november 2006
that day was woodball , treasure hunt , telematches and jungle war game ..
woodball was boring , so i didnt join in ..
telematches was in the pool ..
i didnt join in , but i did watch them play in the pool ..
and after that , it was free swim ..
so i played with joan and the rest in the pool ..
i kept trying to trip her .. LOL
and she kept trying to trip me ..
i didnt go to the jungle war game !
i thought need to go through the horror walk !
arghs ..
then didnt go ..
me , joan , xinyi and yunting ..
we in the same hotel room ..
all didnt go ..
we went back and talked and PARTY ..
LOL ..
but good thing is that ,
we no need to get our clothes dirty ..
cuz the jungle war game is the people there
spraying paint onto you while you run past ..
LUCKILY ..
i was clean from paint ..
YAY ! LOL !
besides ..
i just lurbb chatting with all my friends ..
=))

2nd november 2006
hmms ..
that day not much activities ..
9am we checked out ..
and headed for telok sangat to eat lunch ..
when we reached there , it was 2pm !
i was so hungry !
but there aint much for me to eat ..
so i ate VERY little ..
somemore before we reached telok sangat ,
jyn lem vomited ..
and i lost half of my appitite ..
her vomit was YELLOW and came in blobs ..
YUCKIIES !
how i know ?
she was sitting nearby me ..
and the chair also had her disgusting vomit ..
when reached telok sangat ..
xinyi had to sit at another table cuz she's a vegeterian ..
sobs ..
LOL ..
after lunch we headed off to desaru fruit farm ..
what do you know ?
jyn lem vomited again !
urghs ..
YUCKIIES ..
neverminds ..
i wont saw what i saw ..
anyway ..
by the time we departed for singapore , it was already 6pm !
the time the school expected us to reach school !
hahs !
by the time we reached the school , it was already about 7.45 like that ..
i cant say my family didnt miss me ,
but i also cant say they missed me alot ..
they all fell sick ..
like me !
guess we cant live without each other !
hahs !
NOT .
shawn was being a sad person ..
he was like .. keeping something from me ..
i felt angry ..
we're a couple ..
he shouldnt keep any secrets from me ..
its like ..
he dont even trust me !
hmpt !

summary ..
i had fun ..
loads of fun ..
the mosquito bites were worth it ..
(at least i didnt have as much mosquito bites as joan ..
i had about 7 .. she had over 40)
i learned about how people in malaysia lived ..
i compared the people in singapore to the people in malaysia ..
i found out that everyone has their good and bad points ..
most of all ..
everyone had fun in the lanjut trip .. =DD