Dear Mum,

I dont know if you still read my blog, but I'll still try. I cant say this to you in your face. Just take it that I'm weak & dont deserve anymore emotional trauma.

You said that I've been acting weird since my birthday. I admit, something that upsets me has happened one day after my birthday, & on my birthday itself, weird things were happening. You also asked me whats happening. Can this just be a secret for me to keep?

I know that I tell you many things, & perhaps I can say that I tell you almost everything. But sometimes, some things are just meant to be kept a secret. I have my reasons for not saying anything about it, & I really hope you will respect that.

Its true that I've been extremely upset [not to the point of crying] these few days, & I assure you, all these is going to pass quite soon, once I've moved on. Please stop probing, I will get irritated.

Up till now, I have only 2 secrets that I hardly tell people. I say hardly because I have revealed these secrets before. This is one of them. I've learnt it the hard way to keep secrets to myself, so no matter how many times you ask, I wont say, even though I hate to hide things from you.

Dont worry, I'm older now. Even though I'll always be young in your eyes, but trust me, I can tell from right to wrong, even if I can be abit impulsive at times. I can take care of myself, I can heal my own wounds, I can solve my own problems.

So yeah, dont worry so much about me. Just play your facebook games! (: Maybe, one day, when the time is ripe, I may tell you. Or maybe I'll just carry this secret with me to the grave. Depends.